I feel like im stuck in a waking dream.

[warfcat]

I feel like im stuck in a waking dream, where everything is mirrorr'd back to me. I cant move past my small wants and desires. I can literally not feel anyones intent anymore, It no longer permeates my being, and intent hidden on the back of words no longer sways me. Where am i. How can i escape this dream.

[Julio Juliopolis]

Sounds like you're in a good place warfcat. Not necessarily a fun place, but that doesn't mean it's a wrong or bad place. It's where you need to be to get out of the "reality box", (to use your words from your post in the introductions forum), that you feel stuck in.

A problem you might be facing here, (many people do when they're at the point where you are), is that although you know the box isn't reality you still don't know what's not real about it. Why isn't it reality? Where are the cracks in this which keep it from being reality?

There are a few techniques that people use to get past that point, and I'll recommend one here for you. I got it from Robert Anton Wilson. Just answer the question "Why am I answering this question?" It sounds simple on the surface, but the key is to keep going until you've completely answered it. To start with, you might write...

- I saw this suggested to me on a forum I was reading.

This would lead to two more questions that need to be answered in order to fully answer the original question... "Why was I reading this forum?" and "Why did I choose to follow that suggestion?"

The goal is to keep going on until you've answered the original question as completely as you can.
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Now you might be thinking that each time you answer a question 2 more will pop up infinitely, but it doesn't end up working like that. Initially a lot more questions do pop up, but sometimes you get long branches where there's only 1 new questions generated by each answer for a long time. Later on, you'll see a lot of these branches end with "I don't know", and then you have fewer branches left to deal with.

So why would this help you?

Because believing that the reality box you feel trapped in isn't reality has shown not to be enough. Doing this exercise will prove it to you. After all, some part of you still feels that you can choose to answer "Why am I answering this question?" and know why you're doing it. That is part of the reality box for you. By actually doing the exercise you'll prove to yourself that you don't know why you're answering the question. You'll find that the reason you think you're answering it ultimately comes from a branched set of beliefs you have which are themselves resting on beliefs you don't know why you have. You'll see that some of those branches are even contradictory and can't simultaneously be true. All of these things will be showing you cracks in your reality box with regard to this one exercise. However, once you start seeing the cracks there, you'll be able to find them elsewhere in the reality box as well. You'll know where to look for them. You won't be able to not see them in many cases. And the more you find the more illusory the box will become. After you see the light from the hologram projector creating the hologram for the SW corner of the box, you'll know where to look to find it in the NE corner. And once you see the projectors creating all the parts to the box it won't be a reality box for you anymore.

Hope this suggestion helps you

[warfcat]

Thank you so much for your advice, I felt a little stuck yesterday, but have gotten out and am feeling better, I have been pondering your question and its got something started in me. I am starting to notice a few things around me. I cant yet see the forrest for the trees, but Its got me looking at a few trees. I guess it really is a question Of Where am I. Is what it comes down to. I have pondered this once before. I know where i am told where i am, but i do not truely know where i am, in time, space, and the multiverse. I think I have to leave before I get back. I am starting to see the interplay between me and other people. But I still do not know where I stand in the world. I am starting to know where I stand with people though. And this is a good thing. Your right though, its not so bad wherever I am, it is a safe place to learn. regardless, I always have the impending feeling that I need a sudden and swift change and or insight and I will leave this place.

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