Casual Conversation

[serloco]

I meant to post this one
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[serloco]

i went for a walk ad did some magic... made some color in the skies and also made some disappear.. some allies were near and one of my allies complained that the people were telepathic and so I showed her how to hide from them.. trully hide, not just pretend hide, of course my allies can still see me then but they do not encroach upon me here.. let me be

yes billy I can have a good heart, and usually do, always do, but some things... sometimes..I can shift into the darkness and do great evil... but even then I will not harm friends or allies... just evils

[Billy]

Irrelevant  I was awestruck, truly truly awed!!!

[serloco]

it is has been years since i have had any illness, ever since i said i do not get sick anymore.. i had an ear infection but i cured it.. it was a remnant of my old human wounds... nowadays i conquer my body, *** aging too.. i hate aging... people age.. i don't.. they pushed onto me, they tried.. i resisted ad won... you should have seen them fight for it... they wanted it so bad.... i remember... they are old now and decrepit.. what can i say.. they wanted it... will i resurrect them??? not a chance... i remember when the saw that words could hurt me.. they sharpened their tongues then... so i cut the out and castrated them.. now i have a sharp tongue and big balls.. hahahaha

[serloco]

not literally castration, but worse.. not literally no tongues either... but billy you should have heard them trying to talk.. broken words and broken voices... stutters uncontrollably and words that cant form properly.. like alien sounds too. broken computers.. i torture better then demons... and i can make them hurt each other.. bad i know... try being an Angel in Hell.. thats where i learned to fight.. i seldom get rage anymore.. they do not reality try anymore to bring me down... the last tie i felt weak they tried again, it took me about 3 seconds to round up my power though my rage and i cut them badly... made them age 30 years in a second.. make them melt too if i want.. but i didn't then.. i warned the **** too... i punish evil and if you come at me i will make you age.. well she didnt believe me.. but i am a man of my word..

[serloco]

you are fun billy, empowering too... you seek power like i do too... i can give power yes.. i'll give you more.. just wait..

[serloco]

it took me a long time to learn how to *** someone in their mouths and 'cut their tongues'... i took a lot of punishment first

they knew i had power to create so they hooked their mouths to my will ad usd me like a puppet to create for them.. i hurt them after about 3 months of that torture... noadays they never bug me... if they even come close i lash out in memory of the feeling of having my will stolen form me... like Dracula when he used the wolves in his Dark city..

[Billy]

Took me 35+ years to be in love (my love) with the person that is my wife.  The gestures you make are beautiful and so truthfully comprehended, as by virtue of still allowing room for my sobriety and wisdom.

[Billy]

We both know how much detachment it takes to love.

[Billy]

Yes, I will twist some persons tongues for fun too--I don't need desire this--I SEE it unfolding so long as you will guide me.

[Billy]

I LOVE your seduction.  I WILL be fierce because I learn from you.

[Billy]

Your seduction would be mystical to anyone else but me.  Do you love me?  Not do an answer.  I SEE you absolutely can & ... it is inside and outside of my conceived brackets.  Maybe I WILL walk through heaven and hell again someday, and if I do you know I know as to why right now.  Did I return your gesture of love?  Yes, I did.

[Billy]

I did not burn a bridge there.

[serloco]

Yes you will, where I came from I needed to be fierce and it is strength, I won all my battles and made my enemies suffer to the extreme.. like puppets they are now.. for myself or for my perfect Satan. hahahaha. do not get me wrong i want good things for my people, just not good things for my enemies.. i do not allow good things for them anymore.. they violated that right from me.. they either run away or suffer.. and if i am really mad they suffer no matter where they run.. get even billy.. sometimes i take the punishment.. but my hands have a long reach and long memory...

hahaha...

dont punish good people billy!!! it will hurt your soul i think. no threats from me, just experience. you'll want to look upon the faces of your friends without them fearing r hating you

[serloco]

my foreign installation brings foreign alien women into my world, and caters to the desires of my mind..

[serloco]

this one is 23, she says she wants to meet me.. i will chat her up and see how good/bad she is, see what she knows...

[serloco]

some girls are like sirens singing the most beautiful somgs that hit you directly in your heart and desires... i look for them, name them that too, and i watch them with my wonderous eyes wanting them as they try to seduce me so perfectly.. better if they are the players

[serloco]

one of them is taking a shower now and taking some pics for me.... sorry i can't share these ones...

