05-13-2014, 12:00 AM
I wanted to share an experience with you and ask if this may have been an encounter with an inorganic being.
This experience is to this day one of the most powerful things that have ever happened.
At the time I left Ontario to go to another province, Alberta, for a spiritual get-away from every thing I knew. I figured going some where far and new will allow me to shift my life.
I feel it's related so I'm going to mention at the point I had smoked weed for about 9 years straight and it wasn't having the strong effect it once had on me. When I moved to Alberta though I didn't have a source and ended up taking a four week break, so when I did smoke I ended up getting high like it was my first time again. It was extremely strong, I was giggly and all, and decided to take the opportunity to meditate. I haven't had a chance like this since I was 13, I thought!
I laid in bed and started taking deep long breaths, as full as I can. I kept taking breaths deeper and fuller and I think I might have started to hyper-ventilate but didn’t notice. I started to feel a tingle go across my whole body and my hands started to grasp on to my belt and letting go uncontrollably. The patterns my fingers made were crazy wicked lol. I kept taking full breaths until I started to hear my heart beat. It was louder than I had ever heard it! BOOM BOOM, BOOM BOOM. I started listening to it closer since I had never heard my own heart so clearly and the sound got louder and louder until it felt like I was in the middle of a room and the walls were booming at me. My whole body was vibrating out of control, shaking the bed against the wall. My girlfriend at the time noticed and asked me if I was alright, I told her I’m fine.
At this point I realized I could see tons of colours in front of me. They were making pretty crazy geometric patterns. A rainbow of triangles, squares, circles, diamonds, god knows what else… They were flowing in lines and the lines fused in to a planet underneath me, a planet of colour and geometry. I started thinking “Why is this so cartoony? Why doesn’t this look real?”
A voice then answered me, “Real? what exactly do you mean by real?”
It seemed a little bit annoyed, and I answered “Why do I colours instead of something like forests, rivers, animals?”
Eyes appeared in front of me, giant cat eyes and were starring right at me. The being laughed and I felt it’s laughter inside of me, my face went in to a smile. “Rivers, forests, and animals? Why would you see that here? You’re foolish to question the reality of something that’s right in front of you.”
For a moment I saw a jaguar’s head on a man’s body, the eyes had morphed, but then he disappeared. I could feel every emotion and feeling going through my body, both my own and the jaguar’s. I saw my childhood playing video games, always entertained by lights, colourful lights, how the hell did I expect my inner reality to be anything else?
“Now you get it” he told me, and the vibration increased. My body was shaking as if I had hypothermia, the whole bed was rattling, and once again my ex asked me, “are you sure you’re okay?”
I opened my eyes for a moment to say that I am, but when I opened my eyes I could still see the world of colourful geometry, it was like two different experiences over-lapping each other. I couldn’t say anything so I just nodded and smiled, then closed my eyes again.
“Who are you?” I asked
He smiled through my lips and told me, “I think you already know.”
I thought of Ix, a jaguar entity I was studying for a few months prior since I was born under that sign in the tzolkin.
I asked “Why are you here?” I instantly saw a vision of limbs hanging from trees, I was a hanging severed head in a jungle looking out over my torn body. It was a bloody mess, and a bit off putting. “Will I die?”
I felt laughter roll through my core again, “of course you won’t die.”
I instantly thought of the people in the house and the fact I was already vibrating the bed against the wall in the middle of the night, “what will happen with them?”
He showed me images of the room being torn apart by a tornado, people screaming horrified, and I instantly said “No, I can’t do that.” The lady that owned the house was very conservative and helped me find a place to stay when I needed it and the thought of putting her through that experience terrified me. I felt anger, rage flow through my body and every part of my shake, my teeth snarled, “What do you mean you can’t? Why do you care? They won’t remember a thing, it’ll be as if nothing ever happened.”
I told him “I want to, but not this time.”
“WHY NOT?” everything flared for a moment, but before I answered the energy calmed down and he laughed saying “you’re not ready after all.”
I felt disappointment, and I felt embarrassed. I felt panic, “will I get this chance again?”
“When you’re ready… I will see you again, and I will tear you limb from limb” I felt a smile come across my mouth, his not mine, and then the energy faded out all together.
Before I started studying nagualism I called this a “possession”, that was the best way I could describe it. Now I’m wondering if this would be considered an inorganic being, or any other ideas what might have happened? Any way I could.. rekindle the flame per se?
