06-03-2003, 12:00 AM
Imagine that you come into life with a bank account of emotional energy. You are free to choose what you will spend your emotional energy on. Some things you
choose are good investments. You offer your faith, love, dedication, passion, commitment and drive and you receive back a return on your investment that is
exponentialized, in the form of happiness, satisfaction and commitment. You may also receive monetary rewards, because money is just a concrete, physical
manifestation of emotional energy. However, certain people, places, things and situations tend to drain our energy. Don Vicente refers to the program of
domestication we have within us that causes us to believe we need to give our energy away in ways that drain our energy. He calls this program "The
Parasite" because it steals our creative energy and holds us back from expressing the truth of who we are. Each time we break free of the Parasite and
express our authentic self, we feel immeasurably rewarded. Practice sending out your love to someone and see how you feel. In a short period of time, you will
begin feeling the love returning, many times stronger. This is because "happiness is love coming out of you" as Don Vicente teaches.
Most people come into life freely throwing about emotional cash. When people give up massive amounts of their emotional cash, they become spiritually bankrupt
over time. Their emotional energy is exhausted and they lose the ability to direct their lives. Often this stems from unconscious fear-based agreements. A
woman goes enters a sexual relationship that is dramatic and intense, with a scary edge. Initially, she feels euphoria and exhilaration. At first, the woman
believes she got her emotional money's worth from this experience. Yet, the woman did not take the time to evaluate whether her lover honored her Divinity,
and she discovered later the man she was seeing did not. She realized the situation was fear-filled rather than love filled, and that her emotional body was
depleted, rather than energized. Perhaps her fear based belief was that women are powerless to resist seductive men. The emotions generated from giving her
power away lead her to feel sad, anxious, fearful and upset. She paid out emotional energy and received depleted resources in return. Perhaps it took days or
even weeks to recover. She could shift her belief, reclaim her own power, and seek a lover who also honored her Divinity and supported her in her power.
Imagine a man who throws about his emotional cash on trying to please a supervisor at work in order to receive a promotion. Each action he takes is in order to
please this demanding supervisor, and eventually he receives the promotion. After he receives it, he realizes he has compromised his integrity, having gone
against his core values through the process. The guilt and shame he feels become overwhelming. He feels unworthy of the job. He has received prestige and more
physical money, but the toll on his emotional body has caused a complete internal crash. What is happening here? Is either person aware of the ways they have
been spending their "emotional cash?" Perhaps they haven't thought of it this way, because they have not mastered the process of putting all
their energy towards honoring their core integrity.
Imagine instead living life consciously, through intent. Imagine that instead of throwing around your emotional cash, you give yourself vouchers or gift
certificates. You make an agreement of where your emotional energy will go, and you stick with it. For example, the woman in the example above could make the
agreement to choose a safe and trustworthy person to have a romantic relationship with. She could choose that her emotional energy will only go for this
purpose. The man in the example above could choose that he will only spend his emotional energy on projects that resonate with his core self and that make his
heart sing. Emotional gift certificates are new agreements we can make to be impeccable in the use of energy. Practice writing one out or designing it on your
computer. Carry it with you through the day to remember your commitment to honoring your authentic self.
Why are we tempted to throw about emotional cash? We are born with a certain amount of energy. Most people blindly follow the training they received in the
domestication process and throw their energy away into projects and relationships that offer no return. People are domesticated to believe that there is reward
in sacrifice and martyrdom. Although it is pure personal importance, many people believe they must suffer for those they love in order to be "good
people." We have the choice to invest our emotional energy and allow it to grow and spread and multiply through the world, through the ripple effect of
all people we encounter. All of this loving energy will come back to us a hundredfold and we will die knowing fully the love and power of God that does not end
when the body dies.
The Toltec path is a path of the heart, but this does not mean that we blindly follow the urgings and impulses that we feel. Our feelings come from our
integrity, but we are given our minds to find methods that most honor and nurture our emotional selves. Impeccability is about using our minds to direct our
energy in ways that honor the emotional body, bringing back infinite return from each action we perform. In this way, we allow our emotions expression in ways
that serve our entire being. This is living from integrity, following the first agreement, to "always be impeccable with the word" through using all
our energy in the direction of ourselves, which is Love.
