Sorcery experiences

[Billy]

Meant Dan Jones for 'DNA' mention (not delawaredan)

[Guest]

billy, i saw the void and wondered whta was up, thanks for writing of your current state.. your posts are unique and inspiring, i appreciate everything youve writ and see the time and effort you put into your posts, thank you, as i learn from you and you can describe your experiences with clarity, i saw your positions and progress and this fuelled my romance with knowledge.. i do look forward to hearing more from you, and speaking with you (brings me joy), yet i know you have to do whatever it is you have to do, just putting it out there.. all the best as always

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So the other day I was thinking about the dreaming double and how my awareness can cast my body as a projection of my bodily awareness. i had not shape shifted in a while and felt a little stuck. I imagined the position i wanted and voiced my intent that i was indeed a projection even if i was merely casting a normal projection. I forgot for a moment and went to the mirror to see my skin vibrating all over my body and my eyes not quite right.. It was obvious to me that i was different, even my color had changed. i reached onto my face with my attention and decided to pull my face with it and watched as it stretched out around my nose, like a bird but without detail. Just a blur of stretched skin. I was satisfied and so went out for a walk with my dreaming body.. Will later proceed gaining cohesion on this form as well as shifting to and from this position.. I wonder if I am always just a projection, or if i want myself to be one.. I enjoy seeing my form in this manner.

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.......It was as if I were made of light and not flesh..

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so one of my enemies i used a death defier counter spell on, he was trying to project to me dangerous awareness and i stated my intent that instead of doing as he suggested i would fly instead, and today he was trying again and i almost flew automatically.. that is what i do when death suggests a danger i counter it with my choice and say something else would happen instead... quite cool..

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being a nagual is truly a blessing for me.. it had allowed me to pass on many different positions of awareness to not only people but to animals as well.. Its so natural to share.. my technique is very simple i either command the movement of their ap's with a simple command or i move them to a position that sees my awareness as well as how to enter into it for themselves.. in one state I was shifting my own awareness of animals and giving them various powers that I have had for myself.. me and a couple allies were stalking the forms of monsters also and entering the position that can conjure these monster forms into reality. the song i post here sings how 'we are painted red to fit right in" which means that many of my allies often come in normal forms resembling humans so that they are not noticed and cause a scene.. the song depicts how we are angry at many humans for the mistreatment of animals since they are a position of awareness first and foremost and as a nagual all one needs to do is shift that awareness of them in order to shift them..

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I wake up sometimes and I think of ways that I can make and dream the world a better place, how I can find cures for the sick, and light for the dark souls.

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I used to be so much into don Juan that I intended almost every piece of knowledge he had onto my self and my world. I remember reading that warriors do not ever cry. I had intended this state upon myself and for many years I could not shed even a tear. Every time I felt a tear coming my body would stop it dead in its tracks and i was unable. For awhile this suited me and I was OK with it, happy in fact that I could not shed a tear even if I tried. When I got into the iob world I asked one of my allies for help to feel again, for I had not just lost my ability to cry but I had lost many feelings. I knew that this iob ally could help me and so I asked her. The next few hours I become a rapid cycling bi-polar and my feelings went on an uncontrollable roller coaster ride. Joyous one moment and in a pure rage the next. It was dreadful. It took me about a week to get my feelings back in my control again and i wandered the city i was in for that week as an insane bipolar. A few years later my position of awareness shifted back to my warrior state that could not cry again and I again wanted to feel and most of all i wanted the joyful feeling of release that I got from crying. Indeed I love to cry and find it most beautiful. Such a natural release of emotion I find it freeing. I knew not to ask my allies again for feelings and although I knew they could do it without making me insane I did not want for them to help e again for my fear of losing control again. Instead I prayed and asked God for his perfect help. I was pacing around in my motel room waiting for something to happen and God possessed me and moved me to tears but every time it would be blocked by my energy body. Again he would move me ad again it would stop but every time I would get closer to actual tears before it was cut off. It didn't take God long before i was balling my eyes out and praising His Name and thanking Him for his help and perfection. Oh what a joy it is to be able to cry and to feel that release. release.. I love that word. I cried the other night too, just a couple of days ago.. I can cry on command now and it takes me just a few seconds to being my release. Oh yes feelings are a beautiful thing, and pain and sorrow I think needs a release.

