07-27-2006, 12:00 AM
Here are some understandings or elaborations of the basic ideas already put forth about the FI on this forum garnered from observations of my own humble experience. I offer them up to my fellow travelers, i.e., those who would be free, for what they may be worth.
There have been a number of examples of the FIs modus operandi published on this forum that emphasize extreme behavior. While bold examples may be useful to start getting a handle on the FI, it is useful to note, in my opinion, that the daily actions of the FI are infinitely subtle. It applies an arsenal of covert tactics that seem harmless to us, even to the point of being invisible to most.
While Don Juan made the observation to Castaneda that the FI has a short attention span, I dont think this is entirely correct. The entity itself seems to me to have an enormous amount of patience as it systematically stalks its human host. It takes very gradual, minute and ultimately stealthy steps in playing the chess game of dominion over its subject. It does however go to great lengths in creating a lack of attention span in the subjects false mind as a strategy of subversion. The entity itself, on the other hand is very willing to bide its time as it gradually, consistently and methodically inches us closer to its long range designs.
Much of human behavior under the influence of the FI, which I have observed first hand in myself and others is routine and compulsive. The FI gradually nudges our perceptions, reactions and activities into grooves of repeating cycles, through subtle perversions of thought. Many things we do may seem to us completely harmless. We become familiar with a certain way of interfacing with our world, running our day, and motivating our way through life. When those of us who would be free, however, start to question our perceptions and look deeper into things, the irrelevancy of such habitual behavior becomes apparent. Compulsive behavior is at its core, irrational and reflexive. When we examine such and question our motives, we will inevitably see how we abandon reality and reason and cling blindly to what feels familiar. Putting us on such redundant tracks is a key strategy of the FI. Developing unproductive behavior furthers the predators control over its host. The familiar, which we have been led to feel a safe haven, is often just the opposite. The predator establishes its presence in us over time so that eventually its thoughts and emotions feel like an intimate part of us. After accumulating what are assumed to be a series of innocent acts, and are in reality submissive compliance with the FIs impulses, we end our days locked in routines that reinforce our despair, drain our energy, alienate us from reality and otherwise cause us to feel helplessness to change. Thus does entropy set in and our freedom erodes.
An illustration may help in better understanding this process.
Sylvias Evening - As Silvia, a single professional in her early 30s, drives on her daily commute home from a full-time job which she doesnt really love, but pays the bills, she makes plans for her evening which include activities to further her desired goals of meeting Mr. Right and making some more satisfying career changes. She decides that first thing when she gets home, she is going to change into her workout suit, turn on her favorite videotape for trimming buns and thighs and exercise. Then she plans tonights dinner menu according to the latest shape-up diet plan she is following. After dinner, she decides she is going to look at the website of her local community college to peruse the evening courses being offered this fall to see if she can find one which fits in with her schedule that will help her get a promotion in her department. While she is online on her computer, she might even check out that dating website her girlfriend so highly recommended because she has had so little time to meet the kind men she feels she could form a lasting relationship with. Then before bed, she will read some of that book she picked up last week on the art of good relationships, so she can better understand what went wrong with her last steady boyfriend, and so avoid repeating her mistakes in the future. Satisfied with her plans, she starts to feel very up beat and excited. As she gets closer to home, she congratulates herself for being decisive, disciplined and proactive in taking hold of her life and getting it out of the doldrums its been in lately.
When she arrives home, a vague feeling of tiredness sets in. Without even thinking about it, she collapses into her favorite easy chair in front of the television, while she thinks about where she left her workout cloths and where her exercise tape is. She looks at her VCR and sees that the tape inside indicator light is on. She remembers that she had set her recording timer to tape the latest episode of her favorite daytime soap opera. She picks up her remote to eject the tape to ready the VCR for her exercise video. Then she thinks that she might as well check to see if the recording came out ok. She turns on the TV with the remote, rewinds the tape and starts to play it back. Then, as the intro theme to her show plays, she remembers that she is very curious to see what happens next in the latest show plot. She watches it for a little while more. She then gets sucked in completely by the plot and decides, what the heck, shell unwind from work a little before she exercises and finish watching her show.
