01-26-2015, 12:00 AM
Littlepaw, I read what you said carefully, and I could only think of my words, "you are nothing if not important!" There are endless ways to make my words loopy. Think how many ways to interpret and turn the meaning of mine and your words.
I saw no problem in what you wrote. However, words are traps as well as grace. Moments and emotions are traps as well as grace too. Serloco is the truth because to be in grace is to be free of and with words he engages. AND AND AND by extension emotions, events, people, and moments of his life.
Your story tells me that words can hold you (helpful criticism). I had my story of words that held me when I came here, and serloco SAW by my words that I was 'doomed.' He drew away too.
Why was I doomed?--that I destroyed 'important relationships'? No, not at all. I was cracking from 'destructive self-dialogue and obsessing.' Words, and especially ideas from words are very powerful. With some sense of space (detachment), you'll SEE the 'stuff' serloco writes on this forum has EVERYTHING to do with being in grace. SEE "Serloco" is the truth because......."
At times you had to wonder if billy gives himself over to serloco as if he were God. Of course that is true. I can do that, because I have to believe that when I do. I learned how to learn by trusting myself to trust those that had awareness. Awareness is Godly. Serloco SEES my trust and allows me to absorb what I want. If I had doubts, serloco would SEE that, and not waste his time with me.
It is not so much about serloco as the trust in self. EXAMPLE: You take a pill for an ailment and it helps you. Does it matter if the pill was a placebo rather than medicinal? It did what you wanted it to. Words can be the same as those pills.
The obvious question is how do I believe to trust myself. I go where I am alone, even rejected in my own isolation. I have tried to negate myself and eventually trust finds me. I do not know how other people find trust, or if they do. Having a true heart is to have a lonely heart. I remembered myself and found emptiness. I literally became more myself- authentic.
Of course I don't believe one word of what I just said, unless I do
I saw no problem in what you wrote. However, words are traps as well as grace. Moments and emotions are traps as well as grace too. Serloco is the truth because to be in grace is to be free of and with words he engages. AND AND AND by extension emotions, events, people, and moments of his life.
Your story tells me that words can hold you (helpful criticism). I had my story of words that held me when I came here, and serloco SAW by my words that I was 'doomed.' He drew away too.
Why was I doomed?--that I destroyed 'important relationships'? No, not at all. I was cracking from 'destructive self-dialogue and obsessing.' Words, and especially ideas from words are very powerful. With some sense of space (detachment), you'll SEE the 'stuff' serloco writes on this forum has EVERYTHING to do with being in grace. SEE "Serloco" is the truth because......."
At times you had to wonder if billy gives himself over to serloco as if he were God. Of course that is true. I can do that, because I have to believe that when I do. I learned how to learn by trusting myself to trust those that had awareness. Awareness is Godly. Serloco SEES my trust and allows me to absorb what I want. If I had doubts, serloco would SEE that, and not waste his time with me.
It is not so much about serloco as the trust in self. EXAMPLE: You take a pill for an ailment and it helps you. Does it matter if the pill was a placebo rather than medicinal? It did what you wanted it to. Words can be the same as those pills.
The obvious question is how do I believe to trust myself. I go where I am alone, even rejected in my own isolation. I have tried to negate myself and eventually trust finds me. I do not know how other people find trust, or if they do. Having a true heart is to have a lonely heart. I remembered myself and found emptiness. I literally became more myself- authentic.
Of course I don't believe one word of what I just said, unless I do