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So I remember long ago I was gazing at a friend of mine's picture and watched as my awareness became fluid, I was trying then to find not-doings. I learned to see the person as they are right now and watched as their face become alive and i was looking directly at the emotions and facial expressions they held right then. I wanted to know it was real so i took a pic of myself and did the same thing with it and watched as my face changed along with myself. I gazed further to see the animated moments of just before the pic was taken and just after too so that the pic moved in animation of the moments it was taken. I did some more camera magic and realized that the camera could capture the intent of that moment within it. I had my girlfriend take pictures of me and i intended invisibility and sure enough the camera caught me half disappeared just as my intent was in that moment. I realized that pictures even though they were frozen in that moment also had fluidity within it and could change as time progressed. I remember merging the two knowledges together so that my old pictures that were already taken could still reflect the intent of that moment. I looked at an old pic of me posing in my camo paintballing pants that at the time i had taken to impress a female and looked at my camo to see images of my intent on them. Since i wanted to impress the ladies with it the pants showed images of sexual encounters on them. That same day I asked my girlfriend to take a pic of me and intended that the camera tke a pic of how she saw me and intended me to be. It was a pic of myself but i looked so ripped and perfect that it was truly amazing. It actually took me years of shapeshifting to finally reach the form that she saw me as and wanted me to be. I began snapping pics of the sky because i was cloud gazing then and forming new skies and so i would aim the camera blindly up at the clouds and then examine the pic to find that my thoughts formed pictures in the sky and of the moment i snapped the pic. I would control my thoughts and then take the pic and sure enough the pic would reflect my intent. I knew that camera were designed to capture the images that you saw and so i intended it to capture my vision of spirits and said that since i can see them so too can my camera. Sure enough my pics began showing entities within my world in them. Even the older pics i had taken now were inhabited by spirits. These spirits were embedded in things and it was just the beginning of my spirit knowledge. I saw then that everything was made of spirits and even the plants and trees and even the road had spirits in them and yes the camera caught them all.

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So my friend that i invited in off the streets has reported that he has been 'finding' money all week on his journies. I think it is unfortunate that he doesnt come right out and say it, that he has been manifesting these things but instead speaks in a code language like so many of my allies do.. but nonetheless he has been conjuring his way and bring home everything i need ad want.

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Give and so shall you receive. You reap exactly what you sow and sometimes you have to give out power to receive the gains of that power. A friend who can have special abilities that you grant them to have is often beneficial to both parties. sure enough another neighbor of mine came to me and asked me if he too could manifest for me and us. he didnt, again, come right out and say but hinted at it to me when chatting with me, and i heard his question telepathically and so i said yes indeed you can. That was last week and he has since given me different things including a new kitchen table and a promise of more to come. I used to give that ability to my people often and sometimes they would give me nothing for it and so i stopped for awhile but now they know that i require certain things from them if i give this ability out to them. I have conjured many things myself in my day too, but i find i easier to command an ally-person to do it for me and so it goes.

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I remember that I learned how to make my awareness position take on the same positions of using drugs but without using the drugs and merely intending the position. I realized that a simple gesture could move my awareness to that position. I remember snorting as if i were doing a line but without the line and i would still get high. Now coke does not do much for me as I have a strong immune system when it comes to drugs and meds and so I intended my own positions of drugs that i made for myself. Many of my allies loved it and since i was the Earth Nagual then in that position everyone could see my awareness and my intent. I remember going to court and watching as even the judge would snort as if doing a line and would get high off of my awareness. Everyone loved it and the judge let me off of my charges and dropped them all for me. Sometimes you gotta give to get what you want.

