Hope

[Guest]

It's interesting what you mention about giving knowledge to dogs and swines. My dad has a decent knowledge base and since I was 10 years old he would continuously tell me, "Never give anyone 100% of your knowledge. You give half, then you see what they do with it. If they turn on you, then you stop teaching them." I never thought I would need that advice until I reached my 20s Then in my 30s I figured I grew more by giving 100% because if I got snickerdoodled then I would be forced to either die or grow. The risk was higher, so it was more exciting for me to give 100% Likely not the ideal method of growing. These days I give around 50% as a max. Not because I like to withhold information, but because people don't want more than that.

In terms of being respected, it's nice to want and hope for that, but it's another thing to receive it. We can't control what others do, we're restricted to mastering ourselves. Which means, if people are inappropriate for us then we should shift away from them. If those same people later become appropriate then we can shift back In a way, I think that's what you and I have done. We feuded and stalked one another. Yet, here we are today. In all fairness, I recognized we were very similar in approach--we just differed in interpretation and application, but those deviances were minor. Once we each shifted toward one another, we're able to have enjoyable conversations (well, I consider these enjoyable I don't know how you feel).

I don't think you're challenging me any longer. I mean, you do challenge me in ways I enjoy--but not in ways I find annoying. You've changed your approach to meet me halfway and you see my individuality and adjust yourself to accommodate me. I appreciate that gesture, so I do the same in return. I agree, if we're going to be infinite beings, why not enjoy ourselves. It's just a matter of discovering what it is which brings us the most joy.

What are you working on right now which you're open to discussing?

Right now I'm working on slowing down I'm also working on trying to manage my tonal (my spirit could use the rest). If you have any advice on how to move slower, I could use it! Actually, I'm studying for my yoga instructor license--so ideally that has all the knowledge I require to slow down. On the other hand, I've been whizzing through that stuff. I'm uncertain if it's possible to slow down. There's so much momentum within my spirit that I'm convinced I'm incapable of slowing down xD Seriously, I stop to smell the roses and I still inhale, see the beauty, immerse myself in the moments and feel them. Then I'm done within a few seconds. Perhaps you have something to share to help me understand what it is I'm supposed to be doing when I slow down?

[serloco]

Well I am a firm believer that one can accomplish anything. Even controlling people. I used to be a master at it. I think i mentioned how it all backfired on me and once I let that knowledge out I began also getting controlled. Not something I practice anymore for obvious reasons. You get what you give in life. However that brings me to what I am working on. I am working on banishing mind control techniques and domination practices. I think that the knowledge you have about not being able to control someone is much better then the knowledge I have about being able. It creates no way in. I spend every day fighting to regain control over my mind. It is a winning battle however and I am creating shields now and blockers, and curses on my mind to ward out evil intrusions. It is coming along good and I foresee heavenly skies in my future.

Slowing down is a good idea. For myself it comes along well with the realization that there is always more then meets the eye. Stopping to silence ourselves, our internal chattering, and taking a good look at everything around us can do this for me. When I break my routines and intend to expand awareness it helps for me to slow down. Also I am someone of a time lord. Knowledge of time, perception of time, is the key that hold control over time. I can slow time down around me while thinking inside myself. I can think on time and bend it to my will. Its not something difficult to learn and is a worthwhile pursuit. Things we say about time like "time flies when we are having fun" all create the experience we have of time. Just keep in mind that the experience of time, much like anything else, can become fluid and change. Time is a great teacher and ally is you befriend it. It is wise to make every moment count. That realization when rolled around and pondered on just may give you the intent you need to really "stop and smell the roses".

Yes I do enjoy our conversations. And I agree we have each adapted to suit one another. You no longer get under my skin 'so to speak'.

I am lucky in that I have undergone extreme hardship in my life. Pure agony and pain for long terms. I learned to wield pain and befriend it. Wield fear and befriend it. Over time I learned not just to enjoy the great miracles in my life but take great pleasure in the small things as well. I now enjoy peace of mind, however brief that can be, and make the most out of the average ways of life. I know now that extreme hardship merely expands our love of the small things, and enhances the experience of joy and life.

