Stalking the urge to criticise

[Wei Shan Yang]

Hey SHM, will be responding to your post here soon.

[Wei Shan Yang]

"Keep in mind that this is all business, baby.  I'm a businessman.  I'm a
Stalker and I love business.  I love interacting with people.  I love
working on myself and looking straight into others I work with and just
keep on keeping on.  Every situation in which I've dealt with people put
me right here, right now, in this exact spot of this project.  There
was no judgement.  There was no good or bad.  There was no manipulating
of others, or myself being manipulated.  There was just LIFE.  All the
pieces of the puzzle came together at once."
I feel your excitment here. It all boils down to what we thrive on doesn't it? Therein lies the key to unlock doors, finding what we are passionate about because there is our energy source...path with heart.



I thrive on acceptance. Finding it, feeling it, seeing where its not and finding a way to make it so (here I refer to self-acceptance...acceptance of myself and others..., rather than social acceptance from others). I feel to the core of me that I have everything I need within me and all the help without (out being my larger self dispersed through space and time) and together there will be a solution to whatever perceived separation is in question, because the world and I are a unified whole. Sometimes expereinces happen in my life to make me feel otherwise, so its a matter of seeing how that's not the case. This quote comes to mind:


This rather revolutionary notion was inspired by Mexican
writer Don Miguel Ángel Ruiz. Mohr explains: “In his book The Mastery
of Love, he imagines a magic kitchen, where you have all the ingredients
to make anything you want. It’s a metaphor for our inability to see
what we have and have faith in it. There’s so much love in our hearts
to give and receive but we just aren’t willing to believe it or act on
it. That’s a really powerful idea.”

[Wei Shan Yang]

"Who spurred this emotion in me? Or, Who, (as in 'me' or my personal history) is taking issue with this emotion as opposed to just allowing it to arise fully?"



Like how you brought up personal history, there is so much located there. When we catch it in action (recap) we realize just how much not in the moment reactions and emotions are.

[Wei Shan Yang]

Hey Turin,
Revisiting your lead post today. My responses to you earlier here were overlooking a valuable observation you had. I have to confess I originally didn't want to "go there" because it sounded too much like the PP confronting method which I do not like...the "get the shadow out of us" stuff we used to do, so I was trying to emphasize acceptance (total acceptance) of self, which was where I was at when I posted. It was my truth and I was not doing anything beyond what I thought was most relevant. But what you said here came to my attention today:



"While I was listening to her I realized that I had started a feeding frenzy and the energy was feeling bad in my heart, negative, and I abruptly said 'let's change the subject'."



I see you made a breakthrough of sorts...maybe you have done it before but your recent experience was significant enough for you to post. The fact that you felt something that didn't feel right...I think the value of that is we know not to follow it any longer. Once you felt it, you stopped, which lead to your friends saying "why do you do this?" and so alerted a pattern and your posting here was to stop the initial beginning point...the point where you allow it to happen in the first place. What I think is most relevant now is that you were identified with it. What needs to happen, my opinion anyway, is we need to see we are not it, the foreign installation, ever. Once we see that then to hold that awareness. Hold, hold it, and hold it. Its a valuable vantage point. And this may have been what you were feeling about it to perhaps?
Now this will conflict with the Buddhist view..."we are everything", I know, lol. The shamanic view does have a different vantage point. And I feel I may have a hard time explaining what I mean if asked...but will do my best. Its not that Buddhism is right and Shamanism is wrong, nor is it the other way around. Its just right now I like the Shaman approach--see the FI is the "other", and keep it that way. It not evil, but its not us either. Instead follow Spirit. This increases our Power, which in turn keeps us Free.
Ok, this is my experience so may or may not be relevant to you, but thought you would find my change of view refreshing at least. Giving validity to your initial observation, as it is deserved.

[Turin Otzaki]

Thanks Wei, apprecaite you taking the time to acknowledge that. It was a great example to me of the value of having reliable honest reference points around one. By having the courage to point out what I was doing my friend made me conscious of it, she stalked me! And now the effect is amazing! I am stalking myself on this - and its now harder to criticise anyone behind their back ever since that happened. The Foreign Installation is no longer being 'fed' by this activity and I feel a little bitty 'cleaner'. I witness the urge before the words come out my mouth.



Whether it exists or not I don't know, but as a tool the concept of the Foreign Installation is helpful, it helps us to appraise ourselves without taking what we see too personally, to view ourselves and our motives and behaviour with impartiality and more detachment. After all its easier to admit to something in ourselves if its not really us but something foreign inside us!



I have a sense that the 'we are everything' is correct on a higher turn of the spiral. Sometimes what is true on a lower level is not on a higher level. Maybe we are ultimately the Foreign Installation too, maybe we designed it ourselves as part of the system here to provide us with enough resistance needed to build our consciousness...much like the weights on an exercise machine provide us an opportunity to develop our muscle. The Dark Side has its place I strongly suspect that part of our purpose here on this planet is to build immunity to 'evil', and learn to use our freewill correctly i.e. make choices in harmony with the Tao. And for that a descent into contamination is necessary first.



Unconscious Unity to Separation to Conscious Unity

[Littlepaw]

Well Turin,



Well Done for having the humility to accept that you may need to change your behavior rather than just blame somebody else for theirs. The truth is that there is a big difference between how we see other s behavior towards us and what that behavior really is in all its implications!

[Wei Shan Yang]

Turin,



Agree with what you said. I read in your words my very own view...which is, whatever the FI is its not negative. But it is useful to see it as a-part. It may seem to contradict Buddhism to view an "other" but in this case I feel the other is merely a tool for our own awakening and we are meant to have the valuable vantage point to aid us. In Jewish belief I heard that the devil is viewed as working for God, that they are both aware of this situation and why they are doing what they do. Ok, simplistic way to put it, but it explains the feeling.



Another way of looking at it...which goes back to my original sort of, is that a negative is an illusion, thus we need not consider it part of anything (so not us), but still we fight to overcome illusions (ignorance).



Sounds like you are stepping more and more into your power...and I know you have been for some time. Awesome, lady!

[Wei Shan Yang]

"Sounds like you are stepping more and more into your power"



What am I saying? Stepping...dumb. You are in your power right now!, enough said.

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