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I remember that one day I became envious that my allies could just whip up a song freestyle on the spot about whatever i was thinking of and intended that position onto myself. I knew that my consciousness could align to perfect rhymes and fast too for i had done it many times but never in a song style or a rap like my allies can do so easily. Well sure enough the next day I found my consciousness shifted and as I recapped all my power and positions i began freestyle rapping the out loud in perfect raps. I spent all day in this position and whatever i thought of would come out in a perfect rhyme. It was truly amazing I was the best rapper i had ever seen before and not to mention i could control my voice and sound in a great way too.. I was working with my voice and singing at the same tie in my life and i remember singing and entering the position i have of an alpha wolf and imagined that all my allies were my pack. I was singing a song and my voice was filled with the howling of may different wolves all within my voice as I sang.. Truly magical. In that position i can focus on a singer and have my voice mimic the perfectly and I can even make my voice a loop and retain the exact sounds over and over again. When I focus on my sound i can imagine how it will sound and have my voice become the exact image i was imagining. Very beautiful. I cant say i was greatest singer i ever heard tho because my allies singing voices are truly beautiful as well, but i was pretty close. I can do the same with my allies voices and control who they sound like as well as which source of consciousness they are singing from and of. FOr example I can focus on my ally as she sings and i can have her sing about anyone i want her/him to sing of and they will shift to sing to me in that direction. It is like a typical iob position since iobs can tell you about anyone you want them to tell you about and my allies often do the same only i have them sing to me instead and form beautiful songs about it instead of merely talking and everything they sing comes out in rhymes.

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I remember learning to form my judgments correctly in order to conjure. I had learned that nothing exists in the stores i frequent until the very moment i place my awareness on them and how to control the contents of my attention to manifest what was inside the store, or in the streets etc. I envision the dark free potential instead and then force the contents of my attention into form. I had walked into a cheap looking thrift shop and began looking through the clothes. As I went down the aisle i kept my attention focusing on the dark energy and imagined a shift made of encrusted diamonds. Sure enough the next white shift i set my gaze onto had thousands of tiny diamonds encrusted on it seemingly blending into the fabric. I stole the shift even though it was cheap as dirt. I had no money and the store owners let me steal from the if I gave them good contents within their stores. Usually i just intend the clothes to be catered to my tastes and have it know exactly what i want but this time i wanted to stretch that awareness to create something ridiculous instead and so I made the diamond shift instead. Always have to push beyond our abilities to see just how far we can take it. Often I make my own brand names too that reflect my own awareness positions too..

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I remember when I landed myself in the ally world and everyone there was an ally. I knew they could teach me anything and I could do and make anything and so I asked them to teach me how to be a cia agent. Specifically a black ops agent. Black is key here in regards to dark energy. I had already known how to command my judgments onto people and make them move to the energy i cast upon them. It didn't matter if they had a life previously and were something else, as soon as my judgment hit home they would become whatever judgment i formed of them. It wasn't long until the cia had me making them weapons. We used a light beam, like a lazer but we had special knowledge of what light was and did, all from my own awareness and knowledge. We learned that thoughts, and specifically judgment shots (as we then called them) could be recorded and placed into the light beam and then fired at people to control them and make them move to the selected judgment shot. I remember walking in the streets and seeing my allies with these new alien guns that made a special sound too and when they fired them at people it would in essence kill the life they used to have and reform them to the new judgment impulse that we fired at them. We began practicing different judgments and recording them all. They called me the hitman and since we made potions at the time we had even a hitman energy drink. I was trained as an assassin and they would bring me the worst people in creation so i could fire my judgments upon them and kill the evil and bad lives they used to have and begin in the new direction that i 'shot' them with. Now the allies didnt keep their guns for long as I deemed it too dangerous and evil and I intended them away and as soon as i did away they vanished to never again be seen.

