Hope

[Billy]

serloco: "I just know that with total power you are as you say selfless, and you have no true volition and thus no desire."



The TASTY space of 'total power' ---> the void absent of SELF, of volition, and of desire is my FUC*ING HOME.  When I come out, I AM DESIRE.. my SELF and INTENT is without limitation.

I manifest in ways that would be inconceivable even just a few years ago.


...to be erased

[serloco]

Hey Billy boy, so what do you do with that power?

[Billy]

I remind you to be careful how you set your own awareness, duh.

What I do with my power:

First and foremost, I freely imbibe the energies of my PC knowing the clout of my intent!!  .. such luscious, decadent PLAY.

I stalk myself.

I enjoy my FUC*ING HOME I spoke of.  The highes are great, and I often SEE a new bridge through the windows.

I preserve my wife's equanimity (having instated such) and occasionally fix my wife when she reverts back to the petty tyrant days.

I stop the world more often now---> change attentions or channels to refresh the view.

I maintain a variety of disciplines that were initiated with my power (example: I've manicured my nails without fail over half year now, after biting them for five decades)
(a few other examples: I mediatate daily, something I could not do for even 10 minutes ever........ I stretch and exercise daily, something I hadn't done for four decades...... I contol my libido, something I had NEVER done... I now pay attention to dreaming; I had never done that, even when in RF....... I pay attention to my body, and clarity of mind, and how I am occupying myself ....  I increasingly accentuate unmitigated awareness....etc. etc)

I please my wife.  I'm her daddy now .

I help my Flyers.

I move into meditation with ease.

I easily access two allies now.  {a year ago I had no idea what an ally was-- & one of them wants me to stalk my PC cruelly (she really likes her though)}.


Some things I've done with my power in the last couple years:

Totally removed arthritis I had in right hip for two decades.

Totally removed two flat dime sized moles via gazing exercises (they inexplicably began shrivelling (two weeks), and I simply pinched a dry fold and off it came with no trace (two days).

I mended the relation with my daughter which was untenable.

I learned to dominate Susan.

My body simply became forever spry upon my intent.

I became a death defier.

I perfected 'unconcern' of conditionality after consistently turning pain into pleasure.

I rather easily dismissed all family and personal ties.






I am whole and integrate each moment.  I am absurdly happy (I wonder why?)  I cannot wait.

[serloco]

Thats quite the tally.

And what are you waiting for?

Why should I be careful how I set my intent? I am no spring chicken!

[Guest]

As of now, I've restricted Billy's ability to reply in The Bonsai Garden due to the higher expectation regarding discussion quality. He also addressed me when he understands that restriction is also in effect. He is able to read this section (unless you prefer to restrict that too).

I'll reply in the morning when I'm more rested

[serloco]

I will leave the decision up to you. I understand why you dont want Billy in this thread.

[Guest]

I should point out that I made my initial post when I was feeling pretty bummed. Now that I'm less bummed (nothing regarding you, you've been a very pleasant distraction xD), I very much appreciate what you said about being able to be in power while desiring happiness. There's certainly a human component to power. By the way, I know what you mention about shifting too far. You wind up very detached from the tonal which makes life more a struggle. It's fascinating to read you've been there too.

Jokes are what I use too, in order to re-ground myself. That's interesting we both appreciate that. I suppose if we've been seen the other side then we understand most everything which occurs here in the tonal is humorous--I mean, it's so petty on the tonal side of life. The nagual would find that very humorous I'm glad you went the funny route. I've admired that trait in JJ too. Being able to laugh is one of my greatest joys--a reminder that life doesn't have to be so heavy.

I wanted to answer your initial inquiry you asked me previously. The way to attract those who are loyal to you are to serve them. If you offer people tonal gifts to be your friend (physical gifts or energetic gifts such as attention) then that's one sort of engagement. Now, if you give spiritual gifts that's where the better forms of loyalty reside. To be served, one must serve. To serve others, even for the most powerful, indicates a humbleness and respect for another. The spirit knows who is serving us and responds in kind. Not everyone will be capable of returning to us what we provide to them. We shouldn't expect to receive. We give where we can and do what we can afford--we respect ourselves so that we can serve everyone. That's when gifts settle deeper. You gain loyalty with powerful allies by being one for others. Many serve the self and while that offers one form of power--others sense this spiritual intent either consciously or subconsciously.

