Making a gourd for your ally..

[serloco]

[Verse 1]
Calling out for the lonely, I am going home
I've been doing awful things again
I hear them laughing in my head
I went out in the morning looking for a man
I could see you were the perfect one
Standing all alone

[Pre-Hook]
I've been walking ahead for a while
And dragging up body behind
My baby I had a good time
My baby I know you won't mind

[Hook]
Got them all collected in these boxes
Underneath my bed, my bed

[Verse 2]
Here I am still lonely with the souvenirs
I would kill for some company
Temporarily
I did once have a lover only kept his hands
They can dance and play the songs for me
Play until I sleep

[Pre-Hook]
I've been walking ahead for a while
And dragging up body behind
My baby I had a good time

[Hook] (x3)
Got them all collected in these boxes
Underneath my bed, my bed

[Guest]

[serloco]

ouch, not fair. that particular song comes from a time in my life when i didnt believe in love. many reasons contributed to that song.. i was a player, getting every woman to love me, with gifts, and they would do anything for me so long as i gave them gifts. i could destroy relationships with a single command. it made me believe love was fake, and everyone was just acting the roles of my dream, but whenever i stepped on the scene they would do anything i told them to do. it actually broke my heart. i want to see love, relationships that are strong.. where they wont sell out because i can offer them youth, a city, a reality of their own. etc etc etc.. i was a dream maker, made wishes come true. that song i love, and it touches me deep inside, at the core of my wound, but i dislike hearing it kno because i have reached a position of awareness where love is very real to me and my mate.. so is catering.. woo hoo bring out the cake!! I'll eat it too..

[Guest]

I was concerned you wouldn't get the context for the song, but you do. That's rather nice. This song also comes from my sore spot too. You sort of took the words right out of my mouth, except I hadn't been hurt yet. I was just that way for no particular reason. I didn't give people gifts, I gave them moments of solace, distracted them from their reality by bringing them into my reality. I stopped as I realized I offered them an addiction, not a solution. I was their temporary fix, but it never lasted for me or them. Similar to your concern for low-quality relationships.

I've also reached a position of awareness where love is very real to me; however, I love myself (not my mate). I mean, I love them too (my mates) but it's more of a general love, like how I love puppies, red skies, or skulls. It's heartfelt, but I'm able to detach from those things.

Why did you transition to loving another person?

[serloco]

I have wondered alone for many years..the only thing that is real is what i give to reality. i reached a lace where coldness rules. i sa everyone and everything subject to my teller. my command. i wont li i ive in an inorgainic reality. but the reality is mine. if i say the president is cool then col he will be. other towns and cities dont even exist without me saying they do first. i tell my people how to be. music has been one of my major accomplishments. i can control music to a tee. serial kiler came when i was fighting inorganic beings, and keeping them out of my life. I am for freedom. Not for slavery. I went very far in my path, ruled the world, and i can tell reality what to do. Every aspect of reality i can call my ally. It stands for me, manifests for me. If i say a thought cures cancer, then so do they. I make it real. I transitioned to oving another being because i was not innocent anymore. I lost my love and love was the only thing that could keep me going. I lost love as real. And i needed to find a girl who could love me for who i am. I commanded reality to produce a girl for me. found this girl when i told reality who she was. Indeed reality can make anything, and so i try often to tell reality how to be, what to do, and what purpose to make. Indeed hat you know of the world will make it be. Truth be told i am close to death. I am told by my time travler allies that i will live thousands of years, but it must keep me interested, and must keep my alive. They must cater to my awareness. Time is something else. It exists already, and all your actions have already been done. All time is now. The future creates the past. Bah... I am rambling.. tel me hat you would do with the earth in your hands. I protect the animals that i talk to and the people that i control. The trees that give u oxygen that we dont really need but think we do. Infinite is reality. And yes, i am bored. What new magic will come my way?

[serloco]

i been drinking tonight....

[Guest]

I don't do anything with the earth in my hands. I've already lived in a reality where I received everything I wanted. It felt incomplete and I think it may have been my creativity itself that was incomplete. Instead, I like to witness and experience the earth, the inhabitants. I don't have to control or direct, I just want to watch, to be a part of it. Contribute, but discreetly.

Aren't we all near to death? Aren't we all dead? Learning what it means to be alive.

Heh, if you're wondering what new magic will come your way why not just demand it like how you demanded a girl to love you?

[serloco]

Yes, i have been learning to demand better. My trees bend over backward for me. They are about ready to squash anyone who offends them. i like that. i feel ready to tell anyone and anything what to do.. i am worried tho. is it reality inorganic or organic? i am not so sure. i learned to control both, but they take me away.. i often enter into inclusive inorganic realities, and have them cater to, but what have i left behind? is reality enough to keep me alive and sustained? i can tell anything what to be, and it does it for me. i can tell my people how to be and they are so for me. but i get sick of it. i have the heart of a warrior, of freedom. i want people to be free and powerful. i dont want everything waiting form my command. i want freedom. I need a challenge. I am sic of being number one, i want to be number two, and for me to bow and be humble for a new god, a new creator with a good heart. I am used to being number one. I want to find someone to surpass me. someone i can learn from. Yes, maybe i will demand again. demand something new and exciting. i feel bored.

[serloco]

now the first person i met in sarnia, my new city is my room mate. I been stalking ho the orld an just make whatever it is you believe reality to be. it is so fast and aware and can generate, manifest in any direction. My roomie is a guy who get things. a maker i call them..

[Guest]

I will manage your boredom and provide light entertainment This roomie, he is the one you let be arrested after he slighted you? You were hurt, so you inflicted punishment. That's not a very mature thing to do. That's an emotional thing to do.

Cursing people and wishing them harm. That's not the sign of an enlightened being. That's the sign of ... I don't know. Pettiness?

[Guest]