Battle of my life

[funnyguy]

Thanks, you can delete or edit this post as far as I'm aware you're a moderator in this group.

[funnyguy]

Also I added you.

[rosygyro]

Ok who summoned this plough thing right where I was intending?

[glance left]

Whoa! 

That's actually apropos, though.  Frequently, when gazing into the liquid fractal abstract.....just pure clear multicolored streams and threads of light which traverses the void propelled by.....what?  Itself, as far as I can tell.  

But then I'll see it's free-range movement become encumbered by these abstract, dark machine-like constructs which wrap around the light, partially entrapping it. 

I know its reflective of an inner process that needs liberating

[rosygyro]

As above so below, so they say.
Inorganic beings suckle from us.

[glance left]

Yes they do.  They battle of my (anyone's) life.

When was the first exchange, on a personal level?  You mentioned seeing the Tenant as a prepubescent girl....as opposed to a rotting corpse, depending on one's state.  I had a second attention experience many years ago which reflected that moment when I gave in and said, in essence, "you can have me.....if you quit hounding me".  This being named Agile....with highly reflective skin....chasing me mercilessly through a neighborhood.  As fast as I was, I couldn't put any distance between me and him.  Finally, when I knew I could never get away, I just stopped.....gave up.  From a high tree branch, I called him forth, by name.  He sauntered out and I did the deed.  I told him that if he quit chasing me, he could have this girl.  Beside him appeared a prepubescent girl dressed for school...looking terrified.  He looked at me....sauntered over....and then wrenched her head back and fed on her neck with the most violent, sadistic, lust I've ever witnessed or imagined.  Horrific.  You can imagine my profound grief, emerging from that experience.  That was my innocence, being sacrificed, for a sense of peace....or relief.....even though its just putting off the inevitable for a little while.  Anything to stop the harrowing chase.

So, the impetus to go back and find those moments when I caved.....gave over.  Childhood stuff and then the same moment reinforced over and over into adulthood.  Core recap.....or root recap, as you say.  I've found a bunch of them, with help.  I don't know how many times I have to face those moments until this stuff is resolved.  I guess the proof is in the pudding.

[rosygyro]

Rotting corpse?

[rosygyro]

I think I try to treat pre pubescent virgin girls the same as rotting corpses- I.e try not to *** them.
But there's an entirely different intelligence in trying not to get caught in a y incision.

[glance left]

I'm sorry, I was being vague.

"a purple hooded, semi rotted horses head or other reflected violation" I believe was your exact description.

Which brings in a whole host of considerations beyond just the y-incision

[glance left]

Anyways, as below.....so above.

Point being that I can't stop feeding the flyer, I'm pretty sure, until the root of the feeding frenzy has been unearthed.  I thought my previous superficial attempts at addressing these moments was sufficient, but that extended process just got me acquainted with the format of the recapitulation.  It wasn't.  I've got to learn to stalk those root moments until they're clear enough to do some deeper digging.  I've had some help in this regard....deeper recap (thanks, Dok!).  

All this is stating the obvious, I realize.  Just trying to make sense of an array of metaphors, where they relate on a personal level.  That's enough for me.....ciao.

[rosygyro]

The entire principle underlying a leap to infinity is in your ability to escape the inertia of our planets energy. The catch 22 is that our physical body hap is made of such inertia. our fluidity will always be operating as an opposite extreme to our physical inertia. It does not do to live in fluidity without tackling directly our human condition as on death it is the sum of our fluidity and personal inertia which denotes wether escape velocity from our planets inertia has been reached.
The death defies escaped by moving its awareness to a concurrent parallel dimension that offers efficient teaching as to how to escape.
Parallel dimensions are like the worst submissive slut portals - wether they look like little girls, boys, rotting horses or a ticking clock, the trick is always to limit the lateral energy bleed into such dimensions and instead reattribute the power normally wasted instead into an ilignment that can operate a parallel stream to life evolving.
It's sad but true that fluidity does not guarantee freedom. The body must have elements of its inertia resolved also.
We do this by plotting evolving awareness within time.

[glance left]

Thanks

"The body must have elements of its inertia resolved also.  We do this by plotting evolving awareness within time"

What do you mean by this?  I remember you showing an image of a stump with the pins placed in the various rings.  That seems to coincide with the plotting that you mention.  Recapitulate the state of the body within those moments being recapitulated.....the impact on the body?


"The death defies escaped by moving its awareness to a concurrent parallel dimension that offers efficient teaching as to how to escape.

Parallel dimensions are like the worst submissive slut portals - wether they look like little girls, boys, rotting horses or a ticking clock, the trick is always to limit the lateral energy bleed into such dimensions and instead reattribute the power normally wasted instead into an ilignment that can operate a parallel stream to life evolving"

I guess you're talking about the inorganic realm, which is supposed to be a seductive choice for warriors to live practically forever but with a disclaimer with a heavy price on the back end. 

