Sharing Ideas

[Billy]

What I really would enjoy is having a decent cabernet from Bordeaux, or an Haut Medoc, if only to exchange the trippy stuff.  Sounds like you have a lot, as I do.

[Billy]

For others: I googled to this thread to remind myself of basics.  FLYERS > my remark that Castaneda & FLYERS was simpleton is complimentary.  It is difficult for an **** like me to detach from something if I don't  make it an easy to understand OBJECT.  I am drawn to share with beginners, because I am one.  DETACHMENT DETACHMENT 101 OKAY

I met a person who had awareness when I NONE.  He observed that I was not always present-- in fact that I was NEVER present---My mind was full of binding neurosis, garbage in the mind.  OKAY?

He lets me know it does not have to be that way.  That no matter what you do, or how much you have, there is no QUALITY of life if you are not really there taking care of yourself.   OKAY?

He convinced me that this made me a REAL **** (in a constructive way)  I was no one.  (little did I know--I was to learn I will always be no one--smiling and true-- but now I am having fun.)

You have a resentment , a problem, a depression whatever.  What is a mother to do?   (Most people ignore looking--- and of course they remain miserable until they die--- most people I know suffer a whole lot)

So this emotion, this resentment--I finally SEE I have it and don't need it--- AND just by that realization I am momentarily not miserable.  NOW A HEAVY one comes upon me.  What is this weight?  ENVY! 

I observe all the descriptions of what another person having my same envy does.  OH HE DOES WHAT I AM doing-- not breathing easy--I'm tight--hurt--telling myself I don't deserve this--it should be all different.

This making ENVY into an observable object is detachment.  It is up to you if you want to carry the object with you.  You decide if you want to keep being miserable.  Some people really don't care if they're this way.

If you don't like suffering--you do detachment when weighty misery hangs around--SEE that detachment helps.   If you pay attention-- you SEE it can make life fun.  You have energy stored to temper future ****.

You realize later that when not expecting it, emotions test you.  You learn to pause one second to remember detachment-this alone provides enough space to let the emotion play out while still having some control.

With experience, later ---the emotion cannot move forward with weight.  One day you'll look at the script of resentment in your mind and actually chuckle--because it tickles you. This is how it starts-- it is fun.

[serloco]

Oh yeah I have a lot of trippy stuff for sure. I also enjoy hearing other people's tales of power very much.

I have let go of my fears of dying and have self intended my death a few times. Once I was in a small town and had entered into a state of controlled folly. I could control every aspect of the people in my party house and was teaching them, as well as ring my control. I reached a point where I has found some astonishing secrets of reality, by simply intending body to flow, while letting go, and having the awareness flow into me. I saw and balanced all of life and death and reached a position of pointlessness. I lost all desire to live. I set my intent then to die and leave this world, knowing full well that i would. I set my attention ahead of me and decided to go to one of my favorite power places to do this, a small tourist town I adored and visited for camping in the wild every year or so. I felt so detached there and at total ease, while awaiting my death, which i did not plan the exact details for. It began raining as I was walking from my camp site into the town. I remembered that my allies

praised me greatly in the last town and stated that they were building me another statue in my honour in the next town. I did not yet know what the statue would be of. yet when I got there it was of a man stretching up into the sky, as if to fly, yet his legs were still on the ground. It depicted one of my feats where I can stretch into the sky, reaching over the tree tops, yet if I look down at the ground and see my feet are still there then they are, and I have not flown but merely stretched myself into the sly, expanding my legs. It';s pretty cool.

