Harvesting

[dreamgirl]

Dan, I feel that too. I felt such a deep affection and love for each of you the other day when I was feeling weak and called out to you. I thought how my feelings might be inappropriate for having never met any of you face to face, I questioned my sanity for a minute. I glad you feel it too.

[Nagual LoneWolf]

I too feel such for each of you, as we add more members remember this feeling and allow it to expand.

[Guest]

Hi Everyone, first off I wanted to say I am not doing as good as I may "seem". Every day is a battle on many fronts, it starts with getting up in the morning. The last two days were great, but not the norm, and today went back to being difficult again. I was just now thinking why is this so, and one of the reasons is I am in a limbo state. I go to work, and even after work and I just cannot connect with anyone. All in my tonal seem dull and of another world. People I used to easily find comfort and distraction with I cannot. I interact because I must but they feel slightly alien, or I feel alien. I see their happiness as a result of ignorance, and since I do not share that state of mind, it automatically discounts me from their group connection. An example is if you are going to see a murder mystery but then find out who the murderer is, and thus no mystery...so why bother going to the movie...its the same with entering into their mental state, be it happiness over it being easter holiday or happiness over a sports team have a game, or whatever, its all just distractions of life and people acting like they have all the time in the world. I feel like I dont have any time. Its not that I resent people, or get annoyed with them, oddly I can interact with other quite easily...but its meaningless, bring little or no joy, where as it used to bring me joy and much more. But to get back to that state I would have to forget what I know now, and what I know now was hard fought for, so I would not throw it away for anything. However..I did think that losing ones human form made them happier and freer, and this has not been the case for me...I am more alone and disconnected with other people in my tonal. I hide it so they dont know, which increases the lonliness.



Ok, on to another note:
PerSyd wrote:
If by any chance the Eagle would be releasing it's own replica to a
warrior being they should be aware that mortal death will be awaiting at
every corner.
The Eagle's replica created upon death will heal
and gather the human cocoon that broke regardless of the cause and will
heal the physical body of incurable illness however the beings
requesting such should be aware that it will take time until another
copy can be made.  That means until another sample is available they
should take care of what they receive as gift. Once the original copy of
the Eagle's fabric is given the experience gathered since would be
added one by one into a new form that will strengthen the luminous
fibers and void connexion within into a new completeness.
There
is something similar that i saw in CC books related to this copy and one
being mentioned in there was given the Eagle's replica gathered upon
it's death. When La Gorda saw a younger version of herself descending/
returning to her it was original fabric the Eagle had of her just as it
has of everything living.  I am not sure how she progressed further i
know what she should have done.
Upon the union with the original
replica of the Eagle the being should proceed further in separating it's
own achievements and progression from other beings. When the unity is
completed the being must see itself fully dressed in something that it
wore upon it's death, then it will see other clothes appearing near by
some might see them as gifts some will go dream shopping. After a while
they will see themselves dressed in what they like to wear in the
present time then dream themselves in new clothes and a second replica
of the new completeness will appear. When that time comes the being
should refer to the foreign fibers as to other fibers it harvested or
were received create a fabric or a model for each individual after all
are separated by the inner vibration. (An update from death time to now
should follow then a new continuity of the current self). 
The part I bolded I related to, since about 2 days ago I had a lucid dream in which I saw a younger version of me walk by me, strutted by in fact. I was in a room of people and she/me just walked by, almost like a model doign a cat walk circuit. I in younger version had on glasses that were thick rimmed and looked like Elton John's style with glitzy zircons on the black frame. I noted that while I would never choose these glasses, they looked quite good on younger me. Younger me looked like a balance of inward pushed out, so teh inner balance reflected outward in fashion. Then I went into an exercise room and started running sprints, I remember exercise machines and a case of music you could selet (while working out I guess). The work out represented getting fit (of course) but more like required I do it.
So am I doing the same as La Gorda did? Not sure, my dreaming could have just been tuning in to what Persyd would write, or else I really did see a twin of self in dreaming. Not sure. It was just that one dream, but very very lucid and clear.
another dream:
Last night I had another lucid dream. I do believe it was symbolic of Kim, but things were a bit off in some ways, such as the lady I saw was a Turkish woman. But she came to me (as if she recognized me) in a perfectly knitted dress, it was her wedding dress but maybe it was to be her funeral dress too (some get buried in wedding dresses), also saw her husband and he was middle eastern too. It was knitted so nicely, and layered with various patterns. Even had a knitted headscarf that attached to dress, so covered from head to toe basically. The reason I thought it was related to Kim is the wolf avatar she has was woven into the dress, lol. I am sort of even embarassed to mention this...the middle eastern and how odd it appeared, but I do mention it because it was clothing perfectly knitted....was this a lady harvested and fitted with clothing? It was nice and impressive outfit, though foreign looking. The lady did not look like Kim at all, in fact, like I said, she looked middle eastern.

[Senear]

Thank you for letting us know how you are doing Tiffany. I cant say i fully understand, who can, but I've felt much the same way.Ive been doing allot of yard work, those kind of things today working through it. In many ways, I'm acting overly normal, re connecting with friends i let fall away etc, but i also know this is a self folly in a way. That is fascinating about the dress, and seeing the wolf woven in and identifying Kim's energy in the form of that women. Your dream sounds similar to ms's, and i see hes talking about the cloth now, and a market scene like that as well. It took wolfs speaking to persyd about things as my led to make the post i needed to make, which was in a way, for me, the whole challenge not expecting anything else but the act of doing it to have particular meaning. 
To be honest, one of my challenges, in dreaming, is to not check in on your or others and try to help in some way, when it wouldn't be help at all if it gets n the way or complicates a tranformative or necessary learning process. But i know your strong, and brave, and will emerge from this cocoon, if i may say it in such a way, even more of the things that make you you, and without the things that got in the way of that. That is how i feel about my process at this time as well. Its a belief anyway.

[delawaredan]

Tiffany - I think you are in a great place.   You just need to see it.     A place of no pity.   You use control folly to accomplish everything you need to do.  You are acting impeccably. You are a wonderful and powerful Nagual woman.

[Guest]

Thanks Andrew for relating to me and sharing your thoughts. One thing I was going to say here...thought about it after I logged off, is that I still get the joy that comes from laughter, still happens in tonal with people. And in dreaming...a dream I had few nights ago, woke up in hysterical laughter, dreampt of a co worker giving speech, messing up a line, then trying not to laugh about it but she made me laugh, I her and then just grew on us until it woke me up.



Dan, I read your words like a tractor beam of attention drawing me in, each sentence delivered power to me in form of awareness, my midsection became very warm. Thank you. I share that back with you and all DD members...the circle.

[Nagual LoneWolf]

This feeling every warrior gets...CC even wrote a book about it called 'Journey To Ixtlan.'

[Guest]

I have that book on hand, and plan to read it today.

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