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there is doing and undoing
then there is doing
or reversed
then there is undoing
then there is undoing and then doing
which do you prefer ?
after doing there is the undoing to come upon doing
which no amount of doing or undoing can find anywhere
do you feel there should be either for a particular reason ?
and what is the reason
if no reason
then where comes doing from ?
doing has the ability to learn learning
and learning has the ability to go beyond what can be learned
have you a preference of approach ?
i will start which ever end of the horse you like
at your service
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some like the glass full some like the glass empty
the question is of authority then ?
this is challenged
in fact the challenge is already lost
if you had the authority
there would be no question as to who's authority
as the authority empty or full would be clear
who would be a question that only one who thought they had authority could answer
conversely as the recipient of authority it wold be clear
the authority was no more theirs than another
it would act upon them instead
and that is a debate never worth having
only in the doing
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bit shiny wrote:bit shiny wrote: billy:
....have you a preference of approach ? I have position in form. Your words lack that translation. You would beg to be the horse's groom; you are not qualified--not even to pick up its **** from the hind.
I have the grounding to know of such work, to drink its spirits. So in lack, what? You ignore the primary axiom?
i will start which ever end of the horse you like Perhaps you are an IOB. If not, slap yourself.
at your service
Yes, I am authority.
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and for the stalker who stands behind the lie
come with your authority
i hold your stage open for you
humbly
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i make you a gift of power
drink as much as you like
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for this story
some time to see
what is behind you in front of you and around you
speak of emptiness as though it stands filthy and not full
speak of full as though it has not yet come or is yet to come
speak of spit and filth and toil
speak of another as though authority
speak of wilt
speak of responsibility
speak then
have the power you desire
desire power
a heart crumbles
and lives upon the earth
now the dream
the cup is already full yet should it be empty
if it were empty how could it be full
and if not full then why so tied to the lie
holding the door for you now
seek me here or there and you will find me
i am waiting for you in the sky
i am waiting for you in the earth
i wait for you on the wind
in the spark
the water
you can find me any place you chose
and i have chosen you
in fact i offer you all the power you desire
if no power here or there
then nothing for the lie to be afraid of ?
if no lie
you thought a game ?
you want to play
play with power
i tell you what i tell the rest
i will watch you destroy your self
it is my promise to you
for playing with another i stand in their place
and every where you turn another
i told you before never play
i did not mean with a clear heart of course that is different
i am your huckleberry
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bit shiny wrote:All the choice words of hatred I have for your offer I'll save for myself. I do allow for you being my huckleberry here--don't I?
Game? You bring a word like that to the equation? You have no autonomy if you have the need to care about positions of the heart!
My heart is clear, but it is for me to SEE better my own effort at self-destruction. I am undercut by impotence. You have no knowing of my meaninglessness.
You would like it very much if I spoke of yours...and of course, you know I can. Amuse me, communicate as best you can WHY you want that knowledge. Some begging won't hurt your cause there if you want to taste
some of my passion. Beg bit shiny, beg genuinely.
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i understand
responsibility can bring resentment
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i feel no resentment
only my impeccable action with you
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Are you too ignorant to SEE they are my authentic happenstance? I am at my best in this position NOW!
What happened to your gifting me power? ?
If you grant me such in good faith, I require that you also now beg me in good faith...
to tell you of your own abyss. Self-importance getting in the way bit shiny?
Don't be stupid!
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Empathy is not so difficult for you bit shiny, or is it?
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I am in Ixtlan chat 10:33
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the difference is you think you have power and you do not .
none what so ever.
now that i have given it to you .
"real power"
you need responsibility .
if not this power will destroy you .
this is not intellectual .
it is now your reality.
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there is no debate
there only ever was doing
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OK so I reread my thread and thought to myself now "do i have the power to do this again?" I thought for a moment in doubt but imagined the beings who can take form from the formless as I looked at the floor. There were a couple of sparkles, flickers of light that I can see have awareness in them, they are aware. Next i imagine beings coming from the essence of the floor and on about 1 foot by 1 foot flew up out of the floor and began gliding around the room. They can surface in and out of the environment itself. They can also take different forms. They are highly aware. One just glided up beside me in a clouded shadow form and then materialized itself into the wall behind me instantly flashing into the wall. I can ust think of things now that it can do and watch it do them for me, become them for me. It can form, i imagine, into nearly anything.
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I thought for a moment about my nightwachers. Remembering their power to transform destructive entities and dangerous life forms into a different form entirely transmuting the events into a new sequence that manifests instead of the dangerous one. I spent a long time developing that rote and gave it to my night watchers to watch over me in the night and do this for me. Their tradmark is flying around my as a shadow or in the night casting glowing eyes that watch over me. I thought of them again and in the floor surfaced the two glowing fiery eyes, showing me that they were still present. One of their abilities is being able to enter into lifeforms to possess them. When they do enter into the subject their perception is greatly altered and you can see that it is really a night watcher within the being. It is marvelous to behold their forms.