Anyways it was raining and a woman approached me, seeing me and knowing who I was, and offered to give me a roof over my head. I accepted her offer gladly and we began talking. She changed dramatically including her facial features and voice and began becomming different people I had known, different allies that i work with. She looked into me and repeated the words I had commanded about intending to die, and being here to die with a big smile on her face. "come with me she said" and so I did, seeing my death ahead of me. I won't go into all the details but she shifted m e out of the world and became a tenant or the tenant. She taught me the same shifts that were taught to Julian, becoming the form of a spider to engage in a strange sexual act that actually weaves new worlds from a unique female male relationship between us. She also taught me to become a female and she gave me many other positions of greatness. It was very alien a lot of the time, but very great and wonderful too. She hinted to me for conventional sex but I told her that she could transform her appearance again for me to become a young beautiful woman and she did. But not before she broke out in laughter and mocked me. To call her the tenant may be misleading because my ally can take any form throughout time including the essence of the tenant. I learned so many things with her that i can not tell them all without a lot of recollection. Perhaps one of the greatest things she gave me in that moment was the will to live and the vision to see purpose and wonder that is worth living for, and expands beyond our wildest dreams. Always getting better. She showed me that the position of don Juan's lineage to have no purpose for living and intending your own death was just a position of awareness in itself, and that i have intended that position onto myself and so entered into it exactly as they had. However she showed me how to find purpose, reason, desire and the will to live and so i did.

[serloco]

[Billy]

The first time I thought about the not dying concept was introduced by Della Van Nise.  Ironically, if quantumshaman who started this thread is not she, I believe she is also the 'quantumshaman.'

Serloco, this is interesting because you approach being with an idea of promoting life forward.  I have adopted the concept recently, that criticizes life ever existing in the first place.  Essentially, I say I don't want being--you say you do.  This brings an interesting observation to mind.

Unless you are disavowing any physics whatsoever, the evolutionary evidence is clear to me that every emotion is directly born of sex.  There is no thought, that when reduced hierarchically all the way back to its beginning, that is not of sex ATTRACTION AROUSAL APPROACH. (this includes grandma in a church pew doing/thinking whatever)  Yet, I saw a quote a few days ago by Oscar Wilde that reminds me of you.  He said, EVERYTHING in the world is about sex, except sex---sex is about power.

   Now cuteness aside, I love the evolution of ATTRACTION AROUSAL and SEXUAL APPROACH to be up close and personal.  AND THAT is the ONE thing I like most in life.  I want to die--but want sex.  You want to live forever, but don't have sex (presumably in exchange for power.)

   So, this brings me full circle.  I wrote a whole chapter of six long chapters in my book, explaining how NO ONE understands the socio-bio-physiological fundamental workings of shame.  ENERGY cannot be destroyed or created, but it can be transformed as you mentioned.  THIS IS OUR COMMON GROUND> why we will have something to talk about.

Guess what I am doing PLAYING around with shame and why I am doing it?   Get this people, when doing radio-biological measurements of energetic waves in emotions, shame is as close to death as an emotional state can get.  On a scale of 100, death 1, shame measures at 2, I think guilt jumps to 8, Pride to 18, love 40, serenity of the enlightened 70-100.  Now, serloco, have you ever heard of bose-einstein condesates in physics?
Albert Einstein saw that if reality could be frozen to a point near absolute 0 (not fahrenheit) it could be observed in a near immovable state.  This came to be realized, and even light and atomic particles can be stopped in a labratory.  It is said that because of this capacity, scientists will likely create computers within a decade or two, that will be millions times faster than today, on something the size of a pinhead, by training strands of genetic coding to act as the conductors.

   Reason has always been the name of the game for me as the basis to move forward as you yourself did.  So you probably should look past the superficial view you have concerning my concept as regards the use of shame as a medium.  Back to ENERGY ENERGY ENERGY ENERGY ENERGY, Shame being a freakishly low frequency state of ENERGY by scientific measurement should give uo pause to reconsider what I am saying.  Imagine the bose-einstein concept and transfer it to WHAT I AM DOING.  I am taking ENERGY ENERGY ENERGY in its lowest frequency state, OBJECTIFYING it, and then transforming it.  The sex was a bonus.

   I was (am) essentially dealing with atomic fission how you described in response to me earlier in appropriate analogy to ENERGY ENERGY ENERGY.  Do you understand that in evolution the numbers of successful progenitors are nil.  Do you know that ONE single female (of perhaps 10's of thousands of females existing at her time) is the single ancestor of ALL humans today?  SHAME Is born of the inadequacy to sexually create life going forward (which by root definition it is) and tells you what if there is only one person that succeeded?  EVERY ONE ELSE FAILED > THAT is awhole lot of fucking shame--Don't you think so?  Going even deeper into the phenomenological aspect, SHAME is that you are ALONE.  No other emotion has a physiological presence (A bio-component in the human body) whose entire focus centers on this awareness.  It is a FACT that shame is not learned, it is as much a part of the human body as the stomach.  You don't ignore the pangs of hunger, do you?  Yet society trained the individual to subdue the natural selection indicators of shame to activate the frontal lobe for its use.  In my book I allude to the obvious reasons concerning power and why this happened.

