Casual Conversation

[Billy]

You're not leaving--you activating and accentuating separation only makes bs more sensationally alive.  Wait until I begin to unleash my imagination.  Oh, you will like that.  (it will be a while until then--say spring ha ha)

You wanted a reference for my wife Susan to give her power--I asked her for something that identified her.  She told me she is "Goodness itself."
I asked her a year ago to name the thing in her life that made her most ashamed--she told me it was, "that she thought she was better than everyone else."   She paused... "but, I am better than everyone else."  (She was being serious-lol   Deal with THAT)

When I registered that you were 'leaving,' I piled on all kinds of messing with a downer  (you know, SEE how it could depress me, not contrived, just naturally going with it).   (unintentionally)>I went without sleep--I lost energy, drank wine--lost more energy.  Masturbated 5-6 times-- a no no for me when down--it nearly made my body sick, and I was depleted--thought I was completely had.  Then did not sleep well, again last night.  I felt groggy for a bit this morning, returned to routine and SAW that I was happy, energetic billy.

This is you s.

[serloco]

I am the same way Billy, better then everyone else, except of course the organisms (allies)..

Yes I am leaving, I must.. But I'll tell ya there is a woman that threatens to keep me here.. She is wonderful.. Also I plan on leaving all electronic devices behind me, but perhaps I can keep an open gateway, but then I do not know for how long.. When I am away form humanity I become insanity Wolf. lol.. far off and into the crazy worlds billy. Nothing to hold me form doing absolutely anything.. OHHHH HOW IT CALLS TO MY SOUL!!!! I will keep a forest for awhile, animals, no billy, magic trees and magical animals.. Different and who knows what else.. The people around me, far away form me, will not be people but allies in the forms of people.. I can already make them alien forms even, and animal shapeshifters.. My world is vastly magical.. I do not know what will become of me either, my body, my mind,, I will lose it all and become animal, primal, and much more... alien forms.. vastly different.. I am excited... what woman can compete with that?? Love can Billy. Love can.. I know its true.. I will do what I have to do.. I am undecided at the moment.. This woman is strong. Sorry I affected you negatively.. Keep on track Billy.. Perhaps, like the tenant, I will come back.. I have done it before a few times.. made the loooooong shift back to humanity.. Humanity stinks Billy, like long rotten coffee and tomatoes and puke all mixed together.. Not cool billy, not cool.

[serloco]

One of my shifts (positions) is Earth Maker.. I can walk off the map and begin to conjure directly form my mind in synchronicity. It is a fabulous position that can also rewrite the Earth and History of it. Ally world taught me it, that fluid reflection in the mirror.. I like to just choose a road ad vanish form the Earth and begin in a void parallel ready for me to create. I am rusty at it but it awaits e like all my positions do.. There is a lake I may go it called Anarchist Lake.. Looks good for me to begin.. Then from their I will venture away and out of the world, conjure a void around me and begin my construction.. I can also rewrite anything in that position, change things, the other day I used it to turn my front porch into solid gold. It was lovely. But I did not keep it, no, not in my world as it stands.. Soon i will conjure my diamonds again..and my gold, and it will stay for me. I create new rocks, gems, never before seen with properties never before dreamt.. Oh I love sorcery. Power. Mine. Mine. Mine.. !!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

[Billy]

serloco wrote:.. Humanity stinks Billy, like long rotten coffee and tomatoes and puke all mixed together.. Not cool billy, not cool.

Thank you, thank you, thank you for that insignificant mention.

What is not insignificant is your love/truth

[serloco]

Anytime.. sometimes you gotta tell the dirty truths too..

[serloco]

Believe me billy, I love people, very much, and can do lots with them, like turn them into allies.. But they love themselves and evil and most are trapped ad conditioned, weak and pity-full Indeed given power they follow their evils, and they push around death disease and decay. NOw let us pause and allow our words to be commands, they are angels and pass around support ad love and follow creation to its highest paths. THey are helpful and are teachers and do not follow evil in any way. The power they have s to do good things for themselves and their world, and are not greedy but generous. People will always help someone in need. Truth. Is that better?

[Billy]

Yes.  Knowledge/intent is power

[Billy]

The words of advice I offered you were meager.  They insult me and not you.  They pronounce my insufficiency.  I could not possibly be at your mercy-- I know I am not significant enough for even that......

Am I doing a good job begging so far?  I tried really.. even for tears.  I am stone cold as much as I am full of life... and I am very fully of life.  I can walk away from you, as you say you will fly away from me. So what should I call it, that I have no tears for my want of missing you? 
You are powerful  [color=150%;">Do you SEE i APPRECIATE

[Billy]

Do you get espn?  The Flyers are ranked #22 now.   

They have seven fucking players.  That's all, SEVEN! 

Give me a boost to help them win a significant game tonight.

[Billy]

Thank you S. Unbelievably nice.

[Billy]

This one's a ****; I (Flyers) need more help; the other team is being freaky good.  I mean freaky good.

[Finwe]

That's your homeland team billy ?