Are you talking about the withdrawal of the intent to dream altogether?  Or just withdrawing the motivation to dream which involves IOB contaminant.  I've wondered what dreaming might be like utterly free from IOB influence.

[rosygyro]

"The body must have elements of its inertia resolved also.  We do this by plotting evolving awareness within time"

I see it like this.

The three bands of man- areas the assemblage point can naturally move.
these are
the subjective, the objective and the corporeal.

These three bands must all be resolved in order to detach from this human dimension at final jump point.

The objective- is the part of you which can see your life like an "objective plan".
for instance you could be positioned in the void and see the world as an organic disc... upon which you are positioned and see your intended path across the disc.
from this position you do not feel pain or emotion as you are naturally already detached.

the corporeal- This is the awareness of people around you and your environment, this is the classical jigsaw puzzle of which you are a single piece, tessellating with other humans in a single mortal riddle. objectivity to the corporeal is impossible while in the corporeal.

the subjective- This is the place from which you acquiesce to the unknown. essentially you are trying to position yourself in the flow of manifestation power so as to glean the best teachings and advances for your tonal.
its a bit like standing under a waterfall and being crushed by the falling water, but being sculpted by its nature.

these three bands, also have simple links to awareness. the objective is allied with the hunter. as from this position in darkness looking at the world, you hunt or you stay concealed.
the corporeal is allied with normal awareness and when meeting in the midst of folly also the natural and the bridge of dimensions.
the subjective is linked to stalking the self.. for you are using subjectivity to carve your tonal into the new..

beneath the corporeal, as our planet and genealogical lines are tens old.. we also have inherent awareness.

inherent awareness is sort of subconscious.i.e. it makes people afraid of snakes and spiders.. but also carries entire skillsets within it.

The thing about the leap to infinity is you also want to break away with your inherent awareness intact..
and to do this you need to protract your own resolving of social conditioning into the portions of the world prior to your existence..
so its not enough to have learned to overcome your fear of spiders you also need to deal with the deep west preceding your birth and somehow use energy to run through the initial cause.
............

obviously this is a million word topic and a hurried ramble is what I offer.
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however there are things to do..
you could plot your family tree
and consider how many of your ancestors were conceived by a loving sexual act?
in order to strike the harmony of sex within your inherent awareness.
but you must take care not to make it genealogical and instead keep it generic as part of the human condition in all races.
..
one of the great complexities about homosexualities and the homophobia it can trigger..
is that even if a homosexual deals with his entire sadistic and masochistic tendency..
the root of his sexuality cannot abide the heterosexual act which made up every single one of his forebears.

but then as frued would have it.. the sexual acts preceding our existence are the oedipus and other complexes...
..

I am digressing here..
but the point is if I as a 20year old which to resolve my inherent awareness I need to resolve the human condition as found in billions of people today and for tens of thousands of years previous.

so its not enough to simply not be a rapist or kiddy fiddler..
I must resolve in matter energy, space and time an energy for which proves I am neither.. and then protract that energy into the west and the underworld subconscious so as to create a link in inherent awareness to all the people who ever lived who were neither.

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Nowadays it is vogue to say that our DNA remembers everything our parents did up until the point of our conception as two separate entities existing within us.
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The great trial of inherent awareness is to isolate the genetic memory that is our own property without impinging upon the totality of our parents who lived that memory we have as actual physical beings using will.
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so I suppose inherent awareness is not a willfull thing.
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so when the eagle comes with its beak, we will have a big chuck of ourselves existing as an inherent awareness tail that is in itself utterly will-less.
but in being such is able to move alongside the worlds conception and generation over time.
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[rosygyro]

please bear in mind that much of the method I work on is that the human assemblage position was radically dispersed in 1917 at the first artificial splitting of the atom.
I believe that much of the past 100 years insane and stupid human behaviour has been a result of all the lines if discernment being destroyed on a microcosmic scale.

So my path is largely about re-programming a template that was rubbed out.
thats not to say it is a part of the assemblage points resistance..  as I see both the creative flow of human life within time as well as the residences that prevent its fluidity of awareness.

[rosygyro]

"Are you talking about the withdrawal of the intent to dream altogether?  Or just withdrawing the motivation to dream which involves IOB contaminant.  I've wondered what dreaming might be like utterly free from IOB 
influence."

I only have 2 or 3 real dreams a year.
I get a lot of "dream soup" but to be honest its like being inside a flyer.. then in daytime I have deal with that flyer.
so I am kind indifferent in terms of striking out into new realms of dream consciousness because its seems to me it just makes the flyer A) more powerful B) more indiscernible from my own energy, hence more difficult to exorcise from my tonal.