[serloco]

Yes, I agree totally in what you say. That is how I have made so many powerful allies. By being true to my heart and offering solutions and gifts of power by sharing the secrets I have found freely. However, on the flip side, that is also how I made my biggest mistakes I regret. For God says it best in the Bible when He says "Do not give your precious food to dogs and swines, for they will only devour all your food and then devour you right after". I have made the most powerful enemies by sharing with people carelessly. I was naive in thinking everyone would be good and respect me. These days I am careful who I give to and make sure I see their spirit clearly for what it is before giving so generously.

I do like to give and share freely, as that is who I am, kind and loving. I seek love and respect, and loyalty in return although I do not demand it. I found by not forcing people into roles but instead allowing them to be who they are and who they want to be has given me the greatest allies. Infinity is diverse and I cant expect the same outcome from every single person out there. People are different and that is a great thing.

I am glad you appreciated my comment on power and desire for happiness. I wondered if you would think I am challenging you and am glad you didnt perceive me that way. Speaking of power I just want to add that the true power is infinite and thus has no limits. Why not make power, and the experience of having power, the most glorious and joyful experience we can make it to be? The only limitations we have are the ones we set for ourselves which i call, ore accurately, wards and not limitations.

[serloco]

I will leave the decision up to you. I understand why you dont want Billy in this thread.

[Guest]

I should point out that I made my initial post when I was feeling pretty bummed. Now that I'm less bummed (nothing regarding you, you've been a very pleasant distraction xD), I very much appreciate what you said about being able to be in power while desiring happiness. There's certainly a human component to power. By the way, I know what you mention about shifting too far. You wind up very detached from the tonal which makes life more a struggle. It's fascinating to read you've been there too.

Jokes are what I use too, in order to re-ground myself. That's interesting we both appreciate that. I suppose if we've been seen the other side then we understand most everything which occurs here in the tonal is humorous--I mean, it's so petty on the tonal side of life. The nagual would find that very humorous I'm glad you went the funny route. I've admired that trait in JJ too. Being able to laugh is one of my greatest joys--a reminder that life doesn't have to be so heavy.

I wanted to answer your initial inquiry you asked me previously. The way to attract those who are loyal to you are to serve them. If you offer people tonal gifts to be your friend (physical gifts or energetic gifts such as attention) then that's one sort of engagement. Now, if you give spiritual gifts that's where the better forms of loyalty reside. To be served, one must serve. To serve others, even for the most powerful, indicates a humbleness and respect for another. The spirit knows who is serving us and responds in kind. Not everyone will be capable of returning to us what we provide to them. We shouldn't expect to receive. We give where we can and do what we can afford--we respect ourselves so that we can serve everyone. That's when gifts settle deeper. You gain loyalty with powerful allies by being one for others. Many serve the self and while that offers one form of power--others sense this spiritual intent either consciously or subconsciously.

[serloco]

Yes, I agree totally in what you say. That is how I have made so many powerful allies. By being true to my heart and offering solutions and gifts of power by sharing the secrets I have found freely. However, on the flip side, that is also how I made my biggest mistakes I regret. For God says it best in the Bible when He says "Do not give your precious food to dogs and swines, for they will only devour all your food and then devour you right after". I have made the most powerful enemies by sharing with people carelessly. I was naive in thinking everyone would be good and respect me. These days I am careful who I give to and make sure I see their spirit clearly for what it is before giving so generously.

I do like to give and share freely, as that is who I am, kind and loving. I seek love and respect, and loyalty in return although I do not demand it. I found by not forcing people into roles but instead allowing them to be who they are and who they want to be has given me the greatest allies. Infinity is diverse and I cant expect the same outcome from every single person out there. People are different and that is a great thing.

I am glad you appreciated my comment on power and desire for happiness. I wondered if you would think I am challenging you and am glad you didnt perceive me that way. Speaking of power I just want to add that the true power is infinite and thus has no limits. Why not make power, and the experience of having power, the most glorious and joyful experience we can make it to be? The only limitations we have are the ones we set for ourselves which i call, ore accurately, wards and not limitations.

[serloco]

I will leave the decision up to you. I understand why you dont want Billy in this thread.