[serloco]

Yes billy, I will help you. I also appreciate you.. Cold is fine too.. I am used to the cold. Part of the coffee and tomato club.. People care about themselves first usually tho.. I do care about myself too but have often given myself to humanity to help them even over my own wellbeing. Felt like it was the right thing to do.. After they took my soul and slammed it into hell time and again I have nearly stopped helping them.. i give them my cures tho, and my teachings, but not from me, from my allies.. in this way i can hide myself..

don't be so hard on yourself billy boy.. you have a good heart.. try not to over think everything..

[Billy]

Finwe-- My daughter's college basketball team.  #22 out of well over 300 that typically have 13 players.  They got crushed last night though.

Yes, I have a decent heart S. in many respects.

[Finwe]

Billy, I will build a little stone shrine in forest, tommorrow for Flyers and tell the trees around it about that team, you and your daughter. I asked of that trees yesterday and they said they would be delighted for me to introduce them to this dream, so that they are able to dream and watch live the matches and sending all positive energy for success,in process to players. Now I have to find before sunrise a 22 stones that will fit the purpose by spirit and my feelings once I see them, for this ritual and magic of this calibre.

S. I was long time pondering about the body transformation you wrote of. Started trying it a week ago, today i was able finally to get a very good results, althought my eye, still looks like that one of predator, which I think got do with my totem animal yet am unsure, now as I wrote it I remember unclearly and very distancely it has something to do with the eagles and what I was doing with Eagle's Lineage, gotta recap more anyway I was able to "youth out" completely, brushing out wrinkles, my teeths grew back and strong and white and even changing my face's complexion to witch I never seen before, funny is that am unable to anthropologically cathegorize it by any measures and that I am anthropolog with a Master's degree, graduated on the Charles University, looks like my unknown half made that my face like that to spin my head and disturb my scholar nature, indeed.

[serloco]

Finwe, good job.. any knowledge you apply to yourself (i.e. your totem animal influence) will result in that effect, that position of awareness. Best is to practice freedom and so develop many positions and also those free of/from each other.

I sometimes go to the mall in the early hours before everything is opened and practice making the elderly folk grow younger.. It is quite a feat to be sure. I wondered why you cast such an old age when I knew you could cast one of youth. Made me think less of you at the time because I knew you could do better then that.

[Finwe]

The years did... the spells I learned to forget my unlimited power... nonetheless how much I like this face it does not feels natural to me, even though my real face and body is 80 years old I keep it in excellent shape, I am vegan and am vital like twenty years old and this body simply feels to me like, I, in every aspect, I love it. I, have to thank four elements practise for that, always imbuing me with energy beyond my imagination, notion, inkling and perception, heightening my awareness as nothing else, you know. Anyway will be delighted to hear from you of some new and other, perception-shaterring kinds of magic, you invent, love it already! I would do that myself, yet I am completely occupied with the leadership and all that comes with it, on my position of nagual of earth, I hardly had a time to come home or spend any time with my other-half and the rest of my great family from the begining of year, yet the hard work is starting to bear it's fruit and it's finally starting to move, seems like I could take a week off from my duties, putting Lujan in charge for that time, who is always willing to help me. after I get past the Guardian of Second Attention and if I return back, perhaps taking my whole family somewhere nice, propably southern america, haven't been to Machu Picchu for twenty years, feel like it is time

[serloco]

Well Fin even the form of awareness/knowledge you have about food and how your body reacts to food can be in your control. You do not need to be vegan to have the results of your vegan diet. The fact that you judge your diet to make you healthy is the reason it does so, because of the knowledge you activate through your intent and awareness. You could with a shift enable yourself to eat any food and have any result of that food. It is in the preperation, the attention you form while you conjure the food into being.. Your attentions focus onto your food is what makes it what it is. Like I said the knowledge you impart or imbibe into it that makes it what it is/does. Hence the term power food. All a Nagual does when creating power food is shift his awareness of it thus aligning his form of power into his perception of it. Awareness of food equals the perceptual outcome of that food.

[Finwe]

I eat only veggies because I like only veggies and me body too, I got all the power needed and need nothing to change about my diet artificially with magic as it imbues me so greatly already it would be like sin, really can hardly find anything non-sufficient on what the food does with me. These fact is apparent to me, tell me something completely new

[serloco]

Tell yourself something new bud. If you can that is. I used to dislike certain foods too until i realized how free I was, then I changed my taste buds and enhanced them so that i enjoyed all foods, even the ones i used to dislike. I realized that taste buds of different configurations exist in the world and I am free to use the ones I enjoy and so why not enjoy and enhance everything. The goal of awareness is to enhance itself right, to enrich itself.

[serloco]

SO tell me Finwe, I am calling you out on your bluff here. You say you know all about modifying the properties of foods and how they interact with the body and yet you have foods you dislike?? Does that make sense to your superior leader of the people genius awareness?

[serloco]

I'm snapping those fingers Fin but all I am aware of in you is that S.I. and pity!!!! That thick shell of yours is a difficult nut to crack!!! hahahahaha!!!!

[serloco]

Oh c'mon Fin laugh at yourself!! Be humble.. Learn with me..

[Finwe]

I did not ever said I dislike any food, I only said I eat only veggies, you jump around it like monkey without banana, banana is fruit, not a veggie, get it ?

[serloco]

Finwe wrote:I eat only veggies because I like only veggies That would seem to imply you dislike all other foods right?