But yes...
as a man.. there are plenty of roomie victims who are not sure who roofied them and who through post traumatic shock blame every man in the vicinity for their tantric issues.
My energy is really about not raping the dream world but also not just falling into a wounded inorganic tunnel because it doesn't know which way is up.

dreaming for me

[glance left]

Thanks for this

Yesterday a.m., before coming to the forum, I saw three rings intertwined, revolving around an empty center.  I'm not sure if that has anything to do with the three bands of man you describe, but I knew it had something to do with your overall exposition.....so it seems there's the option, or perhaps the charge, to make an effort to be a functional part of whatever's going on.....even though the task you describe is largely incomprehensible, to me.....and seems almost utterly impossible.  Still, recapitulation is again becoming fundamental to whatever's going on inside of me.....and this seems a way to deepen and broaden it...hopefully to the benefit of all and to the trajectory of intent at large.  In that respect, I can chip in.  Genealogical extension....extrapolation.....I see nodes of my core historical issues...synchronous with nodes of core issues around which my family's genetic transmission of infection revolves.  That's the pathway of extrapolation of the intent of recapitulation...up and down the tree.  And then multilateraly, I guess, to everyone.  Given we're all in the same boat.

It's interesting you're description of dreaming.  What I've noticed is that when my awareness grows and becomes more invested throughout the day.....dreaming at night withdraws.  Redeployment.  Last 2 days my energy (for me) has been superb.  I've been the most efficient at my job than I've ever been.....and not just subjectively.  Talking numbers.  And, a dream last night in which I was practically a useless lump at work.  Talking numbers.  Redeployment.  I don't know if that's a permanent trajectory....its just what I've noticed happening.

[glance left]

More proposed extrapolation with respect to dreaming.  

Something about IOB domination of dreaming inherent in the dark rift or gap between daily awareness and dreaming at night.  Strike team crosses the perimeter when the spotlights are shining elsewhere.....using a the darkness of the gap.  There's something about the natural fusion of 1st and 2nd attention....daytime awareness and night-time dreaming...that can occur in the context of adhering to a crystallized core of awareness which brings all disparate parts together to function as a unit.  So sleep, I guess would take its natural function of just providing rest, given the 1st and 2nd are fused....not separated by the dark gap.  They both get simultaneous expression.

Mind the gap

Just some impressions

[serloco]

So its been two months of iob free awareness. As I learned of the will I decided that the will no longer sustains iobs. Now they are nothing in my awareness. I had a couple of instances that did sustain them and yet i sustained them in a different form. I can choose how to sustain them. Last night i was wondering if different iobs existed and some came forth. I did the same trick on them and decided not to believe or sustain them and the last words they said was "we do not exist" before blinking out. 

What it really boils down to is what do you give power and form to? You reap what you sow.

[glance left]

Yeah, that’s true

I’ve wondered of late whether or not the recapitulative field could expand to cover/involve the IOB world. It is, after all, our twin world.....close in proximity for a reason I can only assume. Seems like whatever scale healing should involve all those involved.

IDK.....I’m just speculating. I confess a sidelong love for those strange beings,even though I’m in no condition to interact with them, really. Too indulgent

[serloco]

Well from what ive learned is if you believe and thus sustain the belief that iobs are this or that then so they will be. Personally I have let go of my demonnic beliefs. IOBS have been hell for me. However even the worst of them requires my will to sustain them and so I shifted it to make them loving and supportive. I also shifted my will to make them into paranoid delusions. Many others as well. See they need us to believe in them. To give them power and form and yet if you stop feeding them then poof they are gone.

[glance left]

Yeah, that’s the thing. Question being, what are they to us/us to them.....in the context of being twin worlds.....but outside the context of predation? I.e. what of the interaction without willful intent which offers the limb to be fed upon?

[rosygyro]

Parasites only win if they feed off a successful species and only if they do not destroy that species. If the inorganic beings want immortality they want humans to survive, if they want intelligence to flourish they want diversity of human awareness.
diversity to not contain awareness which will lead to self extinction is kind of important.
Inorganic beings.

[rosygyro]

so do you think the inorganicscan see the eagle from objective?

[glance left]

Are you asking if they can evolve detached from the compulsion to feed?

If so then maybe they can in the same way the we can evolve detached from the compulsion to be fed upon.

I remember rolling out of my body in the second attention. An IOB pretending to be my wife was there in the bedroom. She wanted to fck and see the penetration from the perspective of the tip of my wang. Kinda kinky! In that instance my containment had momentum and I didn’t want to be compromised. So I said no....and then asked why they, the IOB’s prey on us like this. She just shrugged her shoulders as if to say, It’s what we do. Then we just sat there in silence for awhile before I left to explore from the context of containment.

It was a weird awkward moment. I stopped myself....and stopped her in stopping myself. And then there was the extension of compassion (or something) in asking why....which seemed to open up this bubble of considerate pause....a moment of potential, maybe? But I didn’t know what to do with it. Neither did she.

Anyways, IDK if this has anything to do with what you’re asking. But thanks....it caused stuff to surface which begs for deeper digging into

Maybe that’s the vector through which recap for the twin world can gain access. Retrograde infection.

But,

[glance left]

Sry, my post rearranged itself. I guess it still works