[Guest]

serloco wrote:I know now that extreme hardship merely expands our love of the small things, and enhances the experience of joy and life.
Yeah.  It sort of sucks how that works.  Obviously everyone suffers--it's just to what degree do people differ.  If I hadn't of suffered, I wouldn't know the joys I need in my life.  In fact, I wouldn't even need joy.  I only know joy because I've known sadness.  I only know loyalty because I've met betrayal.  I only know love because I met hate.  Without something to compare, I would remain ignorant.  Would I rather be ignorant and not know pain--or would I rather know pain and pursue joy.  Such crappy choices  

Breaking routines is a great suggestion to slow time.  I've known that as breaking patterns, but I can't always identify MY patterns.  I can see patterns in others just fine though  To be fair, I prefer to run from personal closeness with others.  That frightens me.  I've had many bad experiences associated with personal closeness.  A few at this site, in fact.  Elias123 was declared (can't recall if he was self-declared or NLW declared) a Nagual when I first met him.  I PMed, that night we had a shared dream (this is when I didn't know sharing dreams was a thing yet).  After this he brought me into his inner circle.  A few months later he declared me evil and ejected me from the group.  I'm trying to remember what I did.  I think I wasn't behaving appropriately, that sounds pretty accurate.  I didn't care enough about him is what it boiled down to.  I'm sure there are some logs of that somewhere around the site.  I was removed from RF.  Some time later I was to come back into RF (forget why).  Elias told Wolf I wasn't allowed back.  Wolf ignored Elias and let me back Anyway.  My pattern seems to involve befriending people who later decide they don't want me because I'm not giving them what they expect me to give them.  I've never intentionally tried to piss those people off either.  After the first few times I realized being close to people hurts me when they decide I'm not.... appropriate.  Perhaps that's why I'm so quick, if I remain in one place for too long then I get hurt.  If I move fast enough, people can't keep up.  They can't hurt me because I'm no longer around to be hurt lol.  

You bring up a fair point--to make every moment count.  I do stop to smell the roses, I just need three seconds instead of three hours.

Also, you mention shields, blocks, and curses to ward out evil intrusions.  I realize religion often pushes the concept of evil, but I personally wonder if evil is real.  Instead of blocking "evil" thoughts, you could opt to understand what is driving you to act, then find another way to meet that same need; one which doesn't hurt others.  If you deny the experience, those denials often slip through the cracks and somewhat haunt the mind.  If you address them then you can eliminate them.  Mastery, then elimination over your thoughts instead of only eliminating your thoughts.  If you don't understand why you're having those thoughts then the pattern will continue to repeat in new ways.  I'm currently trying to spot my own patterns.  Running seems to be my most obvious pattern.  Yet I run to avoid upsetting people.  I upset people by being myself, by accidentally walking into their sensitive spots.  Then all hell breaks loose.  I don't know how to fix that pattern of mine.  I've been avoiding closeness to stop that pattern.  When I do allow closeness, I run into the same issue of stumbling into sensitive spots and then I'm chased with pitchforks this tells me I need to find closeness with people who accept my "evil" xD Rather, I need to be around a different type of people.  I don't know how to find those people either.  I mean, I found you.  You seem very open to my limitations of being.  Glance and Sen have also been pretty open about my inadequacies.  Others too have tolerated me well enough.  Needless to say, it's been a tough pattern to break.  For now, I suppose avoiding personal closeness is the best method to stop the pattern--but being alone all the time sort of sucks lol.

[serloco]

Oh I can relate.. I am very isolated from people. I've been to hell and back and so I know evil. I used to always judge people positively and in doing so was led to heaven. When I got there I asked God to show me Adam's life. He did so accordingly. I met real evil for the first time. In the beginning I fought God and told Him since i dont believe in evil then i dont make it. He assured me evil was true. I fought hard but he sure showed me. Since that day I been fighting evil out of my life and fighting for what is right. I am proud of that. I fight hard. God asked me to go to hell for Him and save souls and so I did. I met demons, monsters and am still fighting to this very day. The evil in my mind is not my own mind, it is attacks from evil iobs and demons. I am winning my battle slowly but surely. If you would of met me three years ago you would know what I mean. I was possessed and evil myself. God told me to embrace evil and told me i needed to understand it in order to defeat it. So I dove right in. I wish I was as innocent as you and say I dont believe in true evil but sister I have lived it for many years. I am now to the point where I empower love so strongly that my choice in love can turn a demon into a saint. Its not easy but its possible.

You dont need to worry about me. I will not turn my back on you. I have lived and dealt with the worst creation has to offer and you are a walk in the park.