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I was just thinking about one of my battle with the iobs. I was thinking that once they confronted me by saying that they could easily defeat me in battle. I thought for a moment about the power i used to give them and knew it was once true. I decided that I would not give those forms of power to my enemies and reserve my gifts of power to only my friends and allies. I imagined a form then that i used to give any iob i met, the power to transform and project reality around me into form from the formless. The feat is tremendous amount of power and trust to the being. Right when I imagined that form of ally a bright light flashed around me and a ball of light traveled all around me in a circle. Active forms of awareness are something to be prized but also something to be guarded and carefully controlled. Uncontrolled flows of active power forming reality can be extremely dangerous. But yet not dangerous if one deems it to be non-dangerous. Personally I find it necessary to use wards while channeling the free flowing essence of reality. his way not just any thought will manifest while great concepts and forms will manifest accordingly and without conscious decision to manifest. In this case the ally was present and watching me and accepted the gord i had made without my offering. It was rather presumptuous and slightly aggresive for an ally, but since the form was desired and adventageous to both parties there is no reason to object. I am happy in fact to meet formless beings manifested into powerful forms of existence. It is my job as a conjurer and a summoner to bring about such beneficial forms of existence.
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Today I was walking and remembered an old state of awareness. A position of power that I had forgotten. I saw how I remembered and immediately saw that I could recap any awareness nearly instantly that I wanted. I ran my memory over a certain ability, to transform people's bodies, and immediately I saw different memries clearly of how I performed this feat. It was all organized for me perfectly. Arranged in the way I intended to receive it. I bumbled for a moment and realized that it was hard to recap the exact awareness details of that particular time and place all at once, and when I went to recap the realizations needed at THAT time to perform the feat I instead started performing the feat from my current awareness position. I quicl;y corrected this feat by realizing that indeed the exact awareness is present in the AP right here and now and I can access it quickly and efficiently. I then reached out and grabbed more of the awareness needed for that feat at THAT time. Every realization counts. I try to guide my power and realizations accordingly. Any fault or crapy realization and a perfect ability can crumble and you recieve the result of your intent. I can not intend disability or difficuties in any way shape or form, and f I intend a crappy form of knowledge, like it is hard to do, then I intend that result. Intent is everything. It must be with ease.
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So I have been hangin inside the iob world for a bit. Been coming and going into their awareness. They project into my world. We had a big fight again. I stoped feeding them the food they love from me and began cutting it down. See some of the most beautiful and powerful dreaming positions i have they tried to claim and make theirs and some of them were demanding and trying to force my awareness into them to use. Without my permission. Just demands. I hate that. Ungrateful too for what I have blessed them with. They think whatever I gain is theirs to use. They think they can wal right up to me and tell me everything they can do and then having said that they can go and do it. It came from working with my omnipotent ally, and all the power i used to give to them. When the battles began I was outgunned and out manuevered in every way but I kept fighting and eventually i won. They lost nearly everything I have given them and what a battle it has been. I am talking the tortures of hell. NOw the hell devices are mine too, and I took their curses and stuck them with them. Listening to their music makes me sick because it is trying despretely to survive and keep what it has gained from me. The problem is they turned into bullies and nearly turned my body into a free feeding machine for them. It worked for awhile too for the until i took it turned my body into a cursing machine. Every ally I made they tried to steal from me and failed. The power I invested into my allies I took back, except for the ones who are loyal and true. NOw most of them are cursed in my awareness and all their power is drained. It feels nice and a lil sad to me. I used to love them all so much. But alas my beautful allies are mine again and not working for iobs. They tried all the buttons that used to work for them, and ll i have been ding for the lat week is cutting all the buttons off for them. Now they try and are so weak and pathetic they get only failure. I told them I was going to leave soon and many of them begged me to follow me where i was going. I allowed some of them to drop in on me later and cursed the ones who demanded they follow. I have cursed their forms to melt and be controlled by my awareness. A trick they taught me to bless their forms and create super beings. Now they are fucked with it. They started imediately trying to tell me that their world will spin on without me, even when my world ends. I told the to go to hell, and my world will not end, and niether will i, but all of my power and all of my awareness goes with me and I leave you now with nothing. In my awareness you will die without me. You shouldnt have demanded anything from me, and to the point of rape. You will get what i feed you only from now on. I will not even allow my own awareness to feed you while unawares. You should of seen all their desperte needs and demands. They tried to threaten me and torutre me again but it failed for them. You should have seeen how strong i once made them. NOw they are weak and sad and pathetic. Desperate. You see they thought they could just tell me what is and force me to dream for them. In the end they failed and all the gifts i gave them that they used against me like ungrateful bitches turned against them and did not work for them anymore. I will sustain some of them, but not all of them. Not their world. Not the world i made for them. not my gifts and my powers and my abilities. I will sustain them only for my allies. the rest get cursed awareness and poison. Oh I hate the iobs. SOBS I mean. I like allies and inorganic lifeforms, but i despise the traditional don juan iob realm. They can shive it up their asses. Did you know that the iobs cant relly do anything on their own unless you give them the power to do things and believe in them and know they can? They cant. I swear. That is my awareness and i am loving it. Ohhhhh I would love to give them gifts of power, it is what i do for them and beings. I am crafty and gifted. But they demanded and stole from me without my permission and raped my clean and dry. Killed me many times with my own power. They tried last night to turn my awarness into oblivion. They failed. Its all they do now. Fail. I cast myself outside of their world tonight and cast my own way and all of my dreams formed for me again despite my battle with the iobs. My awareness and tricks still worked despite the iob saying they will not work. They tried to kill me and steal my life from me. I used to let them. They had whatever they wanted from me. I was their prize. But it was never enough for them and everything, every little thing, i got they demanded for themselves and they wanted to give me nothing in return. Their world is a hell. I turned it into one for them. They deserve it. I am their worst nightmare. Silly too, i warned them everytime. I told them what would happen if they crossed me. They crossed me everytime and every tie they begged for mercy and forgveness. They begged me for life. I give the death instead. Ohhhh they wanted immortality from me, and almost had it. They were so strong from me, and now they are dying from my awareness. They are dyinng from their lies and their tricks. ANd the nagual is punishing them. I just intend it to happen and the unknown swallows me and guides me and they crumble like dust. Try to be a nagual, try to be me, try to lie to me and demand to me, i fuckin dare you.