By the end of her show, she is feeling hungry. She decides, because its an hour later, to change supper plans to a frozen dinner she can pop in the oven, so that while its cooking, she can do her workout. When she opens the freezer to take out her dinner, she spies a brand new pint of her favorite ice cream. She tells herself that the ice cream will be her reward when she gets on the scale and confirms she has lost 15 pounds. She puts her dinner in the oven and sets the timer, congratulating herself for being so disciplined about the ice cream. She goes back to the room where her TV is still on. She locates her exercise video and puts it in the VCR. She turns on the evening news to listen to while she goes to her bedroom to change into her exercise cloths. When she is finished changing, she comes back to her TV. There is a very interesting story on the news headlines, the full details to be coming up shortly. After some commercials, one other headline story and some more commercials, her full news story comes up. Near the end of it, she hears the timer ding in the kitchen.
She takes her meal out to cool a bit. It smells good. She peels back the foil to make sure everything came out ok. It looks very appetizing. She goes back to the TV to start her workout. The weather is coming up next on the news and she wonders if the weekend will be good beach weather. She sits down in her chair and watches the TV. As she watches the weather, she starts to get very hungry. She can smell the food and she thinks that if she has a couple bites of it, maybe she can make the hunger pains subside so she can concentrate on her workout. Without thinking about it much, she brings the food into the TV room, where she usually eats when she is alone, sets it down and starts to eat. It turned out great and really tastes good. Besides, she is so hungry. She thinks that it will not taste as good later when it gets cold and that this kind of food doesnt re-heat well.
She takes some more bites and blankly stairs at the TV, which is still on. She starts to do what she always does, flipping channels to something interesting while she eats. As she tunes to an interesting show, she tells herself that she doesnt feel too full and can probably get away with finishing her meal and still exercise. By the end of her meal, her show isnt quite over yet and she is into the plot and wants to see how it ends, so she watches the rest of it. At the end of the show, she feels quite full and even more tired than before.
She decides to postpone the workout and do some of the other things she planned. Besides, she is all suited up and has her exercise tape ready, so it wont be any kind of effort at all to exercise later. She thinks about getting on her computer to check out classes and the dating website. Being full of food is making her feel even more tired. As she sits in her comfortable chair in front of the TV she realizes that she has been sitting in front of that damn computer at her job all day long doing boring, tedious work. A feeling of total aversion to getting in front of a computer yet again today overtakes her. Then she remembers that she also wanted to read her new book and that would be perfect to do while she digests her food. After that, she will be ready to exercise.
She turns off the TV, gets her book and sits back in her comfy chair to read. As she reads, which she often does just before bed to help fall asleep, she starts to feel very tired. Being full of food makes her even sleepier. She thinks maybe if she just gives into a little snooze in the chair, then she will feel refreshed and ready to exercise. She doses off for a while. During her nap, she has a bad dream about her ex-boyfriend in which he tells her that she has become fat and unattractive to him. She awakes from her nap very depressed and still tired. She thinks about exercising and realizes that she is so tired the idea of it has become totally unappealing to her. She starts to think about her dream and wonders if her relationship with her boyfriend started to go bad because he started to find her unattractive.
She gets up from her chair and starts to pace around the house while she thinks about her old relationship, comparing it with the few ideas she read about so far in the book she started. She finds herself in the kitchen and opens the fridge without even thinking. Next she looks in the freezer. She spies the ice cream. Then she thinks about how when shes depressed, like right now, ice cream seems to make her feel better. She tells herself that one bite wont hurt her waist at all. She opens the ice cream, grabs a spoon and starts eating it. While she eats, she paces around her apartment more and thinks more about her past relationship, feeling lonely and depressed. While she thinks, she unconsciously shovels more ice cream into her mouth.
She finds herself in the TV room and looks at her comfortable chair and sits down to eat more ice cream. TV noise reminds her of growing up with her family and she turns it back on in an attempt to chase away her growing feeling of loneliness. She watches another show. The ice cream tastes good and she keeps on eating it as a comfort for her depression. Suddenly she glances at the clock. Its late and reaching her bed time. She looks at the ice cream, its almost gone. Then she realizes that she is still dressed in her workout cloths. The thought of all her evening plans unfulfilled depresses her even more. She feels humiliated, sitting in her exercise outfit watching television with most of a new pint of ice cream demolished. With a feeling of total defeat, she finishes the ice cream as a last desperate grasp for comfort and wanders off to bed. As she changes out of her workout suit, and sorts out her work cloths for the morning, she promises herself that she will skip lunch tomorrow to make up for the ice cream, use that lunch break to look into classes, etc. on the computer at her desk and when she gets home, she will exercise twice as long as she intended to do tonight. Then she will put together a nutritious meal from scratch that fully complies with her new diet plan. Feeling better, she climbs into bed and calls it a night.