  Why was I the only freak who understood what I am saying.  Why do psychologists not uncover the roots and fix the misconception I state?  I explain this too.

   Of course serloco, you understand exactly why this can happen.

   I am just touching the surface of many concepts.  Let me tell you one thing I believed, because the empirical evidence was abundant.  I believed sex took too much ENERGY ENERGY ENERGY.  ONE of two things is true, where I am concerned.  I have discovered ENERGY TRANSFORMATION THAT I HAVE NOT TAKEN TO ANOTHER LEVEL AT THIS POINT BY LACK OF SEXUAL ABSTINENCE  (Believe me I understand the concept empirically as you do) or it does not matter.  I doubt I will find out in the short term, because GET THIS I was masturbating and clearly coming away with MORE ENERGY.  I'm sixty when I first messed around not knowing exactly what I was doing a couple years ago, and I wanted to SEE WTF!!!  I masturbated 8 times in an hour---THAT IS JUST NOT F***ing possible.  I'm ejaculating fluid without a hard on.  AND I am having stronger orgasms than the one before.  I am not depleted after the 8th time---I am oozing out ENERGY ENERGY ENERGY.  I'm not stupid---I'm not (now) fixated with having unlimited orgasms--I am fixated with the ENERGY.

   For those married, you know how set in ways a partner is.  I would blow your mind with changes in just that regard that have taken place.

   I really would like it if someone who has the rudimentary tools of awareness, to engage what I have written about, so I can learn what is the order of principles more clearly for others to follow.  I know what I have--I don't know exactly how it transfers to others.  Serloco, you are courageous, give it a try.  Truthfully you need no courage or great effort.  You need self trust is all.  I will try and be here to answer questions if you experiment and need guidance.

[Billy]

serloco the last post was written before I saw yours come up.  I am sixty one.  I had my first experience of SEEING the world 'stop' for lack of better phraseology at 13, but had no meaning to me.  In my senior year of college I had a 'zen awakening' where instantaneously my life had unwavering certitude for many months.  This was during the 70's and LSD was prevalent.  I was afraid of such stuff, but would try it a few times AFTER my satori.  Christ, I could write chapters on that.
   Serloco, I am in a dorm room in a party situation and someone have heard and seen the **** that was going on around me, says to everyone in jest that I was like Jesus and could multiply the fishes.  I out and out produced a fairly large fish and just about blew everyone's mind.  I mean come on, what are the odds that anyone is going to reference about another such a capacity?  NOW In that same MOMENT be able to pull out a fish from nowhere?

   NO ONE all of a sudden has access to a fairly large crappie in a dorm room, let alone that it is not even your own room.  Of course this is the beauty of reality---there are reasons even when the oucomes are unlikely.
What are the odds I pull out that fish,  One in a trillion?  
   It so happened my girlfriend visited campus, and left her purse in that room.  Inexplicably, she had been fishing, and wrapped a crappie, and left it in her large purse.  Only I knew that.

   So so much stuff like that happened then, it was like the norm.

[serloco]