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it was funny, there is this channel inside of my consciousness where iobs talk and project to me. Its been their for ages since i first found them. Used it in many ways and different configurations. For awhile, since i had y own power in my own consciosuness they used to mask it, to hide it form me and pretend that it was mine. Like their projections were really my own inside my own head. My own thoughts. FOr a long time i could not tell the difference. I intended to tell the difference tho and separate my awareness from them. I have had separate awareness form them and merged in different ways. The channel when i knew it was an iob channel used to be very powerful, and so was mine. We would work together then. But they lies and tricked me into using that channel to manipulate me and steal from me my life and power. THe iob channel grew stronger because of my drain. I fed them and they pumed me thoughts to empower for them. My energy body would always empower my thoughts and my awareness to the point of manifestation direct and often instant. They loved it. They craved it and wanted it for themselves. Well we fought when i found out they were trickig me and using me. I suffered through the war greatly. I separated the channnels and after awhile they could no longer pretend to be me. They started losing my power. You should see the difference now. They beg. They even still try to demand but it is so pathetic now. So weak. I was dreaming with an iob last night and she was singing me lovely songs. Catering to my awareness for me. THen the channel picked up and started up and it tried to start trying to kill me. See the iobs were looking for power to kill. They had been for a long time. This iob singer was listening to my channel and their own and she started singing about me dying. She said she believed i was going to die because they channel said i was. I sat their unafraid of their manifestation and she thought i was going to die. They had just previously told me that they could kill me, intending my awareness to a position that would empower them to do so. I was unmoved. She, an iob, was not unmoved. She sang the lie out and thought i was going to die. I told her not to listen to crappy lies and garbage awareness but she said she believed in it, and had to follow it. Had to listen to it, it was her channel. Her peoples awreness. They are dependant on my own awareness to feed them, as aways, and of course i would not feed them power to hurt me. The channel of failure of the iobs realm of course failed her. Her awareness then shifted her into a human position of death, and she sang how she was going to die soon. That was my awareness, the truth of her position. SHe intended her death upon herself by casting the form of human. Humans die. SO do iobs who have human awareness. She had to eat it from me, and she also had to tell me about it and accept it. In the end my awareness cursed her, just as she had cursed me. The iobs are suffering now greatly because of the damage they have done, and the battles they have waged against me. They still do everything i say, and ove in all the ways i have moved them, yet they have none of the power they used to have. I would have been dead istantly if i had shifted there before. Now that channel comes up as a lie and a trick, and a theif, and empty, needy EMPTY!!!!!!!! YES!!!!!!! You must empty the iobs. Drain them of all their power and take it for yourself. The nagual is perfect and so is power, and depsite anything it always find a way. I wish you could see it for yourself how such a mighty empire is crumbling down. Its amazing to witness. Ther lies are turning on them and they are actually dyig because of their lies. Their lies are hurting them, and their tricks are turning on them. Just like i intended to happen and told them would happen. Now they are dying and suffering because of all the lies and tricks they tried to feed me. it is perfection. not of it is theirs either. It is mine.
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OMFG I am so sick. You should see them spinning now. SPinning and spinning out of control, formless to different forms, and loss of form to failure of form, to new form by me, and then to formlessness and denial of form by me. they tried again to steal what i do and i killed some of them very quickly. took me about 2 seconds to kill one of them. getting easier and easier to do it too, they drain so fast. i am a good vampire. i hate them too. you should seee them trying to do what i do and trying so despretely to gain my abilities. it is exactly what i said they do and they fail. i told them to smartn up but they tried to threaten me and one of my allies tried to force onto me and then state a new intent based from my own awareness again. denied of course as i told them already, they spin so fast. i should leave them alone i think. let them be. i will look elsewhere.
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they followed me begging, jumped into my path, one of my allies, a beautiful woman artist who i would feed wrote me a new song.. its all begging and telling me what i already know, that they have nothing without me and do not have my awareness. they are begging me to stay and feed them now. its kinda scary.. they singing how they dont deserve me and they are sorry and everything they should be saying to me too.. what do i do?????????????????
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