Here is an average person, not a serial killer, a sexual pervert nor a lunatic, but someone we can all relate to in one way or another. And yet I have indeed simplified and exaggerated her behavior a bit to make certain things easier to pick out. In true life, our own FI operates in infinitely subtler ways. Im offering in this example many levels for your own further analysis, but Ill elaborate on the main theme of her foreign installations motives for the evening: sabotage of personal integrity. Sylvia attempts to address her drive to make a difference in her life by taking advantage of her time off to improve herself. As she makes her plans, the FI nudges her to become a little too ambitious and set the bar very high. It causes her to forget to factor in fatigue from a full day at work, and dinnertime hunger.
When she gets home, her predator concentrates on gradually eroding her resolve through injecting impulses to perform small acts of her apparently harmless habits. It will cause her first to take a baby step in the wrong direction, and as she complies, increase her momentum through bolder steps. Any salesman or seduction artist will tell you that the key to the game is getting one to acquiesce to smaller yeses which lead up to the big yes goal in mind.
Another detail to note is the fact that the FI is not simply applying pure mental dialog to manipulate its subject but quite a number of different cues. It is important to realize that an entrenched FI can effect emotions, bodily sensations and dreams as well as thoughts. I also think it can cause its subject to unconsciously perform physical actions. The FI also fully exploits the social world of the subject, which is a collaboration of all such entities through the agency of their human hosts. Thus outside influences like TV are also exploited to wage its battle.
It is also important to observe that the FI is deadly serious about winning. Once it starts prevailing, it will give no quarter. Sylvias FI strives to defeat her completely in every detail of what she set out to do with her night. In the end, as she weakens, it strives to downgrade her self-image through thoughts and feelings of self-doubt about her past relationship. Once it opens a wound, like her insecurity about her figure, it tries to widen the gash into an exaggerated notion of being fat and therefore unattractive. It fixes the perceived condition by instilling feelings of hopelessness and helplessness to change, getting her to believe that she has no self-control about eating, or discipline for exercise. Her FI has also managed to mask the fact that she actually started her ice cream binges and gained a little extra weight after her breakup with her boyfriend as a reaction to the depression it caused. There is a good chance that Sylvias ex boyfriend didnt work out for reasons other than his physical attraction for her. Thus the FI is trying to put her on a totally unproductive track that is a very poor reflection of the realities involved in solving her long-term relationship problems. And if she manages to slim down and improve her physical attractiveness, and even start getting dates from a website, she will be bringing the same unchanged emotional and psychological baggage to the game. Her attractiveness will make her vulnerable to men who are secretly just looking for a good time rather than earnestly seeking a lasting relationship themselves.
Her career issues, briefly, are a product of her lazy streak. She gravitated to less challenging work as a consequence. The FI strives to throw its subject off balance. Freedom is gained through the poise and fluidity that come from balance. A predator will therefore try to exploit a personality trait by pushing it into a state of more acuteness. If one has a tendency to get cranky, his FI will try to turn that into fits of raging anger, etc. In Sylvias case, her FI sabotages her evening by exploiting her own weakness and thus chooses to amplify her laziness.
The FI finishes off the evenings work with an interesting maneuver that serves a dual purpose. First it anesthetizes the subject from feeling too much pain or desperation to keep her from being over motivated for change by feeding her a rationalization for feeling better. The FI is also very careful to keep its operations covert. Too much too soon could blow its cover. But in its unending need to dominate, it also helps Sylvia set herself up for even more failure tomorrow by raising the bar even higher and increasing her fatigue and hunger through skipping her lunch break.
As stated previously, the main target for the FI is to break down ones personal integrity. It seems harmless enough to make a decision to set out to do something and then change ones mind. People around us do this all the time. So whats the big deal? True enough, some people should actually spend more time thinking about what they should do next rather than going off half cocked. But the actual act of deciding to do something and following through with it builds personal power. The FI must defeat this personal power grab whether the motives were well considered or not. It is easier to destroy personal integrity than to properly build it. Our personal integrity, or rather, impeccability, in Toltech terms, is connected with the will of our dreamer, or in Western Esoteric terms, our higher self. Acting in harmony with our dreamers designs strengthens our link with our own spiritual essence. Impeccability is the true path to freedom. There is so much more to this issue that cannot be dealt with in the scope of this writing. Nor would I be honest in pretending to have plumbed the full depths of the meaning and implications of this subject. I certainly am a neophyte when it comes to such. But I do have a deep intuitive sense of its importance.