[Guest]

I believe that you wouldn't turn my back on me. I saw how you dealt with Billy after he betrayed you. I've never been that flavor of bad. I'm more abrasive and defiant, very rarely malicious. That earned my trust. Also, you were very forgiving toward me. Even after I pushed you to the edge. You might be surprised by how many don't forgive after that. The ones who have forgiven me have become very close friends.

It's not that I don't believe in evil, it's that I see it as a point on a spectrum. There is evil in the the world, but often it isn't an individual. Evil is found within behavior. What I mean is a person is unlikely to be evil, instead a person commits acts of evil. Part of it is I dislike the word evil. I prefer to call evil behavior, poor choices. Evil reminds me of religion and demons.

Question, instead of seeing your service as a fight against evil, have you considered seeing it as supporting humanity? When I go to work, I don't ask myself what BS I'll have to deal with today. I ask myself who am I going to help today. I'm less interested in fighting and more interested in the joy aspects, hence I see things slightly different even if we're essentially doing the same thing.

As I think more on this, I wonder if I frame my intent in hopes of manifesting supportive behavior due to my tendency to f.uck s.hit up in dreaming. I'm awful in dreams. I constantly catch myself in sketchy scenarios. Although most times I agree with my double once I learn all the details, but when my consciousness initially arrives, and I have no background on why I'm in a chaotic situation, I'm always temporarily disoriented. My dreams generally have begun with this exchange with myself, "Why am I sucking souls and where did all these bodies come from?! What the he.ll did I do?! Oh, these people were killing children? Why didn't you say so? You may continue eating souls. Let me help you grab a second serving."

On the other hand, you may be seeing yourself as fighting evil if you're approaching it from a state of holiness or goodness. Hmmm. It sounds like we're meeting at the same place, but leaving from opposite points. Lol. I like having friends in high places

I agree with what you said. It's easier to fight evil if you've been evil. It's why ex criminals are experts at catching other criminals. We are capable of thinking as they do.

[Guest]

Edit: typo: I believe you wouldn't turn your back on me. Phone replies aren't ideal.

[serloco]

Yes I like having friends in high places as well. I have allies scattered in key places all over the globe. It really is insane just how much power we have.

I fight evil because I was left no choice. It was either let them win and be tortured and abused, as well as many others, or save the day for everyone including myself. When I make cures and do healing work I am often attacked by demonic entities. Its either fight back and win or let them hurt everyone and every thing. Most often however I find people who are not evil but unwittingly believe in evil knowledge because they believe its truth. Most people do not see the power of their choice in the matter.

I do approach fight evil as the work of holiness.. I am very loving towards God and have much faith in Him. When He asked me to free people in hell I said yes sir for you I will do anything. Sure enough I found myself there fighting side by side with God. I managed to save many people and once I did that we created a free city for them. The people saw God within me and begged and cried to be saved. There was only one choice in the matter and it was not a tough one to make.

[serloco]

Oh I can relate.. I am very isolated from people. I've been to hell and back and so I know evil. I used to always judge people positively and in doing so was led to heaven. When I got there I asked God to show me Adam's life. He did so accordingly. I met real evil for the first time. In the beginning I fought God and told Him since i dont believe in evil then i dont make it. He assured me evil was true. I fought hard but he sure showed me. Since that day I been fighting evil out of my life and fighting for what is right. I am proud of that. I fight hard. God asked me to go to hell for Him and save souls and so I did. I met demons, monsters and am still fighting to this very day. The evil in my mind is not my own mind, it is attacks from evil iobs and demons. I am winning my battle slowly but surely. If you would of met me three years ago you would know what I mean. I was possessed and evil myself. God told me to embrace evil and told me i needed to understand it in order to defeat it. So I dove right in. I wish I was as innocent as you and say I dont believe in true evil but sister I have lived it for many years. I am now to the point where I empower love so strongly that my choice in love can turn a demon into a saint. Its not easy but its possible.

You dont need to worry about me. I will not turn my back on you. I have lived and dealt with the worst creation has to offer and you are a walk in the park.

[Guest]

I believe that you wouldn't turn my back on me. I saw how you dealt with Billy after he betrayed you. I've never been that flavor of bad. I'm more abrasive and defiant, very rarely malicious. That earned my trust. Also, you were very forgiving toward me. Even after I pushed you to the edge. You might be surprised by how many don't forgive after that. The ones who have forgiven me have become very close friends.

