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I will tell of a cute tale of power. I went to the Dayton arena only once in many years to see the Flyers. They were losing by 19 points with 8 minutes in the game. Place was totally quiet with disappointment.
I turned to the man next to me who had sold his extra ticket to me and told him I did not come here to lose. I proclaimed that the Flyers would win. He said I was crazy with the certainty of a sober person; that the team had lost.
I began screaming with fanatic passion, knowing I was going into that zone of being able to will something. At first people around must have wanted to shut me up. But the game changed in my mind (and in reality) instantaneously. After a few minutes, I had drawn some others into my mold for advocating, then the whole section around me before the WHOLE arena became raucous. Needless to say, the Flyers came back to win.
Amazing.
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For now I am going to play some civ 5. I get the game to cheat for me and make special perceptions. I reember the day I learned that different people have different games, led us to creating totally new games. I've made a few myself since then. The game stores then started offering special deals for used games. lol.
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serloco wrote:Well now we are like-minded that is for sure! You are always welcome to use whatever awareness I have in order to help yourself or another, it can heal any disease or disorder I have ever known. I a waiting for you to begin growing younger, or perhaps you already are?!
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I won't exercise too much restraint in the way of exchange, but I would not find it uncomfortable whether there are days, weeks or whatever without words.
I will pay attention to formlessness? I am not stopping it. I definitely can be tuned to subtleties of spirit.
I live in absolute ease serloco. I have it all. I remember as a little boy wondering about a time like now. I answer that boy, "Can you believe this?"
You obviously know detachment, or you couldn't communicate as you do. I know billy/serloco could NEVER mistake this 'friendship' and leave f***ing base. YOU KNOW THAT!!!
The only question, and a fun one at that> Who is dreaming who? lol
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The 'wealth' I speak of is not about money (i'm just comfortable that way). No, my wealth is to appreciate--the materials, the MARRIAGE, the Wisdom, the disposion that is an uncontrived path to freedom.
This with you is unforged, and something beautiful and simple as it should be.
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This with you may as well read "This with myself."
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Yes serloco, there is duality--and I do not seek a non-duality, but our understanding is going to be spot on until it is not. Enjoy. I have clarity-- we speak the same language. I NEVER knew anyone who could speak mine. You do. I am a loner. I don't want to make 'friends.' So consider this a privilege, as I do knowing you as my extension. I do LOVE myself billy/serloco.
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That is good to me. I know of both non-duality and duality, and I find myself enjoying both, 0123 = reality for me. Like a tide we venture out, and flow i different channels and then recede back into the source again.
Your words are kind. Yes, I am a man of many tongues as you can imagine I am sure.
Who is dreaming who puts me on edge a little, but is a valid question... I think i allow both.. key word being allow. if something is there i disagree with i cut it off, as i am sure you would also, and so the answer is trust for me. which is nice.
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billy wrote: I know billy/serloco could NEVER mistake this 'friendship' and leave f***ing base. YOU KNOW THAT!!!
Didn't I say that clearly enough. OMG TRUST! SELF-TRUST!
Non-duality I have experienced many times. That is a state of self-grace.
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I won't use "we" or "us" generally (or even billy/serloco) because it is an euphemism. I made the exception to decipher. This is what I needed to do.
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I am very, very practiced at "cutting anything out of my life in the blink of an eye" to use Don Juan's phrase. I KNOW detachment.
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Me too, (both cutting and being humble)
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hehe I just scored a date with a really nice girl, a loving girl. Happy I am.
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I will try to be aware to put on that mask that is a positive 'receptor projector' to what you present. If it makes a difference, I did not have to think about your last remark--it made me happy.
I probably won't continue to be so loquatious generally, as I tend to lose energy at times being talkative. I'll say what needs saying. I want you to understand that I never find you contradictory. I am not contradictory.
That makes the only people I know as such. GET THAT? (THAT is important to me if anything is--and should there be crossovers involving paradox, I recognize those in you.)
If something is muddy in your world (with iob's or whatever) trust me to gleen what your spirit would say if push comes to shove. You seem whole, so you would know how to use me that way.
I probably would not be attracted to you on the tonal as an associate-- Man, the idea you smoke is awful to me. Hmm, but makes no difference in this context. You, serloco, will know which of my idiocyncrasies to put aside as irrelevant. Like you, I do not know exactly where this goes. I would like to be both tight and formless in conjuncture. Disappear without a thought whenever you want, as I will. There is to be no wasting of energy on some stupid bogus sense of owing politeness or something. I DON'T need that, nor do you. Don't ever tell me what you think I want to hear; tell me what you really want to say.