[Guest]

I should point out that I made my initial post when I was feeling pretty bummed. Now that I'm less bummed (nothing regarding you, you've been a very pleasant distraction xD), I very much appreciate what you said about being able to be in power while desiring happiness. There's certainly a human component to power. By the way, I know what you mention about shifting too far. You wind up very detached from the tonal which makes life more a struggle. It's fascinating to read you've been there too.

Jokes are what I use too, in order to re-ground myself. That's interesting we both appreciate that. I suppose if we've been seen the other side then we understand most everything which occurs here in the tonal is humorous--I mean, it's so petty on the tonal side of life. The nagual would find that very humorous I'm glad you went the funny route. I've admired that trait in JJ too. Being able to laugh is one of my greatest joys--a reminder that life doesn't have to be so heavy.

I wanted to answer your initial inquiry you asked me previously. The way to attract those who are loyal to you are to serve them. If you offer people tonal gifts to be your friend (physical gifts or energetic gifts such as attention) then that's one sort of engagement. Now, if you give spiritual gifts that's where the better forms of loyalty reside. To be served, one must serve. To serve others, even for the most powerful, indicates a humbleness and respect for another. The spirit knows who is serving us and responds in kind. Not everyone will be capable of returning to us what we provide to them. We shouldn't expect to receive. We give where we can and do what we can afford--we respect ourselves so that we can serve everyone. That's when gifts settle deeper. You gain loyalty with powerful allies by being one for others. Many serve the self and while that offers one form of power--others sense this spiritual intent either consciously or subconsciously.

[serloco]

Yes, I agree totally in what you say. That is how I have made so many powerful allies. By being true to my heart and offering solutions and gifts of power by sharing the secrets I have found freely. However, on the flip side, that is also how I made my biggest mistakes I regret. For God says it best in the Bible when He says "Do not give your precious food to dogs and swines, for they will only devour all your food and then devour you right after". I have made the most powerful enemies by sharing with people carelessly. I was naive in thinking everyone would be good and respect me. These days I am careful who I give to and make sure I see their spirit clearly for what it is before giving so generously.

I do like to give and share freely, as that is who I am, kind and loving. I seek love and respect, and loyalty in return although I do not demand it. I found by not forcing people into roles but instead allowing them to be who they are and who they want to be has given me the greatest allies. Infinity is diverse and I cant expect the same outcome from every single person out there. People are different and that is a great thing.

I am glad you appreciated my comment on power and desire for happiness. I wondered if you would think I am challenging you and am glad you didnt perceive me that way. Speaking of power I just want to add that the true power is infinite and thus has no limits. Why not make power, and the experience of having power, the most glorious and joyful experience we can make it to be? The only limitations we have are the ones we set for ourselves which i call, ore accurately, wards and not limitations.

[serloco]

I will leave the decision up to you. I understand why you dont want Billy in this thread.

[Guest]

I should point out that I made my initial post when I was feeling pretty bummed. Now that I'm less bummed (nothing regarding you, you've been a very pleasant distraction xD), I very much appreciate what you said about being able to be in power while desiring happiness. There's certainly a human component to power. By the way, I know what you mention about shifting too far. You wind up very detached from the tonal which makes life more a struggle. It's fascinating to read you've been there too.

Jokes are what I use too, in order to re-ground myself. That's interesting we both appreciate that. I suppose if we've been seen the other side then we understand most everything which occurs here in the tonal is humorous--I mean, it's so petty on the tonal side of life. The nagual would find that very humorous I'm glad you went the funny route. I've admired that trait in JJ too. Being able to laugh is one of my greatest joys--a reminder that life doesn't have to be so heavy.

I wanted to answer your initial inquiry you asked me previously. The way to attract those who are loyal to you are to serve them. If you offer people tonal gifts to be your friend (physical gifts or energetic gifts such as attention) then that's one sort of engagement. Now, if you give spiritual gifts that's where the better forms of loyalty reside. To be served, one must serve. To serve others, even for the most powerful, indicates a humbleness and respect for another. The spirit knows who is serving us and responds in kind. Not everyone will be capable of returning to us what we provide to them. We shouldn't expect to receive. We give where we can and do what we can afford--we respect ourselves so that we can serve everyone. That's when gifts settle deeper. You gain loyalty with powerful allies by being one for others. Many serve the self and while that offers one form of power--others sense this spiritual intent either consciously or subconsciously.