It's not that I don't believe in evil, it's that I see it as a point on a spectrum. There is evil in the the world, but often it isn't an individual. Evil is found within behavior. What I mean is a person is unlikely to be evil, instead a person commits acts of evil. Part of it is I dislike the word evil. I prefer to call evil behavior, poor choices. Evil reminds me of religion and demons.

Question, instead of seeing your service as a fight against evil, have you considered seeing it as supporting humanity? When I go to work, I don't ask myself what BS I'll have to deal with today. I ask myself who am I going to help today. I'm less interested in fighting and more interested in the joy aspects, hence I see things slightly different even if we're essentially doing the same thing.

As I think more on this, I wonder if I frame my intent in hopes of manifesting supportive behavior due to my tendency to f.uck s.hit up in dreaming. I'm awful in dreams. I constantly catch myself in sketchy scenarios. Although most times I agree with my double once I learn all the details, but when my consciousness initially arrives, and I have no background on why I'm in a chaotic situation, I'm always temporarily disoriented. My dreams generally have begun with this exchange with myself, "Why am I sucking souls and where did all these bodies come from?! What the he.ll did I do?! Oh, these people were killing children? Why didn't you say so? You may continue eating souls. Let me help you grab a second serving."

On the other hand, you may be seeing yourself as fighting evil if you're approaching it from a state of holiness or goodness. Hmmm. It sounds like we're meeting at the same place, but leaving from opposite points. Lol. I like having friends in high places

I agree with what you said. It's easier to fight evil if you've been evil. It's why ex criminals are experts at catching other criminals. We are capable of thinking as they do.

[Guest]

Edit: typo: I believe you wouldn't turn your back on me. Phone replies aren't ideal.

[serloco]

Yes I like having friends in high places as well. I have allies scattered in key places all over the globe. It really is insane just how much power we have.

I fight evil because I was left no choice. It was either let them win and be tortured and abused, as well as many others, or save the day for everyone including myself. When I make cures and do healing work I am often attacked by demonic entities. Its either fight back and win or let them hurt everyone and every thing. Most often however I find people who are not evil but unwittingly believe in evil knowledge because they believe its truth. Most people do not see the power of their choice in the matter.

I do approach fight evil as the work of holiness.. I am very loving towards God and have much faith in Him. When He asked me to free people in hell I said yes sir for you I will do anything. Sure enough I found myself there fighting side by side with God. I managed to save many people and once I did that we created a free city for them. The people saw God within me and begged and cried to be saved. There was only one choice in the matter and it was not a tough one to make.

[serloco]

Oh I can relate.. I am very isolated from people. I've been to hell and back and so I know evil. I used to always judge people positively and in doing so was led to heaven. When I got there I asked God to show me Adam's life. He did so accordingly. I met real evil for the first time. In the beginning I fought God and told Him since i dont believe in evil then i dont make it. He assured me evil was true. I fought hard but he sure showed me. Since that day I been fighting evil out of my life and fighting for what is right. I am proud of that. I fight hard. God asked me to go to hell for Him and save souls and so I did. I met demons, monsters and am still fighting to this very day. The evil in my mind is not my own mind, it is attacks from evil iobs and demons. I am winning my battle slowly but surely. If you would of met me three years ago you would know what I mean. I was possessed and evil myself. God told me to embrace evil and told me i needed to understand it in order to defeat it. So I dove right in. I wish I was as innocent as you and say I dont believe in true evil but sister I have lived it for many years. I am now to the point where I empower love so strongly that my choice in love can turn a demon into a saint. Its not easy but its possible.

You dont need to worry about me. I will not turn my back on you. I have lived and dealt with the worst creation has to offer and you are a walk in the park.

[Guest]

I believe that you wouldn't turn my back on me. I saw how you dealt with Billy after he betrayed you. I've never been that flavor of bad. I'm more abrasive and defiant, very rarely malicious. That earned my trust. Also, you were very forgiving toward me. Even after I pushed you to the edge. You might be surprised by how many don't forgive after that. The ones who have forgiven me have become very close friends.

It's not that I don't believe in evil, it's that I see it as a point on a spectrum. There is evil in the the world, but often it isn't an individual. Evil is found within behavior. What I mean is a person is unlikely to be evil, instead a person commits acts of evil. Part of it is I dislike the word evil. I prefer to call evil behavior, poor choices. Evil reminds me of religion and demons.

