01-18-2008, 12:00 AM
LW speaks about recognizing the Flyer inside.
Perhaps I have done that and I speak of my journey as I want to learn more and share with others.
Then again I don't know if this was in fact the Foreign Installation.
One time a long time ago I hiked down into the Grand Canyon and stayed overnight with some friends. I ended up getting high, when some hippies arrived with what was probably the planet's first crop of Sensimilla Bud.
I feel asleep but I awoke around 3 am and had a very strange experience. I felt I was being attacked by Black Bat-like creatures. They shadows were plastered to the walls of the canyon so to speak. They were quite large and two-dimensional. There was a very strange auditory experience as well. Like a kind of whistling that was unearthly.
"This cannot be real!", I kept thinking, it must be some kind of hallucination!
I was so freaked out that I abandoned all use of drugs. But for a long time after that I thought I had just had a very bad trip.
Of course, then I read about this early last year, and finally later, I remembered ...
Then later I began doing a lot of meditation, Vipassana and in 1983, I had just been to a talk by Krishnamurti in Ojai, CA and it shook something loose in me. I went on a long hike in the afternoon beside a stream.
I had this image of a dark black chasm or great divide, within my self.
It was as if one's self was divided or had a sort of tectonic division, a kind of well of suffering and fear.
I meditated on the nature of this Chasm with every fiber of my being. I affirmed within myself that this was a transitory and temporal thing and that it must change, must transform.
... almost immediately it began to change.
I had known of it's existence for a very long time, but
finally it manifested in my inner attention.
I felt that the two events though distant were somehow connected.
I do not know if I was struggling with the Foreign Installation, but subsequently I have felt freer innerly.
I think we all struggle in our own way with divisions within the self. They are illusory and the Self is whole.
But unless we recognize these divisions within our conscious mind, we at war with ourselves. The whole integrated self is a greater reality, or truth if you will.
The action of Greater Reality of the Real Self upon our illusory nature, is to heal the divisions or fractures in our psychological make up.
The actualization of the Whole is the true rebirth or creation of Something Other, we could call it Real Being. That is the real soul that we are forging from our false identity or ego and the real purpose of our life.
The actualized new Being is now (possibly) a Bodhisattva,
... who is free and here by choice and whose overall purpose is to remove suffering, by skillful means. At least if one is on a positive path.
Beings who See or are initiated in the way I have described are filled with Compassion for humanity and all life. That is the motivation for all of their actions from that moment forward.
I say this because if a person comes to the path and if their Intent and motives are out of line, they will only increase the suffering for themselves and others.
We don't do this for our personal gain.
Of course this was how it manifested for me, I think for other people, it takes whatever shape that conforms to their psychological makeup.
Gurjieff used to refer to the egoic structure as the formatory apparatus.
In Buddhism the formatory apparatus is referred to as aggregates of consciousness. These are always changing and rearranging themselves creating the notion of a permanent self.
In other words the average person is a sort of robot who imagines himself to be free and awake. But this is the daydream of the formatory apparatus.
An awake person sees the operation of the formatory apparatus and becomes quite familiar with it but does not identify with it.
When non-identification switches from one's formatory apparatus, to Being or Greater Reality, we have an interesting phenomenon. The person experiences their first real glimpse of Cosmic Awareness.
This is as they say in Zen, "the beginning of practice".
This stuff is hard to explain to people with little or no direct experience however, since they tend to assume they know, or have some idea. But really the only way to get it, is to pay the price of admission.
Quote:Magic Theatre. For Madmen Only! Price of Admission, Your Mind. Herman Hesse
Perhaps I have done that and I speak of my journey as I want to learn more and share with others.
Then again I don't know if this was in fact the Foreign Installation.
One time a long time ago I hiked down into the Grand Canyon and stayed overnight with some friends. I ended up getting high, when some hippies arrived with what was probably the planet's first crop of Sensimilla Bud.
I feel asleep but I awoke around 3 am and had a very strange experience. I felt I was being attacked by Black Bat-like creatures. They shadows were plastered to the walls of the canyon so to speak. They were quite large and two-dimensional. There was a very strange auditory experience as well. Like a kind of whistling that was unearthly.
"This cannot be real!", I kept thinking, it must be some kind of hallucination!
I was so freaked out that I abandoned all use of drugs. But for a long time after that I thought I had just had a very bad trip.
Of course, then I read about this early last year, and finally later, I remembered ...
Then later I began doing a lot of meditation, Vipassana and in 1983, I had just been to a talk by Krishnamurti in Ojai, CA and it shook something loose in me. I went on a long hike in the afternoon beside a stream.
I had this image of a dark black chasm or great divide, within my self.
It was as if one's self was divided or had a sort of tectonic division, a kind of well of suffering and fear.
I meditated on the nature of this Chasm with every fiber of my being. I affirmed within myself that this was a transitory and temporal thing and that it must change, must transform.
... almost immediately it began to change.
I had known of it's existence for a very long time, but
finally it manifested in my inner attention.
I felt that the two events though distant were somehow connected.
I do not know if I was struggling with the Foreign Installation, but subsequently I have felt freer innerly.
I think we all struggle in our own way with divisions within the self. They are illusory and the Self is whole.
But unless we recognize these divisions within our conscious mind, we at war with ourselves. The whole integrated self is a greater reality, or truth if you will.
The action of Greater Reality of the Real Self upon our illusory nature, is to heal the divisions or fractures in our psychological make up.
The actualization of the Whole is the true rebirth or creation of Something Other, we could call it Real Being. That is the real soul that we are forging from our false identity or ego and the real purpose of our life.
The actualized new Being is now (possibly) a Bodhisattva,
... who is free and here by choice and whose overall purpose is to remove suffering, by skillful means. At least if one is on a positive path.
Beings who See or are initiated in the way I have described are filled with Compassion for humanity and all life. That is the motivation for all of their actions from that moment forward.
I say this because if a person comes to the path and if their Intent and motives are out of line, they will only increase the suffering for themselves and others.
We don't do this for our personal gain.
Of course this was how it manifested for me, I think for other people, it takes whatever shape that conforms to their psychological makeup.
Gurjieff used to refer to the egoic structure as the formatory apparatus.
In Buddhism the formatory apparatus is referred to as aggregates of consciousness. These are always changing and rearranging themselves creating the notion of a permanent self.
In other words the average person is a sort of robot who imagines himself to be free and awake. But this is the daydream of the formatory apparatus.
An awake person sees the operation of the formatory apparatus and becomes quite familiar with it but does not identify with it.
When non-identification switches from one's formatory apparatus, to Being or Greater Reality, we have an interesting phenomenon. The person experiences their first real glimpse of Cosmic Awareness.
This is as they say in Zen, "the beginning of practice".
This stuff is hard to explain to people with little or no direct experience however, since they tend to assume they know, or have some idea. But really the only way to get it, is to pay the price of admission.
Quote:Magic Theatre. For Madmen Only! Price of Admission, Your Mind. Herman Hesse