I do my very best when I have no expectations. I do not want anything in particular, excepting what is there on my path. Based on life history, I may be at the very beginning of a novel enlightenment cycle. I don't f*** jockeying those; they are full of ego and spirit and sensible direction on their own.
That's it for now.
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Listened to Masterpiece & Geronimo. Wow, can SEE I talked a lot of ****. Can I finish MY masterpiece when I am such a complacent lazy ****? I shouldn't laugh that I am shown how UN-free I can be. Good stuff--I 'believe.'
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I like how you flip!! I get a kick out of it..
yeah i will be who i am, and say i what i feel.
smoking is good for me, but alas i am still quitting because it is a habitual routine for me that has hurt me in the past and i get tired of healing and affirmtions agaist the curses attached to the ordeal.
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Life has been more fun and interesting with you in it.
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Aww, now aint that special!! *Pukes* lol just kidding.. My life is a miracle, and I try to rub it onto to others whenever I can.! I have an evil side yes, but i aim it at the evil bastards.. mostly i crave love and seek love wherever I can find it.. but I once said to God I can have the life of Satan and Drek mixed together, and when you give life and power and that form of glory to God you get what you seek and ask for.. an OH MY OH MY!!! I never thought... I can raise Hell and I can fly into heaven.. ANd the sad part is so many are actually going to hell.
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You have that energy force. I WILL use my past visit to heaven and hell as brackets for all inbetween. They are not relevant otherwise. Who are God and Demon to me. No Thing.
Secondly, my issue is one of philosophical essence. I say "NO" to existence and existence says "YES" back to me. Do you like that? HOW DO YOU LIKE ME NOW!!!?
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They all may so no to me but it matters not to me. I can be victorious even against ALL opposition, and have done so. I can rule in Hell even. someone said to me once stand together and we will be stronger. I saw attachent and said no, the group os weak and need each other, whereas the One can stand alone and still be victor. THAT is MY way. Opposition is all in the mind, and control of the mind is control of the opposition. The enemy is not an enemy but a benefctor in disguise.
God is indifferent and yet exists i every form and way. He gives us choice and life. Call it the Eagle or Christian God whatever, but what you call it is what you sow and thus reap. Just like God said gve power and trust to me and you find that way, give power and trust to evil and you find that way. Either way it is YOUR choice to make. I choose the unknown, and believe it or not it is known to the Egle already. The Spirit or whatever you call it, it knows what you seek and knows how to bring you to where you intend to go perfectly. THAT is the glory i give to the Nagual God/Infinity/Spirit/whatever.
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Yes no thing. Blank. Yours to colour. Empty field. Your own crop and choice. I like Christian God because He tells you that plainly.
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My life has the synchronicity in spades. Ayn Rand was a source for hierarchical reduction (logic) and Castaneda was an adjunct to open-mindedness. I recapitulated via intense autobiographical writing that was necessary for my psychological survival. I had already experimented with stalking dark states of mind and had gained trust. There even came a point when the 'Higher or Authentic SELF' turned against me. THAT detachment which followed was truly truly a profound thing. Part of this was my wife had divorce papers on the sly to be viewed by an attorney. Only bizarre intuition had me retrieve them (had been signed by me too, but were put aside for over a year) When, not where I put them I looked to see they were on my wife that very moment. My detachment 'practice' was not directly just for the rejection by my wife, but more so for the terrifying subconscious rejection of myself. Before the moment of this transcendantal detachment, I was almost in freaking shock because of too much adrenalin coursing in my body. I had to struggle to remember that detachment worked, that it was a habit I learned. When I finally remembered grasping the one key word "REJECTION!" I did an amazing objectification with a deep inhale and focus on my mid-section. I TELL YOU I was 'SUPERMAN' instantaneously. I was CALM, POWERFUL and CLEAR. MY wife, instead of divorcing me, within days fucked me (which was a war I was losing/ 3FUCKING MONTHS w/o SEX!!!!!!!!!!!) {Now we have sex like religion every Sunday morning (or accasionally the day after)> I like erotic porn and fantasy/ but this is good, REALLY good stuff happening.
I got off track---- Anyway-----I had gotten courageous seeking out self-hatred and shame doing more recapitulation and got visits from emptiness. Someday I'll tell you if we get bored. What I learned, is I am not of the world--I'm just NOT. I mean, I was given to understand with unwavering certainty that the world outside of me has absolutely no meaning whatsoever. NONE. It does have power in only one sense--that as a source of my richer aliveness or energetic awareness if you prefer. You emanate virtually this way too, no? SEE what I mean?
Weird how it is, that if I genuinely draw to the notion of WORTHLESS 'everything', the more vibrant and 'meaningful' lol. People draw from you in an entirely different syntax. What am I going to gain? But, again the weirdness--I DO GAIN FROM YOU!
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