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I remember also that once we learned to store judgments into light and make them into weapons we also learned that memories could also be loaded up and shot. We began searching for the greatest experiences imaginable and loading the into what we called at the time experientials, which is equivalent to saying that we can share our experiences and memories and load them into lights to be fired at the ap's. I remember the first one i tried was of a man who had died from having his brains blown out of his head. Not something you would think you would want to experience but i was crazy at the time and wanted to experience it and so i commanded it from my cia allies. sure enough a woman very attractive, came behind me and fired pulled out n experiential light ray gun and fired the experience right into my ap. I felt every sensation as my brains slid out of my head. It felt very good too and i actually enjoyed it very much. There was no pain either.

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I remember then at the tie of my cia training that I had learned of parallel twin positions of reality, which basically meant i could clone a city and take it into a dream to make it different or to copy it and rearrange it. I could remove anything i wanted and call most of it dark energy that is not yet formed so i could form it in the ways i wanted. The cia had e make the a twin city of their very own to populate with only cia people. I ventured out for them like a lone wolf in the night and dreamt for them an entire empty city that they later took as their own and filled with only cia employees. I felt like a slave afterwards and i hated it but i made some good and powerful allies in the process. I remember the newspaper i read that night in that city declaring that crime was non existent because there were no people in that city yet. It was kind of a joke my ally made with me.

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I remember i was in tough jam and was arrested for multiple break and enters. They had ample evidence on me and i knew i was doomed in the traditional earth view of reality. Everyone in the jail told me i was done for. I didnt listen to them tho as i seldom do. They told me that lawyers are failures and set you up to lose and many forms of bad knowledge. I denied every one of them and told them that the lawyer i pick would be a dark energy ally that could conjure for me a new court room like opening a door in the matrix to anything you set up and design. I knew that i could judge my lawyer in the ways i wanted and did not need the dirty eyes of the criminals that surrounded me. I said that not only could my ally set up a new court house for me just for me but she could control the court and the judge with her own judgments and i filled her with much of my own knowledge, power and abilities. Sure enough when it came to pass they led me away from the rest of the criminals and led me to a brand new courthouse just for me. My lawyer somehow magically controlled the entire show for me and got me released that very day with no time and no record. She was so good at her job that they made her a law school teacher after my case. Goes to show that soemtimes you gotta force your own way in the world and not just go with the flow. If would have listened to the other inmates I would have been doomed.

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I remember that when I was in jail I used to keep to myself and rock back and forth on my bunk. I would sleep most of my time away and I hated the iob people that i was in with. They were negative beings at that time and although i saw them as allies I still saw them as being possessed with negative knowledge. I however still used my powers and commands on them. If there was someone i hated i had someone beat them up for me and 'bounce' them off the range. A term that means they would have to leave my range. Every morning i hated to wake up there and i made everyone on the range go to the far side of the range away from me so i couldnt hear their garbage mouths. Bad judgments i had at that time i know but still i had my power and my command and i used it often. Rocking back and forth and recapping my power was pretty much how i spent every second in that place. Finally i had found a solution to get away fro the garbage mouths. I was very scientific then and had learned to not only conjure parallel dimensions but i could also clone people to near exact standards. But when ever i cloned someone i made it so i knew they were a clone by having them appear sliiiightly different then before. This way I knew it had worked. At that tie in my life i often removed bad people from the world and left a friendly clone in their place so no one but me knew what had happened. So one day i intended to clone the entire range ad make them all friendly allies instead of garbage parasite mouths. Sure enough i woke up the next day to positive friends and not garbage mouths and yes their forms were very slightly different then before.