Thanks in advance!
This experience is to this day one of the most powerful things that have ever happened.
At the time I left Ontario to go to another province, Alberta, for a spiritual get-away from every thing I knew. I figured going some where far and new will allow me to shift my life.
I feel it's related so I'm going to mention at the point I had smoked weed for about 9 years straight and it wasn't having the strong effect it once had on me. When I moved to Alberta though I didn't have a source and ended up taking a four week break, so when I did smoke I ended up getting high like it was my first time again. It was extremely strong, I was giggly and all, and decided to take the opportunity to meditate. I haven't had a chance like this since I was 13, I thought!
I laid in bed and started taking deep long breaths, as full as I can. I kept taking breaths deeper and fuller and I think I might have started to hyper-ventilate but didn’t notice. I started to feel a tingle go across my whole body and my hands started to grasp on to my belt and letting go uncontrollably. The patterns my fingers made were crazy wicked lol. I kept taking full breaths until I started to hear my heart beat. It was louder than I had ever heard it! BOOM BOOM, BOOM BOOM. I started listening to it closer since I had never heard my own heart so clearly and the sound got louder and louder until it felt like I was in the middle of a room and the walls were booming at me. My whole body was vibrating out of control, shaking the bed against the wall. My girlfriend at the time noticed and asked me if I was alright, I told her I’m fine.
At this point I realized I could see tons of colours in front of me. They were making pretty crazy geometric patterns. A rainbow of triangles, squares, circles, diamonds, god knows what else… They were flowing in lines and the lines fused in to a planet underneath me, a planet of colour and geometry. I started thinking “Why is this so cartoony? Why doesn’t this look real?”
A voice then answered me, “Real? what exactly do you mean by real?”
It seemed a little bit annoyed, and I answered “Why do I colours instead of something like forests, rivers, animals?”
Eyes appeared in front of me, giant cat eyes and were starring right at me. The being laughed and I felt it’s laughter inside of me, my face went in to a smile. “Rivers, forests, and animals? Why would you see that here? You’re foolish to question the reality of something that’s right in front of you.”
For a moment I saw a jaguar’s head on a man’s body, the eyes had morphed, but then he disappeared. I could feel every emotion and feeling going through my body, both my own and the jaguar’s. I saw my childhood playing video games, always entertained by lights, colourful lights, how the hell did I expect my inner reality to be anything else?
“Now you get it” he told me, and the vibration increased. My body was shaking as if I had hypothermia, the whole bed was rattling, and once again my ex asked me, “are you sure you’re okay?”
I opened my eyes for a moment to say that I am, but when I opened my eyes I could still see the world of colourful geometry, it was like two different experiences over-lapping each other. I couldn’t say anything so I just nodded and smiled, then closed my eyes again.
“Who are you?” I asked
He smiled through my lips and told me, “I think you already know.”
I thought of Ix, a jaguar entity I was studying for a few months prior since I was born under that sign in the tzolkin.
I asked “Why are you here?” I instantly saw a vision of limbs hanging from trees, I was a hanging severed head in a jungle looking out over my torn body. It was a bloody mess, and a bit off putting. “Will I die?”
I felt laughter roll through my core again, “of course you won’t die.”
I instantly thought of the people in the house and the fact I was already vibrating the bed against the wall in the middle of the night, “what will happen with them?”
He showed me images of the room being torn apart by a tornado, people screaming horrified, and I instantly said “No, I can’t do that.” The lady that owned the house was very conservative and helped me find a place to stay when I needed it and the thought of putting her through that experience terrified me. I felt anger, rage flow through my body and every part of my shake, my teeth snarled, “What do you mean you can’t? Why do you care? They won’t remember a thing, it’ll be as if nothing ever happened.”
I told him “I want to, but not this time.”
“WHY NOT?” everything flared for a moment, but before I answered the energy calmed down and he laughed saying “you’re not ready after all.”
I felt disappointment, and I felt embarrassed. I felt panic, “will I get this chance again?”
“When you’re ready… I will see you again, and I will tear you limb from limb” I felt a smile come across my mouth, his not mine, and then the energy faded out all together.
Before I started studying nagualism I called this a “possession”, that was the best way I could describe it. Now I’m wondering if this would be considered an inorganic being, or any other ideas what might have happened? Any way I could.. rekindle the flame per se?
Thanks in advance!