Question, instead of seeing your service as a fight against evil, have you considered seeing it as supporting humanity? When I go to work, I don't ask myself what BS I'll have to deal with today. I ask myself who am I going to help today. I'm less interested in fighting and more interested in the joy aspects, hence I see things slightly different even if we're essentially doing the same thing.

As I think more on this, I wonder if I frame my intent in hopes of manifesting supportive behavior due to my tendency to f.uck s.hit up in dreaming. I'm awful in dreams. I constantly catch myself in sketchy scenarios. Although most times I agree with my double once I learn all the details, but when my consciousness initially arrives, and I have no background on why I'm in a chaotic situation, I'm always temporarily disoriented. My dreams generally have begun with this exchange with myself, "Why am I sucking souls and where did all these bodies come from?! What the he.ll did I do?! Oh, these people were killing children? Why didn't you say so? You may continue eating souls. Let me help you grab a second serving."

On the other hand, you may be seeing yourself as fighting evil if you're approaching it from a state of holiness or goodness. Hmmm. It sounds like we're meeting at the same place, but leaving from opposite points. Lol. I like having friends in high places

I agree with what you said. It's easier to fight evil if you've been evil. It's why ex criminals are experts at catching other criminals. We are capable of thinking as they do.

[Guest]

Edit: typo: I believe you wouldn't turn your back on me. Phone replies aren't ideal.

[serloco]

Yes I like having friends in high places as well. I have allies scattered in key places all over the globe. It really is insane just how much power we have.

I fight evil because I was left no choice. It was either let them win and be tortured and abused, as well as many others, or save the day for everyone including myself. When I make cures and do healing work I am often attacked by demonic entities. Its either fight back and win or let them hurt everyone and every thing. Most often however I find people who are not evil but unwittingly believe in evil knowledge because they believe its truth. Most people do not see the power of their choice in the matter.

I do approach fight evil as the work of holiness.. I am very loving towards God and have much faith in Him. When He asked me to free people in hell I said yes sir for you I will do anything. Sure enough I found myself there fighting side by side with God. I managed to save many people and once I did that we created a free city for them. The people saw God within me and begged and cried to be saved. There was only one choice in the matter and it was not a tough one to make.

[serloco]

Oh I can relate.. I am very isolated from people. I've been to hell and back and so I know evil. I used to always judge people positively and in doing so was led to heaven. When I got there I asked God to show me Adam's life. He did so accordingly. I met real evil for the first time. In the beginning I fought God and told Him since i dont believe in evil then i dont make it. He assured me evil was true. I fought hard but he sure showed me. Since that day I been fighting evil out of my life and fighting for what is right. I am proud of that. I fight hard. God asked me to go to hell for Him and save souls and so I did. I met demons, monsters and am still fighting to this very day. The evil in my mind is not my own mind, it is attacks from evil iobs and demons. I am winning my battle slowly but surely. If you would of met me three years ago you would know what I mean. I was possessed and evil myself. God told me to embrace evil and told me i needed to understand it in order to defeat it. So I dove right in. I wish I was as innocent as you and say I dont believe in true evil but sister I have lived it for many years. I am now to the point where I empower love so strongly that my choice in love can turn a demon into a saint. Its not easy but its possible.

You dont need to worry about me. I will not turn my back on you. I have lived and dealt with the worst creation has to offer and you are a walk in the park.

[Guest]

I believe that you wouldn't turn my back on me. I saw how you dealt with Billy after he betrayed you. I've never been that flavor of bad. I'm more abrasive and defiant, very rarely malicious. That earned my trust. Also, you were very forgiving toward me. Even after I pushed you to the edge. You might be surprised by how many don't forgive after that. The ones who have forgiven me have become very close friends.

It's not that I don't believe in evil, it's that I see it as a point on a spectrum. There is evil in the the world, but often it isn't an individual. Evil is found within behavior. What I mean is a person is unlikely to be evil, instead a person commits acts of evil. Part of it is I dislike the word evil. I prefer to call evil behavior, poor choices. Evil reminds me of religion and demons.

Question, instead of seeing your service as a fight against evil, have you considered seeing it as supporting humanity? When I go to work, I don't ask myself what BS I'll have to deal with today. I ask myself who am I going to help today. I'm less interested in fighting and more interested in the joy aspects, hence I see things slightly different even if we're essentially doing the same thing.