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I remember forming my attention in a fluid way that could control and transform matter by focusing my gaze in this manner. I called it active fluid attention or gazing and whatever i thought of doing would carry through my attention and manifest into the world both forming and shifting whatever i was focused on. I was walking in a city i had created and I was made at the beings because i had made the so much and i had so little for myself. Yes I was jealous and wanted things for myself. There was this incredible huge church that was one of their most beautiful buildings. I focused my gaze onto it and forced it to turn into crumbling rocks and i watched as the entire building collapsed perfectly. I watched it fall for about 4 or 5 seconds and then I quickly reversed the time as if it had not happened at all and watched as the crumbling building reversed itself and went back to standing. I have since used this attention form to destroy a few buildings but i have never followed entirely though with it and always have reversed it. The same church used to have a giant statue of some saint of man on its top way up in the air. When I was sitting my free motel room (at least they gave me that) I imagined that it was alive and could move and when i walked past it the next day i watched as the rock became animated. I did it to a few different sculptures too, one in particular was of an angel in prayer and i would make her bow her head as she prayed.. I then stated that the statue on the church didt want to stay there anymore and wanted to fly off and away on it's own and voila the next day it had vanished away.

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I remember studying nuclear fusion and fission and i was at a beautiful quarry in a magical place that I called one of my power places.. I had intended the water in any beautiful knowledges like naming it a fountain of youth and stating that it gives you energy and revitalized you. One day I was sitting there on it's sandy beach when some garbage mouths came along and began cursing the water saying it is dirty and polluted from the run off and etc. I hated the right away for i knew they were trying to taint my dreams. I quickly cast the water to be a form of fission that i had just learned and stated that for me the water is how i say it is and decide for myself but for the it is dirty and tainted just as they said it was. I imagined the water was in a state of suspended fission that can take any direction you place upon it. I walked into the water and felt the nuclear energies i had cast very clearly and saw the exact perception i had cast onto it. I had said the before you judged it it could shift to anyway you focused onto it. I felt the radiation all over my body until i shifted to the position of the waters i liked and enjoyed and then the radioactivity vanished away and it became again my youthful waters.

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Once i was in my sanctuary power place and learned that my observation, my attention, could move reality to my focus and gaze and it would actively move people, objects and motion to my focus. I was walking down the street and focused onto the cars to see time slow down but i took it too far and all the traffic stopped dead in its tracks and time was frozen. It was the first time i froze time but wouldn't be the last. The next time i imagined that reality is not moving unless, and until i focused on it to move, and was suspended until i focused on it to bring into motion. I walked into the library and watched the fish tank with its suspended fishies come to life just seconds after i focused onto them, even the people were frozen in time until i looked at them and then they began their habitual movements. Another time i used a water fall to slow down time and suspend it for a couple of seconds.. I use the cars often for this one. I have since used these perceptions a few times but most often i just slow and speed up the time. Once i used this gazing focus to make my movements and punches and kicks so fast that if you blinked you would miss me moving totally. I would throw a flurry of punches in a second.

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another thing i would do with time is make time slow down to a very slow crawl whenever i was thinking or recapping power within myself. Whenever i focused my attention within myself and off of the reality outside of me all of the tie would slow down and would give me extra time to think.. I can also do this as i am reading a book and have it finished very quickly so that barely any tie has passed at all. I have also skipped entire days when i was waiting for something in order to bring the date i was waiting for closer to me, like when i was in jail waiting to be released, i even skipped a birthday once.

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once i was working with a female ally, a woman really and i had given her a special power that i had seen in myself briefly and later would practice. I placed into her gaze the ability to focus onto someone and bring out the hidden beauty in them and so whenever she looked at someone they would become more beautiful as she gazed at them.. The first day i gave it to her she took me into the bathroom a doctored y appearance up for me and made me more beautiful. In the ally code we used at the time we called eye make-up. Later this would evolve into them calling me a pimp that would 'do' my girls up with special powers and abilities. Really it is just knowing how to spin an ally and set their forms but i enjoyed them calling me aa pimp. they would send me scores of women to do up as i saw fit, yes i had my artistic freedom then. I had a girl that i said whenever i fucked her she would grow more beautiful and by the end of our three month relationship she was basically a playboy bunny.

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here is one of my scouts i attained from making my own cities...