Laura, the Nagual Woman.
choose are good investments. You offer your faith, love, dedication, passion, commitment and drive and you receive back a return on your investment that is
exponentialized, in the form of happiness, satisfaction and commitment. You may also receive monetary rewards, because money is just a concrete, physical
manifestation of emotional energy. However, certain people, places, things and situations tend to drain our energy. Don Vicente refers to the program of
domestication we have within us that causes us to believe we need to give our energy away in ways that drain our energy. He calls this program "The
Parasite" because it steals our creative energy and holds us back from expressing the truth of who we are. Each time we break free of the Parasite and
express our authentic self, we feel immeasurably rewarded. Practice sending out your love to someone and see how you feel. In a short period of time, you will
begin feeling the love returning, many times stronger. This is because "happiness is love coming out of you" as Don Vicente teaches.
Most people come into life freely throwing about emotional cash. When people give up massive amounts of their emotional cash, they become spiritually bankrupt
over time. Their emotional energy is exhausted and they lose the ability to direct their lives. Often this stems from unconscious fear-based agreements. A
woman goes enters a sexual relationship that is dramatic and intense, with a scary edge. Initially, she feels euphoria and exhilaration. At first, the woman
believes she got her emotional money's worth from this experience. Yet, the woman did not take the time to evaluate whether her lover honored her Divinity,
and she discovered later the man she was seeing did not. She realized the situation was fear-filled rather than love filled, and that her emotional body was
depleted, rather than energized. Perhaps her fear based belief was that women are powerless to resist seductive men. The emotions generated from giving her
power away lead her to feel sad, anxious, fearful and upset. She paid out emotional energy and received depleted resources in return. Perhaps it took days or
even weeks to recover. She could shift her belief, reclaim her own power, and seek a lover who also honored her Divinity and supported her in her power.
Imagine a man who throws about his emotional cash on trying to please a supervisor at work in order to receive a promotion. Each action he takes is in order to
please this demanding supervisor, and eventually he receives the promotion. After he receives it, he realizes he has compromised his integrity, having gone
against his core values through the process. The guilt and shame he feels become overwhelming. He feels unworthy of the job. He has received prestige and more
physical money, but the toll on his emotional body has caused a complete internal crash. What is happening here? Is either person aware of the ways they have
been spending their "emotional cash?" Perhaps they haven't thought of it this way, because they have not mastered the process of putting all
their energy towards honoring their core integrity.
Imagine instead living life consciously, through intent. Imagine that instead of throwing around your emotional cash, you give yourself vouchers or gift
certificates. You make an agreement of where your emotional energy will go, and you stick with it. For example, the woman in the example above could make the
agreement to choose a safe and trustworthy person to have a romantic relationship with. She could choose that her emotional energy will only go for this
purpose. The man in the example above could choose that he will only spend his emotional energy on projects that resonate with his core self and that make his
heart sing. Emotional gift certificates are new agreements we can make to be impeccable in the use of energy. Practice writing one out or designing it on your
computer. Carry it with you through the day to remember your commitment to honoring your authentic self.
Why are we tempted to throw about emotional cash? We are born with a certain amount of energy. Most people blindly follow the training they received in the
domestication process and throw their energy away into projects and relationships that offer no return. People are domesticated to believe that there is reward
in sacrifice and martyrdom. Although it is pure personal importance, many people believe they must suffer for those they love in order to be "good
people." We have the choice to invest our emotional energy and allow it to grow and spread and multiply through the world, through the ripple effect of
all people we encounter. All of this loving energy will come back to us a hundredfold and we will die knowing fully the love and power of God that does not end
when the body dies.
The Toltec path is a path of the heart, but this does not mean that we blindly follow the urgings and impulses that we feel. Our feelings come from our
integrity, but we are given our minds to find methods that most honor and nurture our emotional selves. Impeccability is about using our minds to direct our
energy in ways that honor the emotional body, bringing back infinite return from each action we perform. In this way, we allow our emotions expression in ways
that serve our entire being. This is living from integrity, following the first agreement, to "always be impeccable with the word" through using all
our energy in the direction of ourselves, which is Love.
Laura, the Nagual Woman.