[serloco]

Yes, I agree totally in what you say. That is how I have made so many powerful allies. By being true to my heart and offering solutions and gifts of power by sharing the secrets I have found freely. However, on the flip side, that is also how I made my biggest mistakes I regret. For God says it best in the Bible when He says "Do not give your precious food to dogs and swines, for they will only devour all your food and then devour you right after". I have made the most powerful enemies by sharing with people carelessly. I was naive in thinking everyone would be good and respect me. These days I am careful who I give to and make sure I see their spirit clearly for what it is before giving so generously.

I do like to give and share freely, as that is who I am, kind and loving. I seek love and respect, and loyalty in return although I do not demand it. I found by not forcing people into roles but instead allowing them to be who they are and who they want to be has given me the greatest allies. Infinity is diverse and I cant expect the same outcome from every single person out there. People are different and that is a great thing.

I am glad you appreciated my comment on power and desire for happiness. I wondered if you would think I am challenging you and am glad you didnt perceive me that way. Speaking of power I just want to add that the true power is infinite and thus has no limits. Why not make power, and the experience of having power, the most glorious and joyful experience we can make it to be? The only limitations we have are the ones we set for ourselves which i call, ore accurately, wards and not limitations.

[serloco]

I will leave the decision up to you. I understand why you dont want Billy in this thread.

[Guest]

I should point out that I made my initial post when I was feeling pretty bummed. Now that I'm less bummed (nothing regarding you, you've been a very pleasant distraction xD), I very much appreciate what you said about being able to be in power while desiring happiness. There's certainly a human component to power. By the way, I know what you mention about shifting too far. You wind up very detached from the tonal which makes life more a struggle. It's fascinating to read you've been there too.

Jokes are what I use too, in order to re-ground myself. That's interesting we both appreciate that. I suppose if we've been seen the other side then we understand most everything which occurs here in the tonal is humorous--I mean, it's so petty on the tonal side of life. The nagual would find that very humorous I'm glad you went the funny route. I've admired that trait in JJ too. Being able to laugh is one of my greatest joys--a reminder that life doesn't have to be so heavy.

I wanted to answer your initial inquiry you asked me previously. The way to attract those who are loyal to you are to serve them. If you offer people tonal gifts to be your friend (physical gifts or energetic gifts such as attention) then that's one sort of engagement. Now, if you give spiritual gifts that's where the better forms of loyalty reside. To be served, one must serve. To serve others, even for the most powerful, indicates a humbleness and respect for another. The spirit knows who is serving us and responds in kind. Not everyone will be capable of returning to us what we provide to them. We shouldn't expect to receive. We give where we can and do what we can afford--we respect ourselves so that we can serve everyone. That's when gifts settle deeper. You gain loyalty with powerful allies by being one for others. Many serve the self and while that offers one form of power--others sense this spiritual intent either consciously or subconsciously.

[serloco]

Yes, I agree totally in what you say. That is how I have made so many powerful allies. By being true to my heart and offering solutions and gifts of power by sharing the secrets I have found freely. However, on the flip side, that is also how I made my biggest mistakes I regret. For God says it best in the Bible when He says "Do not give your precious food to dogs and swines, for they will only devour all your food and then devour you right after". I have made the most powerful enemies by sharing with people carelessly. I was naive in thinking everyone would be good and respect me. These days I am careful who I give to and make sure I see their spirit clearly for what it is before giving so generously.

I do like to give and share freely, as that is who I am, kind and loving. I seek love and respect, and loyalty in return although I do not demand it. I found by not forcing people into roles but instead allowing them to be who they are and who they want to be has given me the greatest allies. Infinity is diverse and I cant expect the same outcome from every single person out there. People are different and that is a great thing.

I am glad you appreciated my comment on power and desire for happiness. I wondered if you would think I am challenging you and am glad you didnt perceive me that way. Speaking of power I just want to add that the true power is infinite and thus has no limits. Why not make power, and the experience of having power, the most glorious and joyful experience we can make it to be? The only limitations we have are the ones we set for ourselves which i call, ore accurately, wards and not limitations.

[serloco]

I will leave the decision up to you. I understand why you dont want Billy in this thread.