Im encouraging members of this forum to contribute more life-like sketches inspired from observing the FI at work in their own lives and others they know.
Peace,
Toltechie
There have been a number of examples of the FIs modus operandi published on this forum that emphasize extreme behavior. While bold examples may be useful to start getting a handle on the FI, it is useful to note, in my opinion, that the daily actions of the FI are infinitely subtle. It applies an arsenal of covert tactics that seem harmless to us, even to the point of being invisible to most.
While Don Juan made the observation to Castaneda that the FI has a short attention span, I dont think this is entirely correct. The entity itself seems to me to have an enormous amount of patience as it systematically stalks its human host. It takes very gradual, minute and ultimately stealthy steps in playing the chess game of dominion over its subject. It does however go to great lengths in creating a lack of attention span in the subjects false mind as a strategy of subversion. The entity itself, on the other hand is very willing to bide its time as it gradually, consistently and methodically inches us closer to its long range designs.
Much of human behavior under the influence of the FI, which I have observed first hand in myself and others is routine and compulsive. The FI gradually nudges our perceptions, reactions and activities into grooves of repeating cycles, through subtle perversions of thought. Many things we do may seem to us completely harmless. We become familiar with a certain way of interfacing with our world, running our day, and motivating our way through life. When those of us who would be free, however, start to question our perceptions and look deeper into things, the irrelevancy of such habitual behavior becomes apparent. Compulsive behavior is at its core, irrational and reflexive. When we examine such and question our motives, we will inevitably see how we abandon reality and reason and cling blindly to what feels familiar. Putting us on such redundant tracks is a key strategy of the FI. Developing unproductive behavior furthers the predators control over its host. The familiar, which we have been led to feel a safe haven, is often just the opposite. The predator establishes its presence in us over time so that eventually its thoughts and emotions feel like an intimate part of us. After accumulating what are assumed to be a series of innocent acts, and are in reality submissive compliance with the FIs impulses, we end our days locked in routines that reinforce our despair, drain our energy, alienate us from reality and otherwise cause us to feel helplessness to change. Thus does entropy set in and our freedom erodes.
An illustration may help in better understanding this process.
Sylvias Evening - As Silvia, a single professional in her early 30s, drives on her daily commute home from a full-time job which she doesnt really love, but pays the bills, she makes plans for her evening which include activities to further her desired goals of meeting Mr. Right and making some more satisfying career changes. She decides that first thing when she gets home, she is going to change into her workout suit, turn on her favorite videotape for trimming buns and thighs and exercise. Then she plans tonights dinner menu according to the latest shape-up diet plan she is following. After dinner, she decides she is going to look at the website of her local community college to peruse the evening courses being offered this fall to see if she can find one which fits in with her schedule that will help her get a promotion in her department. While she is online on her computer, she might even check out that dating website her girlfriend so highly recommended because she has had so little time to meet the kind men she feels she could form a lasting relationship with. Then before bed, she will read some of that book she picked up last week on the art of good relationships, so she can better understand what went wrong with her last steady boyfriend, and so avoid repeating her mistakes in the future. Satisfied with her plans, she starts to feel very up beat and excited. As she gets closer to home, she congratulates herself for being decisive, disciplined and proactive in taking hold of her life and getting it out of the doldrums its been in lately.
When she arrives home, a vague feeling of tiredness sets in. Without even thinking about it, she collapses into her favorite easy chair in front of the television, while she thinks about where she left her workout cloths and where her exercise tape is. She looks at her VCR and sees that the tape inside indicator light is on. She remembers that she had set her recording timer to tape the latest episode of her favorite daytime soap opera. She picks up her remote to eject the tape to ready the VCR for her exercise video. Then she thinks that she might as well check to see if the recording came out ok. She turns on the TV with the remote, rewinds the tape and starts to play it back. Then, as the intro theme to her show plays, she remembers that she is very curious to see what happens next in the latest show plot. She watches it for a little while more. She then gets sucked in completely by the plot and decides, what the heck, shell unwind from work a little before she exercises and finish watching her show.
By the end of her show, she is feeling hungry. She decides, because its an hour later, to change supper plans to a frozen dinner she can pop in the oven, so that while its cooking, she can do her workout. When she opens the freezer to take out her dinner, she spies a brand new pint of her favorite ice cream. She tells herself that the ice cream will be her reward when she gets on the scale and confirms she has lost 15 pounds. She puts her dinner in the oven and sets the timer, congratulating herself for being so disciplined about the ice cream. She goes back to the room where her TV is still on. She locates her exercise video and puts it in the VCR. She turns on the evening news to listen to while she goes to her bedroom to change into her exercise cloths. When she is finished changing, she comes back to her TV. There is a very interesting story on the news headlines, the full details to be coming up shortly. After some commercials, one other headline story and some more commercials, her full news story comes up. Near the end of it, she hears the timer ding in the kitchen.