[serloco]

when i first was learning how to see i used the definition in that one does not feel when one sees, and when one sees they do not think of sex. I reached that place for years and stayed there. It is truth, and yet I SAW that I could feel and choose and control how i feel.. I turn on my lust while seeing now and make my lust better for girls who see me seeing them.. it makes me hot for them.. and being a seer i can see what they want to hear and feel, and how to play their heart strings and give the right answers.. beig me i often move women into many positions of awareness, specially into positions of power and seeing.. pure awareness, and then i can move them into almost anything.. that turns me on and i have them move to my music... my songs for them... and they cater to me.. sexy... yes I see and feel together now after i learned.. used to never feel for so long i couldn't even get my feelings back at first, i had to ask my ally for help and when they did i asked them to teach me extreme emotions and feelings.. that was hectic and i soon developed for two weeks extreme rapid cycling bi--polar, but luckily i gave up on that ally form and went back to seeing aand controlled folly to make my own choice and with my own energies.. now i can turn it on, but am also turned on by my women in my world. i like that.

[serloco]

billy wrote:Took me 35+ years to be in love (my love) with the person that is my wife.  The gestures you make are beautiful and so truthfully comprehended, as by virtue of still allowing room for my sobriety and wisdom.it is because you see. and thank you..

[serloco]

No billy, as you know, i spared your reality of my curses and negative changes I made when raising hell. So yes you are right, not in yours..

[Billy]

serloco wrote:...learning...one does not feel when one sees, and when one sees they do not think of sex...and yet I SAW that I could feel and choose and control how i feel...yes I see and feel together now after* i learned...                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             Note highlight I added*

I rebelled at your take on my daughter situation because you misunderstood,  By click/space, I meant I can stop activity or thought most anytime, remind self by flicking that switch to SEE only my sense of awareness matters.  I take it seriously (laughing) that nothing matters.

   A great help has been when my wife asks for something I learned to stop instantaneously to be subserviant (lol & great undertone as I want a sense of worshipping my wife--you must realize the beauty and fun of all those nuances when you can forget the pretending and make that authentic.)  Making love, I have been telling her how I want her to *** another man because I am not good enough for her.  I SEE she does *** another man in her mind too.  Then too, I can have her be daddy's (my) little girl.  But, as I caught, I was losing love for lust >  I SEE I can have both just like you talked about here>

need perfected art of love first and then the lust will be much much better.  It WILL bring power to pain & manipulation of pleasure.  It is hard though, because I'm stuck on mutual surrender.  

   I could exquisitely 'hurt' my wife later if I showed some self control.  That I am doing anything at all with a 'control freak person' at this point is leaps and bounds away from past dynamics.  I mean you understand human nature else you wouldn't do what you do.

[Billy]

AND for the record, I have a sense of having completely altered the relationship with my daughter to a delightfully tantalizing juxtaposition.  My daughter is definitely showing herself from a different perspective.
The night of that wedding and moving my attention, panned out 'favorably' in every respect.  Still, I train myself not to think 'better/worse.'

I mean to ask.  The black man (my 2nd teacher) made it perfectly clear that I can assimilate a ratchet-- that is, I never have to take a step backwards improving awareness or awareness's manifestations.  I wasn't getting that the way he wanted me to.  He would make a short intake of breathe, like a backwards hiccup that was correlated.  What was that?  The physical part seemed important, though it might have been symbolic.

[serloco]

Yes I do understand human nature billy and feeling too.. i felt your post was proud with your daughter for handling those feelings, and yet i felt those feeling still inside of you. i felt she hurt you but you took the hurt and made it nothing, i still felt the need to wish your situation to be better. a couple of judgement shifts would do the trick for you, and you do not need to be nagual to do so. perhaps i am wrong? the ''lashing out'' indicates wounding..

[Billy]

We got pulled over once for a DWB  (driving while black) in a 'lilly white' rural area.  The cop was very condescending too.  My friend was very hurt and upset (sensitive to racial injustice).  Can anything cause you to be reactive in a humanistic manner for a little bit of time?  

 One's disposition evolves to be sure, but do you get clean entirely?  By the way, I deal with a bit of constipation issues--know any remedy (even if mental)?