Re: Honour and recapitulation..

[rosygyro]

[glance left]

Amazing...I just watched that episode with my oldest daughter few days ago and knew it was relevant without knowing why.

So, with respect to the recapitulation....looking back into those moments in which, say, acute fear is the response.  Getting my ass kicked in front of a huge crowd of school mates in middle school, for instance.  The intent is not to force fearlessness into that remembered and scanned moment....but to accept it wholesale while watching the scene play out?  Is it just to watch.....accept....and, in the acceptance, to go into the scene as deeply as I can....as often as I can to go as deeply as I can?

What about DJ talking about the intent to recover energy lost in those scenes....and to eject energy lodged in my sphere from those outside in those scenes?  I'm not sure how that plays into the paradigm.  Maybe its all part of the "ironing" out of what's distorted by lack of acceptance...by resistance to what happened.

I'm actively looking for ways to deepen my recapitulation.  I get taken to all kinds of various, seemingly disconnected scenes when I sit in silence....but the speed within which they shift from scene to scene...seemingly before I'm done with each.....seems like a product of my ADD

[rosygyro]

the "feeling"that being old carries with it. 
Consider this- The Average age of a human is 29.3 years. I dont mean the average lifespan i mean the average age- right now. When you cross the age of 29.3 years you shift across a fulcrum in the GENUS CORPOREAL FOOTPRINT.. you go from being in the youngest half (50%) and into the oldest half (50%).. and for a nanosecond you are "the mean".
 It is a massive shift in awareness.. bearing in mind that at your birth you are for a nanosecond the youngest person alive.. and at your death.. for a nanosecond you are the dancer. 3 distinct points.. the youngest, the mean, the dancer..."

when we are over 30.. there is always a direct link through the pivot point of 29.3 years... because it makes such a powerful line it can be extremely formative of your intent.

ultimatly though it is the alignment in natural time of your wherabouts around 29years... your birth.. and in the diametricly opposite direction.. your intent.

[glance left]

I will search for the feeling of alignment in these pivotal moments...the empty center around which they revolve....and try to make it a part of by slowly developing daily intent

[rosygyro]

glance left wrote:
I will search for the feeling of alignment in these pivotal moments...the empty center around which they revolve....and try to make it a part of by slowly developing daily intent

[glance left]

I see the two trajectories....the shaft of the spear of destiny extrapolated into infinity east and west.  I see one severed with the exposed rings of the wood of the shaft....and the other with the severance healed/stop-gapped with the symbol, I think, implying the epicenter of the intent of the recapitulation...the present which holds all directions in equipoise....in suspension, or something like that.  I don't know what all the numbers mean , though.

[rosygyro]

So i am walking through the wood and i find a freshly cut tree stump..
i count backward through its concentric rings with my fingertips..
noting that at so and so time i was born..or hey look the first world war
or the eruption of krakatoa.. 
i can do this with a whole forest of tree stumps if i choose...
i could travel the country or the world inspecting forestry operations
and observing the age of trees in the record of their lignin rings.
each stump a funnel in time.



if all these trees have been cut this year..
and i am to step back just 1 year in recapitulation..
every single tree is whole.. (correct?)
or recapitulate back 10 years and a multitude more trees displace my palm
from aimlessly counting the record of their life....


The truth is that in retrospect.. at the time..
the trees were whole..

just as the people who died since the millenium

were whole before the millenium.

recapitulation should take into account the exact
life quotient that surrounded us "then"
......................


I sometimes dream of a friend who died in 2006
but when i do.. i am dreaming of talking to him in 2003


so if i see a cut tree stump.. i SHOULD..
 1) place my palm on its cut surface and count back its rings..
2) place my palm on its cut surface and should i recapitulate 
i should see various false perceptions of my hand and wrist
broken away from the stump by the record of its life.

i.e. i cannot interfere with a trees totality just by laying my hand accross its stump


there is only one world tree or so they say.





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[rosygyro]

And of course this picture is a tree...
but also a human observing itself in totality.

a game of russian roulette
should only interfere with the potential of
more rings of growth

[rosygyro]

To be honest
i am having real trouble writing my knowledge down in any publishable, printable
form.
I have a complete work scattered around ..
but some part of me cannot draw the work together
unless i have a commission to do the work.
the pittance that peoples casual interest pays me
is only enough to casually drag the occasional pieces of the puzzle together.

i cannot write a book from a crevice in a welsh mountain..
i need an office built by slaves in metropolis before their use was abolished.
or a gallery to hang the framed work on its planes.
and an interview where i can be blas'e
and unbelieved.


stalking is complex and also simple.
 were i to be surrounded by the derision of an unbelieving
jealous art crowd, or under critique by such..
i would write the truth in plain sight of the unbelieving

that is stalking.. only with canapes and a cravat. 
its still a good read.

[glance left]

"2) place my palm on its cut surface and should i recapitulate 
i should see various false perceptions of my hand and wrist
broken away from the stump by the record of its life.

i.e. i cannot interfere with a trees totality just by laying my hand accross its stump"

No, I can't interfere....but I can be open, in the context of alignment, to extending the intent of the recapitulation to others who may have a synchronous injury.  Not in the context of will, which becomes contrivance inevitably because of the discord inherent in the disconnect of will, which is trying to do something...to bend and corral  forces to that premeditation which ironically causes a disconnect from the very source of the power of those forces.  But rather in the context of what is done, of its own accord, in the context of open, acquiescent alignment with intent....that cares about people in general and about  "the earth" in general. 

IDK, I know this has a theoretical tone...simply because I can't see if it's actually working on any level.  But the act of doing it when the moment incites the action....feels like an act of alignment on some level.  I trust that, for what its worth

[trinsic]

I have been praticing this thing called constructive living, where whatever needs to be done, making the bed, doing the dishes, and doing these things right then and there instead of putting it off, while pairing this with James allen's work of right thinking and right action.

I don't usually like to weighing hourable decisions, but choosing to do this construct living thing has been the most hounrable decision I have ever made for myself and the people around me.

[Guest]