She takes her meal out to cool a bit. It smells good. She peels back the foil to make sure everything came out ok. It looks very appetizing. She goes back to the TV to start her workout. The weather is coming up next on the news and she wonders if the weekend will be good beach weather. She sits down in her chair and watches the TV. As she watches the weather, she starts to get very hungry. She can smell the food and she thinks that if she has a couple bites of it, maybe she can make the hunger pains subside so she can concentrate on her workout. Without thinking about it much, she brings the food into the TV room, where she usually eats when she is alone, sets it down and starts to eat. It turned out great and really tastes good. Besides, she is so hungry. She thinks that it will not taste as good later when it gets cold and that this kind of food doesnt re-heat well.
She takes some more bites and blankly stairs at the TV, which is still on. She starts to do what she always does, flipping channels to something interesting while she eats. As she tunes to an interesting show, she tells herself that she doesnt feel too full and can probably get away with finishing her meal and still exercise. By the end of her meal, her show isnt quite over yet and she is into the plot and wants to see how it ends, so she watches the rest of it. At the end of the show, she feels quite full and even more tired than before.
She decides to postpone the workout and do some of the other things she planned. Besides, she is all suited up and has her exercise tape ready, so it wont be any kind of effort at all to exercise later. She thinks about getting on her computer to check out classes and the dating website. Being full of food is making her feel even more tired. As she sits in her comfortable chair in front of the TV she realizes that she has been sitting in front of that damn computer at her job all day long doing boring, tedious work. A feeling of total aversion to getting in front of a computer yet again today overtakes her. Then she remembers that she also wanted to read her new book and that would be perfect to do while she digests her food. After that, she will be ready to exercise.
She turns off the TV, gets her book and sits back in her comfy chair to read. As she reads, which she often does just before bed to help fall asleep, she starts to feel very tired. Being full of food makes her even sleepier. She thinks maybe if she just gives into a little snooze in the chair, then she will feel refreshed and ready to exercise. She doses off for a while. During her nap, she has a bad dream about her ex-boyfriend in which he tells her that she has become fat and unattractive to him. She awakes from her nap very depressed and still tired. She thinks about exercising and realizes that she is so tired the idea of it has become totally unappealing to her. She starts to think about her dream and wonders if her relationship with her boyfriend started to go bad because he started to find her unattractive.
She gets up from her chair and starts to pace around the house while she thinks about her old relationship, comparing it with the few ideas she read about so far in the book she started. She finds herself in the kitchen and opens the fridge without even thinking. Next she looks in the freezer. She spies the ice cream. Then she thinks about how when shes depressed, like right now, ice cream seems to make her feel better. She tells herself that one bite wont hurt her waist at all. She opens the ice cream, grabs a spoon and starts eating it. While she eats, she paces around her apartment more and thinks more about her past relationship, feeling lonely and depressed. While she thinks, she unconsciously shovels more ice cream into her mouth.
She finds herself in the TV room and looks at her comfortable chair and sits down to eat more ice cream. TV noise reminds her of growing up with her family and she turns it back on in an attempt to chase away her growing feeling of loneliness. She watches another show. The ice cream tastes good and she keeps on eating it as a comfort for her depression. Suddenly she glances at the clock. Its late and reaching her bed time. She looks at the ice cream, its almost gone. Then she realizes that she is still dressed in her workout cloths. The thought of all her evening plans unfulfilled depresses her even more. She feels humiliated, sitting in her exercise outfit watching television with most of a new pint of ice cream demolished. With a feeling of total defeat, she finishes the ice cream as a last desperate grasp for comfort and wanders off to bed. As she changes out of her workout suit, and sorts out her work cloths for the morning, she promises herself that she will skip lunch tomorrow to make up for the ice cream, use that lunch break to look into classes, etc. on the computer at her desk and when she gets home, she will exercise twice as long as she intended to do tonight. Then she will put together a nutritious meal from scratch that fully complies with her new diet plan. Feeling better, she climbs into bed and calls it a night.