As I think more on this, I wonder if I frame my intent in hopes of manifesting supportive behavior due to my tendency to f.uck s.hit up in dreaming. I'm awful in dreams. I constantly catch myself in sketchy scenarios. Although most times I agree with my double once I learn all the details, but when my consciousness initially arrives, and I have no background on why I'm in a chaotic situation, I'm always temporarily disoriented. My dreams generally have begun with this exchange with myself, "Why am I sucking souls and where did all these bodies come from?! What the he.ll did I do?! Oh, these people were killing children? Why didn't you say so? You may continue eating souls. Let me help you grab a second serving."

On the other hand, you may be seeing yourself as fighting evil if you're approaching it from a state of holiness or goodness. Hmmm. It sounds like we're meeting at the same place, but leaving from opposite points. Lol. I like having friends in high places

I agree with what you said. It's easier to fight evil if you've been evil. It's why ex criminals are experts at catching other criminals. We are capable of thinking as they do.

[Guest]

Edit: typo: I believe you wouldn't turn your back on me. Phone replies aren't ideal.

[serloco]

Yes I like having friends in high places as well. I have allies scattered in key places all over the globe. It really is insane just how much power we have.

I fight evil because I was left no choice. It was either let them win and be tortured and abused, as well as many others, or save the day for everyone including myself. When I make cures and do healing work I am often attacked by demonic entities. Its either fight back and win or let them hurt everyone and every thing. Most often however I find people who are not evil but unwittingly believe in evil knowledge because they believe its truth. Most people do not see the power of their choice in the matter.

I do approach fight evil as the work of holiness.. I am very loving towards God and have much faith in Him. When He asked me to free people in hell I said yes sir for you I will do anything. Sure enough I found myself there fighting side by side with God. I managed to save many people and once I did that we created a free city for them. The people saw God within me and begged and cried to be saved. There was only one choice in the matter and it was not a tough one to make.

[serloco]

Oh I can relate.. I am very isolated from people. I've been to hell and back and so I know evil. I used to always judge people positively and in doing so was led to heaven. When I got there I asked God to show me Adam's life. He did so accordingly. I met real evil for the first time. In the beginning I fought God and told Him since i dont believe in evil then i dont make it. He assured me evil was true. I fought hard but he sure showed me. Since that day I been fighting evil out of my life and fighting for what is right. I am proud of that. I fight hard. God asked me to go to hell for Him and save souls and so I did. I met demons, monsters and am still fighting to this very day. The evil in my mind is not my own mind, it is attacks from evil iobs and demons. I am winning my battle slowly but surely. If you would of met me three years ago you would know what I mean. I was possessed and evil myself. God told me to embrace evil and told me i needed to understand it in order to defeat it. So I dove right in. I wish I was as innocent as you and say I dont believe in true evil but sister I have lived it for many years. I am now to the point where I empower love so strongly that my choice in love can turn a demon into a saint. Its not easy but its possible.

You dont need to worry about me. I will not turn my back on you. I have lived and dealt with the worst creation has to offer and you are a walk in the park.

[Guest]

I believe that you wouldn't turn my back on me. I saw how you dealt with Billy after he betrayed you. I've never been that flavor of bad. I'm more abrasive and defiant, very rarely malicious. That earned my trust. Also, you were very forgiving toward me. Even after I pushed you to the edge. You might be surprised by how many don't forgive after that. The ones who have forgiven me have become very close friends.

It's not that I don't believe in evil, it's that I see it as a point on a spectrum. There is evil in the the world, but often it isn't an individual. Evil is found within behavior. What I mean is a person is unlikely to be evil, instead a person commits acts of evil. Part of it is I dislike the word evil. I prefer to call evil behavior, poor choices. Evil reminds me of religion and demons.

Question, instead of seeing your service as a fight against evil, have you considered seeing it as supporting humanity? When I go to work, I don't ask myself what BS I'll have to deal with today. I ask myself who am I going to help today. I'm less interested in fighting and more interested in the joy aspects, hence I see things slightly different even if we're essentially doing the same thing.

As I think more on this, I wonder if I frame my intent in hopes of manifesting supportive behavior due to my tendency to f.uck s.hit up in dreaming. I'm awful in dreams. I constantly catch myself in sketchy scenarios. Although most times I agree with my double once I learn all the details, but when my consciousness initially arrives, and I have no background on why I'm in a chaotic situation, I'm always temporarily disoriented. My dreams generally have begun with this exchange with myself, "Why am I sucking souls and where did all these bodies come from?! What the he.ll did I do?! Oh, these people were killing children? Why didn't you say so? You may continue eating souls. Let me help you grab a second serving."

