billy's basic detachment practice

[Billy]

I sought expansion (separation from rigid view). 

As is the way of serloco, he (she, it, whatever) unmistakeably intervened with the help I requested in post #170.  Thank you for 'Lucy' (movie). { shaking my head/smiling}

s, your presence is truly remarkable

[Billy]

I sought expansion (separation from rigid view). 

As is the way of serloco, he (she, it, whatever) unmistakeably intervened with the help I requested in post #170.  Thank you for 'Lucy' (movie). { shaking my head/smiling}

s, your presence is truly remarkable

[Billy]

This is an open letter (smile/yet sober):  {to be erased shortly--hope ya see it}

   s., the push I've made past boundaries in the last year brings me to want of offing some weightiness.  I do that here (smile).  I do love you so (for now).

  

     The racing will likely be off my table until spring {address needed}, so I will move energy to stretch my imagination some.  Watched Lucy 3 times already.  I never mean to be so casual as to disrespect your vision and power.  So please allow lenience there.  I KNOW your potential.

.. To knowledge

[Billy]

Please post.  I surely will curb my drivel then.

[Billy]

I sought expansion (separation from rigid view). 

As is the way of serloco, he (she, it, whatever) unmistakeably intervened with the help I requested in post #170.  Thank you for 'Lucy' (movie).

In 'Lucy' the question is asked whether the human species is more concerned with having than being.  Synchronicity involving this thought persisted.  Having is keenly associated with measurements of self identity.  Formally testing children in elementary school locks this in (as an example).  What we learn (knowledge) is connected to what we will have.  Reinforcement of this continues on thru to adulthood.
 
My issue is not to refute the potency of societal education; I simply point out that identity now directly corresponds to what we do and what we have.  Being alive gets overrun here. 

Doing and having of itself is not necessarily a conflict to a core sense of being.  I mean, I had rediscovered the equanimity of self without attachments, but was unsure that the focus on the core self wasn't compromised by extending THIS identity into an interactive world (havings and doings).  s showed me that it was possible so long as awareness of one's controlled folly (indifference) is understood.  I was originally only passive; now I am more active/creative.

   This has an existential relevance to experience that I will try to show here.

   So, if my identity is laden with having, and I have the inevitable moments of emptiness experience, I will be without resource > the sensation of meaninglessness is a drain > there is depression.  Of course, even without consciousness, this experience bears on the entirety of my life's experience.  However, this is not my experience.  I understand perfectly that doing and having are without beneficial relevance if not derived from the core sense of my self.  The core sense of myself is in the unfathomable emptiness itself, so that when I have the inevitable moments of emptiness experience, I am not drained whatsoever..  I am home.  There is well being; energy (sometimes restorative), a fullness of being alive without impediment.  That is I am freely being, I am authentic.

[Billy]

I saw something in my life's manner to pass on here. 

 I have been writing ideas as they are arising from the clutches of reality for years. I haven't 'arrived' and NEVER will.  "Phony, phony, phony" if giving the impression that there is
'having' or 'attaining'. Life does not work that way.

   I convey ideas as seeds.......   ...
   After reading me, DO YOU REALLY THINK I (you) COULD BE GIVEN SOMETHING ESSENTIAL?

   However, what I learned definitively is that any preconception of learning sorcery/enlightened knowledge as an occupation is misguided.  That is, rid this confusion that there is an iota of distance between everyday movements and enlightenment.  I did not always get this myself as cogently printed here; but, I did begin to recognize the activities of work, family, and successive goals were ALL about enlightenment.  That is, philosophy and sorcery were not something to be fulfilled.  No.  Conversely, I made IDEAS of philosophy and sorcery fill my everyday actions.  I succeeded in making it conscious work.
    Even when inundated with self-importance..   even when ragged and disjointed in lifestyle.. even when lost..  I trained myself to connect it to the living work of sorcery/enlightened knowledge/total integration. 

wholeness

   Irony here..  Suchness of wholeness resides in the entirely simple source > {A BLANK PAGE HERE (being)}

[Billy]

I DO resent being as of this writing moment (smiled at that)  I'm very impatient.  I'd like to tell everyone *** you (laughing)  I'll erase later

[Billy]

God-damn-it s, INFO please..

NOW! or for you- now (lol)

need to send something (If info is same I have it -just confirm)

[serloco]

something i learned awhile ago is that the nrmal first attention can be moved away from the habitual position and a new gradual expading of the first attention ca be maintaied. just intend your habitual position to move to a new habitual position. a thing to mention is that enlightennt can be found in anything but first you must intend it. one iece of knowledge is thaat the world is aware of you and sees you and iss very enlightened and can teach you things even in your daily world. it exists in your active attention, just pay aattetion to th world in a special way, look to see an emlightened world and begin to listen to the words and the see the visuals, and look to see lessons and enlightnent, teachings and help. when you activate your attention in this manner you begin t harnss your dreaming attention and shift into an enlightened world that exsts all around you. ust look within and pay attention to what is inside of you, in your awareness, your attention, and begin to listen to see the connection, the sychronicity, and the wworld will align and connect to you. ofcourse this position of aareess of active attention an becom hookd raather asily and so be sure to reconnct to habitual reality where vrything is not speakig to you and is mundane.

i have not had a chnce to read all your posts but jt a few ad this is what came up. good to see you gain.