[Guest]

I should point out that I made my initial post when I was feeling pretty bummed. Now that I'm less bummed (nothing regarding you, you've been a very pleasant distraction xD), I very much appreciate what you said about being able to be in power while desiring happiness. There's certainly a human component to power. By the way, I know what you mention about shifting too far. You wind up very detached from the tonal which makes life more a struggle. It's fascinating to read you've been there too.

Jokes are what I use too, in order to re-ground myself. That's interesting we both appreciate that. I suppose if we've been seen the other side then we understand most everything which occurs here in the tonal is humorous--I mean, it's so petty on the tonal side of life. The nagual would find that very humorous I'm glad you went the funny route. I've admired that trait in JJ too. Being able to laugh is one of my greatest joys--a reminder that life doesn't have to be so heavy.

I wanted to answer your initial inquiry you asked me previously. The way to attract those who are loyal to you are to serve them. If you offer people tonal gifts to be your friend (physical gifts or energetic gifts such as attention) then that's one sort of engagement. Now, if you give spiritual gifts that's where the better forms of loyalty reside. To be served, one must serve. To serve others, even for the most powerful, indicates a humbleness and respect for another. The spirit knows who is serving us and responds in kind. Not everyone will be capable of returning to us what we provide to them. We shouldn't expect to receive. We give where we can and do what we can afford--we respect ourselves so that we can serve everyone. That's when gifts settle deeper. You gain loyalty with powerful allies by being one for others. Many serve the self and while that offers one form of power--others sense this spiritual intent either consciously or subconsciously.

[serloco]

Yes, I agree totally in what you say. That is how I have made so many powerful allies. By being true to my heart and offering solutions and gifts of power by sharing the secrets I have found freely. However, on the flip side, that is also how I made my biggest mistakes I regret. For God says it best in the Bible when He says "Do not give your precious food to dogs and swines, for they will only devour all your food and then devour you right after". I have made the most powerful enemies by sharing with people carelessly. I was naive in thinking everyone would be good and respect me. These days I am careful who I give to and make sure I see their spirit clearly for what it is before giving so generously.

I do like to give and share freely, as that is who I am, kind and loving. I seek love and respect, and loyalty in return although I do not demand it. I found by not forcing people into roles but instead allowing them to be who they are and who they want to be has given me the greatest allies. Infinity is diverse and I cant expect the same outcome from every single person out there. People are different and that is a great thing.

I am glad you appreciated my comment on power and desire for happiness. I wondered if you would think I am challenging you and am glad you didnt perceive me that way. Speaking of power I just want to add that the true power is infinite and thus has no limits. Why not make power, and the experience of having power, the most glorious and joyful experience we can make it to be? The only limitations we have are the ones we set for ourselves which i call, ore accurately, wards and not limitations.

[serloco]

I will leave the decision up to you. I understand why you dont want Billy in this thread.

[Guest]

I should point out that I made my initial post when I was feeling pretty bummed. Now that I'm less bummed (nothing regarding you, you've been a very pleasant distraction xD), I very much appreciate what you said about being able to be in power while desiring happiness. There's certainly a human component to power. By the way, I know what you mention about shifting too far. You wind up very detached from the tonal which makes life more a struggle. It's fascinating to read you've been there too.

Jokes are what I use too, in order to re-ground myself. That's interesting we both appreciate that. I suppose if we've been seen the other side then we understand most everything which occurs here in the tonal is humorous--I mean, it's so petty on the tonal side of life. The nagual would find that very humorous I'm glad you went the funny route. I've admired that trait in JJ too. Being able to laugh is one of my greatest joys--a reminder that life doesn't have to be so heavy.

I wanted to answer your initial inquiry you asked me previously. The way to attract those who are loyal to you are to serve them. If you offer people tonal gifts to be your friend (physical gifts or energetic gifts such as attention) then that's one sort of engagement. Now, if you give spiritual gifts that's where the better forms of loyalty reside. To be served, one must serve. To serve others, even for the most powerful, indicates a humbleness and respect for another. The spirit knows who is serving us and responds in kind. Not everyone will be capable of returning to us what we provide to them. We shouldn't expect to receive. We give where we can and do what we can afford--we respect ourselves so that we can serve everyone. That's when gifts settle deeper. You gain loyalty with powerful allies by being one for others. Many serve the self and while that offers one form of power--others sense this spiritual intent either consciously or subconsciously.