On the other hand, you may be seeing yourself as fighting evil if you're approaching it from a state of holiness or goodness. Hmmm. It sounds like we're meeting at the same place, but leaving from opposite points. Lol. I like having friends in high places

I agree with what you said. It's easier to fight evil if you've been evil. It's why ex criminals are experts at catching other criminals. We are capable of thinking as they do.

[Guest]

Edit: typo: I believe you wouldn't turn your back on me. Phone replies aren't ideal.

[serloco]

Yes I like having friends in high places as well. I have allies scattered in key places all over the globe. It really is insane just how much power we have.

I fight evil because I was left no choice. It was either let them win and be tortured and abused, as well as many others, or save the day for everyone including myself. When I make cures and do healing work I am often attacked by demonic entities. Its either fight back and win or let them hurt everyone and every thing. Most often however I find people who are not evil but unwittingly believe in evil knowledge because they believe its truth. Most people do not see the power of their choice in the matter.

I do approach fight evil as the work of holiness.. I am very loving towards God and have much faith in Him. When He asked me to free people in hell I said yes sir for you I will do anything. Sure enough I found myself there fighting side by side with God. I managed to save many people and once I did that we created a free city for them. The people saw God within me and begged and cried to be saved. There was only one choice in the matter and it was not a tough one to make.

[serloco]

Oh I can relate.. I am very isolated from people. I've been to hell and back and so I know evil. I used to always judge people positively and in doing so was led to heaven. When I got there I asked God to show me Adam's life. He did so accordingly. I met real evil for the first time. In the beginning I fought God and told Him since i dont believe in evil then i dont make it. He assured me evil was true. I fought hard but he sure showed me. Since that day I been fighting evil out of my life and fighting for what is right. I am proud of that. I fight hard. God asked me to go to hell for Him and save souls and so I did. I met demons, monsters and am still fighting to this very day. The evil in my mind is not my own mind, it is attacks from evil iobs and demons. I am winning my battle slowly but surely. If you would of met me three years ago you would know what I mean. I was possessed and evil myself. God told me to embrace evil and told me i needed to understand it in order to defeat it. So I dove right in. I wish I was as innocent as you and say I dont believe in true evil but sister I have lived it for many years. I am now to the point where I empower love so strongly that my choice in love can turn a demon into a saint. Its not easy but its possible.

You dont need to worry about me. I will not turn my back on you. I have lived and dealt with the worst creation has to offer and you are a walk in the park.

[Guest]

I believe that you wouldn't turn my back on me. I saw how you dealt with Billy after he betrayed you. I've never been that flavor of bad. I'm more abrasive and defiant, very rarely malicious. That earned my trust. Also, you were very forgiving toward me. Even after I pushed you to the edge. You might be surprised by how many don't forgive after that. The ones who have forgiven me have become very close friends.

It's not that I don't believe in evil, it's that I see it as a point on a spectrum. There is evil in the the world, but often it isn't an individual. Evil is found within behavior. What I mean is a person is unlikely to be evil, instead a person commits acts of evil. Part of it is I dislike the word evil. I prefer to call evil behavior, poor choices. Evil reminds me of religion and demons.

Question, instead of seeing your service as a fight against evil, have you considered seeing it as supporting humanity? When I go to work, I don't ask myself what BS I'll have to deal with today. I ask myself who am I going to help today. I'm less interested in fighting and more interested in the joy aspects, hence I see things slightly different even if we're essentially doing the same thing.

As I think more on this, I wonder if I frame my intent in hopes of manifesting supportive behavior due to my tendency to f.uck s.hit up in dreaming. I'm awful in dreams. I constantly catch myself in sketchy scenarios. Although most times I agree with my double once I learn all the details, but when my consciousness initially arrives, and I have no background on why I'm in a chaotic situation, I'm always temporarily disoriented. My dreams generally have begun with this exchange with myself, "Why am I sucking souls and where did all these bodies come from?! What the he.ll did I do?! Oh, these people were killing children? Why didn't you say so? You may continue eating souls. Let me help you grab a second serving."

On the other hand, you may be seeing yourself as fighting evil if you're approaching it from a state of holiness or goodness. Hmmm. It sounds like we're meeting at the same place, but leaving from opposite points. Lol. I like having friends in high places

I agree with what you said. It's easier to fight evil if you've been evil. It's why ex criminals are experts at catching other criminals. We are capable of thinking as they do.