[serloco]

there is no moment around you, outside of you existing yet. it is awaiting your inner attention so to align to the inner awareness you have of the world. your habitual attention aligns to the world, the nothingness that is not yet alligned. sure it i somthing. it is everything, and yet it is nothing. it is pure potential. it sees you billy. it knonws all you know and knows everything in existence. it ill speak to you too, in and through everything. all you need do to tart s voice your intent to see something, and learn something and the world will begin right then and there to begin showing you and moving you to where you have intended to be. thhat is the emptiness billy, it is the void where newness exists and is sprung forth.. everyone has a void of creativity within them where our life forms and aligns into form. often in shared societies we share the voids with others and unite our dreams together but alays is the choice to go it alone and have your own 'space'. just remember to come back once in a while cause other beings of life are worthwhile and have energy to gain from and learn from. indeed other people are very valuable creatures.. they spring forth life and energy, creative motion. not just void, form of our lives, our knowledge, of our awareness i form and in motion. letting go of our forms is crucial at times and ebracing the true maning of death, freedom and beginning again. a new slate, a tru emptiness.

[serloco]

do you have a fate billy? a destiny? do yo ave free will and choice.. these are the very crucial measurements of our life and our souls the fabruc of our existences.. time is laid out before you billy boy, all set out in stone before your creation began in one position of awareness and yet in another it is not yet formed and free, it is a void yo have not treaded before. now tell me how both are pssible? fate you say.

[serloco]

you are special billy.. very aware. you speak in time before i came and yet right now too. i have you i my gripss of times awarness billy. you are mine. muahahaha. st kidding i release you. speak as you will.

[serloco]

yes yuo are enslaved, but do not worry you are on the path of breaking free. i see the signs billy, written right in your being. go where you will. be gone an intend some free and new thoughts into your being if you will. one of the greatest things i have learned is the newness of creation, the potentil for us to create anew.

[serloco]

a long time ago i wanted to be free of erthy dessires and needs to eat. i hated the need to eat or die. nowadays i go days and days without eating or even thinking about it, and i can also eat and eat and eat and not get full. afer every course i am starvig again and fill my face again and agai utill i decide that this is insane and finally stop!

[serloco]

so yeah billy, dont be mad at me. i can intend and think on things right to you and then you speak of the words as you know. but do not fear your fate and do not fear me as a nagual.. my thoughts and awareness will not hold you for long and time will also release you once you egin to see the freedom it offers to us warriors. listen to it billy and ask it to set you on the path of freedom. freedom, what is it billy? you begin to see your enlaved existence and it can be frightening indeed i know, but billy it is but a pebble on the road to freedom one position of awareness of may possibilities.

[serloco]

ah but billy i must say.. people can not hold you no, ut you hld yourself at times. what i mean is yo uhave intent and have made goals for you and your world, for your play. and so now they move billy and you as you say are the director with the cues. yo have set many now billy, and so they are all moving to your intent and this holds you.. yes indeed it does but you can release yoursef and reassign roles and motion, you can let go of past intent too and reset your choices.

[serloco]

is not music so beautiful and amazing? oh my god..

[Billy]

I have referred to three mentors in my life (s most recent).  I used term mirror, because the word teacher has baggage.  Whatever, these three 'teachers' NEVER assumed formal standing (shaman, master, teacher, etc.).  They were friends.  Sharing/learning their knowlwdge had spontaneity derived from 'real' moments, situations, experiences.

   My focus here is to show what I did with the incoming knowledge with a clarifying context.  First, what I generally did not do >  I did not put the exchanges into a file that was about a remote future.  The important moment in learning was THAT absorbing moment.  It may have pertained to a future goal, but the primary impact concerned the believing, the knowing, the CAN DO-- was a recognition, an  investment and self-incorporation that happened as it happened (spiritual intonation here).

    So, if you happen to like some of my (anyone's) ideas, I recommend developing the aforementioned context for experiencing them.

[Billy]

This last to underscore that in a very certain sense, 'There is no future.'

If the eye is on tomorrow, you reap the meaning of the Shakespearean prose- "Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow creeps in... and all our yesterdays have lighted fools.. Signifying nothing."

Are you complete with life (k)now, or are you not?

[Billy]

This last to underscore that in a very certain sense, 'There is no future.'

If the eye is on tomorrow, you reap the meaning of the Shakespearean prose- "Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow creeps in... and all our yesterdays have lighted fools.. Signifying nothing."

Are you complete with life (k)now, or are you not?

[Billy]

Blah, blah, blah and a cockeyed wink.

[Billy]

I'm at my very best when there is nothing to protect.
     

     For the enlightening of the mind>   sinking {forfeiture of image}> yearning {want of negation}> conceding {re-admission of image state} waiting {merging worthless imagery with the empty still void}
  Here, whether inspite of yourself, without yourself, because of yourself, outside of yourself, etc. (makes no difference) >
THIS IS A HUMBLE and GRACEFUL GESTURE to the purity of one's existence that is full of uncoaxed GRATITUDE.  

........find this..

[Billy]

Hey, and do not weep and degenerate into the emotional stage after the first compunction of doing this.  Hold it long enough to observe, detach from it.  Repeat often.

Here, one is in the realm of heightened indifference and its powerful resource.  This is where I am able to compehend the workings of serloco's sorcery to some degree, and modestly apply them myself.

The experience of humbling the self to merge with one's sense of purity in emptiness becomes easier and easier to access; it broadens in scope so as to become a way.

[Billy]

Hey, and do not weep and degenerate into the emotional stage after the first compunction of doing this.  Hold it long enough to observe, detach from it.  Repeat often.

Here, one is in the realm of heightened indifference and its powerful resource.  This is where I am able to compehend the workings of serloco's sorcery to some degree, and modestly apply them myself.

The experience of humbling the self to merge with one's sense of purity in emptiness becomes easier and easier to access; it broadens in scope so as to become a way.

[serloco]

this is hat i meant to post here when i postd that last song billy.