01-28-2015, 12:00 AM
A cool story for you about that night. My wife swears I was not normal in the car driving there. My daughter and her boyfriend/love were in the back seat.
I had some drinks of course in the long cocktail hour in this luxuriously, extravagent setting. Our four was seated with my daughter's favorite aunt/husband & their daughter & son-in-law.
I was having flowing, effusive, engaging conversation all around when Susan began curbing me as she can be controlling. I brushed her off a little rudely and it snowballed to have me foolishly out of control.
But, I kept my ground anyway. I went from scenario to scenario, viewed from low esteem to very high esteem. I was a mirror. At times the worlds crossed. For example, I was about to share a mutual passion
with a very prestigious guy, and the niece's husband who had seen me as diminished, tried for a little power play and said EXACT words to turn the table on him. He was like a dog with tail beteween his legs and hardly said another word as I conversed for twenty minutes. When he did once, the guy I was speaking with practically ignored him.
Then a brother-in-law who had always postured a bit superior, joined. The guy was his son-in-law. I was still in conversation, but finished shortly on a high note ready to leave the table. My brother-in-law wanted to retain me, and I left him looking embarrassed of his own accord.
My daughter/boyfriend and wife in triangle were on the dance floor. I joined to cue my daughter to dance with me, which she refused. I walked straight away (purely my theatrics) insulted and huffy. My daughter came after (which in itself was amazing) and we had a full blown affair in an area full of staff, (wife and daughter's boyfriend were there, but thirty feet at bay) My daughter and I were spectacularily alone in OUR world.
My daughter cried and cried giving me her detestation. Went on fifteen minutes. I only kept smiling and chuckling under my breathe though this was an extremely intense mingling of hearts. (She finally just gave me a hug rather hysterically (she had not done this since ten years old). In that hug Derekh, you just cannot imagine the imprint. Yes, it contained a connection that was eternal.
Time has passed, and after her initial defenses, I SEE the slow melting away. Took 15 years for that to start happening.
You know, when I caught Susan unexpectedly with divorce papers for an attorney to review less than two years ago--(THIS WAS REAL) I told you how the rejection shocked my system, but that I did powerful detachment to acquiesce. Amazing how the dynamics turned abruptly. Susan did not know what happened, and she actually dragged me to a courthouse and she(we) filed for dissolution. (LEGAL is SERIOUS).
I knew it was too late. She had her chance earlier the first time. I held ALL the power now. We really are deeply in love as those things go. I have made her happy since, and the matters for which I chose extended controlled anger got completely resolved. I am ecstatic--living in heaven. Then came you Derekh.
I knew I was on an upward path (awareness) long ago. The general increase of energy is just stupendous beginning about three years ago when I achieved recapitulation through writing about my life experience and my own enlightenment. There is noticeable excelleration at this time. You just flat out me away, and yet no matter, I stay well enough within myself. OMG Thank you Derekh for opening ALL.
You have a friend. It is my nature now to be well grounded. When you go out as you speak of doing, know that you can always return to this point of your attention and I will help you any way I can. This is my intent.
I had some drinks of course in the long cocktail hour in this luxuriously, extravagent setting. Our four was seated with my daughter's favorite aunt/husband & their daughter & son-in-law.
I was having flowing, effusive, engaging conversation all around when Susan began curbing me as she can be controlling. I brushed her off a little rudely and it snowballed to have me foolishly out of control.
But, I kept my ground anyway. I went from scenario to scenario, viewed from low esteem to very high esteem. I was a mirror. At times the worlds crossed. For example, I was about to share a mutual passion
with a very prestigious guy, and the niece's husband who had seen me as diminished, tried for a little power play and said EXACT words to turn the table on him. He was like a dog with tail beteween his legs and hardly said another word as I conversed for twenty minutes. When he did once, the guy I was speaking with practically ignored him.
Then a brother-in-law who had always postured a bit superior, joined. The guy was his son-in-law. I was still in conversation, but finished shortly on a high note ready to leave the table. My brother-in-law wanted to retain me, and I left him looking embarrassed of his own accord.
My daughter/boyfriend and wife in triangle were on the dance floor. I joined to cue my daughter to dance with me, which she refused. I walked straight away (purely my theatrics) insulted and huffy. My daughter came after (which in itself was amazing) and we had a full blown affair in an area full of staff, (wife and daughter's boyfriend were there, but thirty feet at bay) My daughter and I were spectacularily alone in OUR world.
My daughter cried and cried giving me her detestation. Went on fifteen minutes. I only kept smiling and chuckling under my breathe though this was an extremely intense mingling of hearts. (She finally just gave me a hug rather hysterically (she had not done this since ten years old). In that hug Derekh, you just cannot imagine the imprint. Yes, it contained a connection that was eternal.
Time has passed, and after her initial defenses, I SEE the slow melting away. Took 15 years for that to start happening.
You know, when I caught Susan unexpectedly with divorce papers for an attorney to review less than two years ago--(THIS WAS REAL) I told you how the rejection shocked my system, but that I did powerful detachment to acquiesce. Amazing how the dynamics turned abruptly. Susan did not know what happened, and she actually dragged me to a courthouse and she(we) filed for dissolution. (LEGAL is SERIOUS).
I knew it was too late. She had her chance earlier the first time. I held ALL the power now. We really are deeply in love as those things go. I have made her happy since, and the matters for which I chose extended controlled anger got completely resolved. I am ecstatic--living in heaven. Then came you Derekh.
I knew I was on an upward path (awareness) long ago. The general increase of energy is just stupendous beginning about three years ago when I achieved recapitulation through writing about my life experience and my own enlightenment. There is noticeable excelleration at this time. You just flat out me away, and yet no matter, I stay well enough within myself. OMG Thank you Derekh for opening ALL.
You have a friend. It is my nature now to be well grounded. When you go out as you speak of doing, know that you can always return to this point of your attention and I will help you any way I can. This is my intent.