Here is an average person, not a serial killer, a sexual pervert nor a lunatic, but someone we can all relate to in one way or another. And yet I have indeed simplified and exaggerated her behavior a bit to make certain things easier to pick out. In true life, our own FI operates in infinitely subtler ways. Im offering in this example many levels for your own further analysis, but Ill elaborate on the main theme of her foreign installations motives for the evening: sabotage of personal integrity. Sylvia attempts to address her drive to make a difference in her life by taking advantage of her time off to improve herself. As she makes her plans, the FI nudges her to become a little too ambitious and set the bar very high. It causes her to forget to factor in fatigue from a full day at work, and dinnertime hunger.
When she gets home, her predator concentrates on gradually eroding her resolve through injecting impulses to perform small acts of her apparently harmless habits. It will cause her first to take a baby step in the wrong direction, and as she complies, increase her momentum through bolder steps. Any salesman or seduction artist will tell you that the key to the game is getting one to acquiesce to smaller yeses which lead up to the big yes goal in mind.
Another detail to note is the fact that the FI is not simply applying pure mental dialog to manipulate its subject but quite a number of different cues. It is important to realize that an entrenched FI can effect emotions, bodily sensations and dreams as well as thoughts. I also think it can cause its subject to unconsciously perform physical actions. The FI also fully exploits the social world of the subject, which is a collaboration of all such entities through the agency of their human hosts. Thus outside influences like TV are also exploited to wage its battle.
It is also important to observe that the FI is deadly serious about winning. Once it starts prevailing, it will give no quarter. Sylvias FI strives to defeat her completely in every detail of what she set out to do with her night. In the end, as she weakens, it strives to downgrade her self-image through thoughts and feelings of self-doubt about her past relationship. Once it opens a wound, like her insecurity about her figure, it tries to widen the gash into an exaggerated notion of being fat and therefore unattractive. It fixes the perceived condition by instilling feelings of hopelessness and helplessness to change, getting her to believe that she has no self-control about eating, or discipline for exercise. Her FI has also managed to mask the fact that she actually started her ice cream binges and gained a little extra weight after her breakup with her boyfriend as a reaction to the depression it caused. There is a good chance that Sylvias ex boyfriend didnt work out for reasons other than his physical attraction for her. Thus the FI is trying to put her on a totally unproductive track that is a very poor reflection of the realities involved in solving her long-term relationship problems. And if she manages to slim down and improve her physical attractiveness, and even start getting dates from a website, she will be bringing the same unchanged emotional and psychological baggage to the game. Her attractiveness will make her vulnerable to men who are secretly just looking for a good time rather than earnestly seeking a lasting relationship themselves.
Her career issues, briefly, are a product of her lazy streak. She gravitated to less challenging work as a consequence. The FI strives to throw its subject off balance. Freedom is gained through the poise and fluidity that come from balance. A predator will therefore try to exploit a personality trait by pushing it into a state of more acuteness. If one has a tendency to get cranky, his FI will try to turn that into fits of raging anger, etc. In Sylvias case, her FI sabotages her evening by exploiting her own weakness and thus chooses to amplify her laziness.
The FI finishes off the evenings work with an interesting maneuver that serves a dual purpose. First it anesthetizes the subject from feeling too much pain or desperation to keep her from being over motivated for change by feeding her a rationalization for feeling better. The FI is also very careful to keep its operations covert. Too much too soon could blow its cover. But in its unending need to dominate, it also helps Sylvia set herself up for even more failure tomorrow by raising the bar even higher and increasing her fatigue and hunger through skipping her lunch break.
As stated previously, the main target for the FI is to break down ones personal integrity. It seems harmless enough to make a decision to set out to do something and then change ones mind. People around us do this all the time. So whats the big deal? True enough, some people should actually spend more time thinking about what they should do next rather than going off half cocked. But the actual act of deciding to do something and following through with it builds personal power. The FI must defeat this personal power grab whether the motives were well considered or not. It is easier to destroy personal integrity than to properly build it. Our personal integrity, or rather, impeccability, in Toltech terms, is connected with the will of our dreamer, or in Western Esoteric terms, our higher self. Acting in harmony with our dreamers designs strengthens our link with our own spiritual essence. Impeccability is the true path to freedom. There is so much more to this issue that cannot be dealt with in the scope of this writing. Nor would I be honest in pretending to have plumbed the full depths of the meaning and implications of this subject. I certainly am a neophyte when it comes to such. But I do have a deep intuitive sense of its importance.
Im encouraging members of this forum to contribute more life-like sketches inspired from observing the FI at work in their own lives and others they know.
Peace,
Toltechie