03-14-2009, 12:00 AM
Let me first say that this is my first post with Shamanic Warrior. I welcome criticism if it's coherent.
My experiences with shamanism have naturally led me to questions most people cant answer. If you have not experienced the following or something similar to it, and if you have not come up with any explanations for it, please refrain from bogging down the post. I hope this rings with someone.
After years of working with attention placement, awareness, dreaming, and the concept of the luminous bubble that surrounds us, all of a sudden i seem to have stumbled onto a experiential analogue to Don Juan's teaching of 'shrinking' the tonal, and moving the assemblage point. From my perceptions, I feel like the following formula is applicable.
We are a double torus of consciousness that is not fixed in any one specific rotational modality. When awake, most of our consciousness is projected away from our center('assemblage point', 'heart chakra', 'singularity', 'black hole'...fill in your noun of choice) with a subtle calm and stable bubble membrane. Most people spend their entire lives collapsing and expanding without ever catching on to the process. The reason for this is the fear, a biological mechanism via neurotransmitters and adrenaline, intended to keep is here participating with 'our' reality. As i experienced intense fear spontaniously in a 'anxiety attack' i observed a rotatinal aspect to my perception. I felt as if something about me was trying to rotate counterclockwise (if looking down at me from the top). Upon having this realization, I had another, that being that the rotation was caused my something in me. That led to the idea, that i could change the direction of this fear-inducing rotation. I then 'pushed' the rotation clockwise and had an intensly blissful feeling of collapsing or shrinking into my 'center' or 'assemblage point'. I tried this a few more times every opportunity i got from getting startled or emotionally upset and thus fearful of an unkown outcome. Ultimatly I feel i have realized the phenomena of 'collapsing' and 'expanding' my luminous bubble.
Furthurmore, i've come to find that at first it is easier to 'move' my assebblage point while collapsed, but all in all it can be moved while expanded or collapsed to any degree. Don Juan's concept of the 'double' (refering to a body doubled in size) that moves out of the standard body in times of crisis is a spiritual evolutionary mechanism empowering us with the ability to spiritually subdue our enemies with all the personal power our existance can muster. For example, Carlitos 'doubled up' and moved his assemblage point when dona Doledad tried to kill him with a rope around his neck. And while in his double-sized, assemblage point-shifted form, he smacked the **** out of her and knocked her assemblage point right off of her body.(The Second Ring of Power, pg 58 [C. Castaneda]) Might a native american going through his right of passage have to 'double up', move his point of center from his body, and deal a death blow to his bear or mountain lion agressor? Who knows....
Another thing, the accumulation of energy is necessary to facilitate the expansion process. To gather the energy necessary, one may stirve to collapse as much anergy into his or her center as they can handle. So, the point is not to allow yourself to become affraid of anything untill you're rady to act. To walk around with a resevoir of potential inside the heart is what makes us powerful. Anone can lash out, get mean, and violent with no real lasting impacts of the things and people we lash out against. But not just anyone can hold it all together untill the time is right to 'double up' and sidstep an attack with your assemblage point to deal the defensive blow that is almost impossible to recover from, unlike your drunken bar brawlers with no clarity of mind and worthy intent. Power can be gathered by the eyes by embracing your experiences instead of pushing on them. Gathering can literally be felt like a liquid moving into your eyes, so when it happens, accept it and be on your way without fear because the expansion process that fear facilitates will drain you of all you've worked so hard to collect.
Again, coherent criticism is appreciated.
Sincerely ManifestingActuality
My experiences with shamanism have naturally led me to questions most people cant answer. If you have not experienced the following or something similar to it, and if you have not come up with any explanations for it, please refrain from bogging down the post. I hope this rings with someone.
After years of working with attention placement, awareness, dreaming, and the concept of the luminous bubble that surrounds us, all of a sudden i seem to have stumbled onto a experiential analogue to Don Juan's teaching of 'shrinking' the tonal, and moving the assemblage point. From my perceptions, I feel like the following formula is applicable.
We are a double torus of consciousness that is not fixed in any one specific rotational modality. When awake, most of our consciousness is projected away from our center('assemblage point', 'heart chakra', 'singularity', 'black hole'...fill in your noun of choice) with a subtle calm and stable bubble membrane. Most people spend their entire lives collapsing and expanding without ever catching on to the process. The reason for this is the fear, a biological mechanism via neurotransmitters and adrenaline, intended to keep is here participating with 'our' reality. As i experienced intense fear spontaniously in a 'anxiety attack' i observed a rotatinal aspect to my perception. I felt as if something about me was trying to rotate counterclockwise (if looking down at me from the top). Upon having this realization, I had another, that being that the rotation was caused my something in me. That led to the idea, that i could change the direction of this fear-inducing rotation. I then 'pushed' the rotation clockwise and had an intensly blissful feeling of collapsing or shrinking into my 'center' or 'assemblage point'. I tried this a few more times every opportunity i got from getting startled or emotionally upset and thus fearful of an unkown outcome. Ultimatly I feel i have realized the phenomena of 'collapsing' and 'expanding' my luminous bubble.
Furthurmore, i've come to find that at first it is easier to 'move' my assebblage point while collapsed, but all in all it can be moved while expanded or collapsed to any degree. Don Juan's concept of the 'double' (refering to a body doubled in size) that moves out of the standard body in times of crisis is a spiritual evolutionary mechanism empowering us with the ability to spiritually subdue our enemies with all the personal power our existance can muster. For example, Carlitos 'doubled up' and moved his assemblage point when dona Doledad tried to kill him with a rope around his neck. And while in his double-sized, assemblage point-shifted form, he smacked the **** out of her and knocked her assemblage point right off of her body.(The Second Ring of Power, pg 58 [C. Castaneda]) Might a native american going through his right of passage have to 'double up', move his point of center from his body, and deal a death blow to his bear or mountain lion agressor? Who knows....
Another thing, the accumulation of energy is necessary to facilitate the expansion process. To gather the energy necessary, one may stirve to collapse as much anergy into his or her center as they can handle. So, the point is not to allow yourself to become affraid of anything untill you're rady to act. To walk around with a resevoir of potential inside the heart is what makes us powerful. Anone can lash out, get mean, and violent with no real lasting impacts of the things and people we lash out against. But not just anyone can hold it all together untill the time is right to 'double up' and sidstep an attack with your assemblage point to deal the defensive blow that is almost impossible to recover from, unlike your drunken bar brawlers with no clarity of mind and worthy intent. Power can be gathered by the eyes by embracing your experiences instead of pushing on them. Gathering can literally be felt like a liquid moving into your eyes, so when it happens, accept it and be on your way without fear because the expansion process that fear facilitates will drain you of all you've worked so hard to collect.
Again, coherent criticism is appreciated.
Sincerely ManifestingActuality