Well Billy I have stopped the world regarding time, and history many many times. I can enter into alternate dimensions of humanity where history is different in every state. Drastically different. The past in formed right now in my awareness, and so when I have awareness of a specific form of evolution then i will look back into history and see my own awareness form the history in that position. I use many forms of time travel to do this and change many aspects of history all the time. I can focus into the future, find something new and unknown to me, and then look backward in time to place it into the past, so to make cohesive my new finding 10 years ago, grounding it into the present. NOW is where all time lies. You mention immobility, absolute zero, and there are different states of zero. The building block of reality, the foundation upon which reality is formed is unmovable, and yet moves, expands, in every direction, from the beginning of time to every point in time;s creation. This is an omnipresence, and omnipotency, that unites every moment in time into the same place, being that all time exists right now. Hence omnipresence. It is how the past can exist at the same time as the future, all pasts and all futures, time is infinite. When creation began it created everything at once, as well as destroying everything at once, collecting all points together all the time, eternally. This balance of creation, all creation being created, all ways and forms completed, as well as all ways and forms not being completed, failing, being destroyed etc, gives the balance of all and nothing. Nothing being the place where everything may be, as well as the absence of one thing giving the space for something else to exist in it's place. It is fullfilled potential, as well as unformed potential. It means anything and everything may be. 0 is empty, as well as being full of everything in creation, brought into the empty space of 0, filling it, making it active and inactive at the saem point in time. Leaving us with the choice, to be or not to be? It is the fission of creation, as well as the fusion or merging of all creation into the starting position, the alpha and the omega. the intent of infinity to create all things. Every action has an equal and opposite reaction, so that every reaction may be met and fullfilled. When one thing dies it releases the bonds of that form, freeing the locked potential so that another way may be seen and fullfilled. it is asymptotic. even through death infinity is reached, for every outcome of creation must be met, so that the totality of infinity be met, expanding forever, eternally, completing itself. The hard to grasp part of this is that all time is already completed, and happening right now. Every moment in time is added to the source, expands it's totality, and is happening frmo the source of which it began, creating every measure of time, every moment possible to create, infinity.

[serloco]

Your awareness of time forms the perceptual experiences you see. When you shift your knowledge and awareness of time then time flows into the new mold you have made for it. Same with evolution, instant evolution, etc etc etc. Reality is an illusion, albeit a persistent one- Einstein. I agrue that quote a little because even illusion is a perception that holds values that manifest into perceptual experience. But it gets the point across.

[serloco]

What are the chances of manifesting a fish??? Not as you say they are, atleast not for me and my people, and allies. I work very closely with manifestation in various forms of knowledge and ways, and conjuring many things, even incredible things beyond this world at times. Like I said I can conjure a future device and manifest it into the past even. Businesses etc, anything really. I am not a master but am well studied in the art.

[serloco]

indeed however you experience holds great power, and should not be dismissed at all. Synchronicity. But do not stop there, because you are limiting your power when you say the chances are one in a trillion, closing the door to future conjurings, or controlled conjuring through other people, and the values you assign to those people, reality etc.

[serloco]

When you discover the immobility of every moment in time, occurring right now, as well as being in motion from every and any point, you see infinite time. You can read a book and absorb all the knowledge within it, the exact realizations, thoughts, ideas, that made the book, translated into the words of the book. All the energy is within the book already. And yet when you read it, or absorb the awareness, you can also expand upon it, and send your own ideas to the author, through time, and have your own awareness manifest into the book. You can merge your consciousness with the author as they are writing the book, no matter how long ago they wrote it. Its amazing yes. You'd be amazed at what I have done through this technique. You can do it with any media, and any form of reality, and so not even need a physical medium to connect to the past, or future, all you need is your attention set in a way that sees time is happening right now. Then you can stream awareness form all the greatests in time, merge them into your awareness, and become a totality of masters within you. It is like having savants, genius', master all within you and your thought pathways become merge with their own.

[rosygyro]

i feel off a wall in the pitchblack once, was lucky enough to stay upright and miss the hidden kerb with my feet/toes so as not to break both my ankles.
i shuddered when i went back the next day to see the drop in the light, i wouldnt have jumped it in the light or on purpose.

i cannot understand how serloco has been shot in the head three different times and survived.

this other time i was nearly arested for eating valerian flowers.. but thats another story.

This is some crazy voodoo stuff man!

[serloco]

I died a few times. When I got shot in the head I ha d become a prophet and could predict and command the future. I got a lily crazy one night and foresaw my death. I comma dedicated it. I said all our that I would find a good girl and would like her but she would end up being bad a blow my brains out of my head. I told my death to sweep me away and place me in an alternate dimension where my spirit body would reform again into a physical vessel. I was in fact a 2d energy projection for a few hours. Once I awoke I transferred back into the first dimension. You must be very careful regarding the awareness of death. You must form this awareness very specifically. You tell death what to be and what to do. After the first death that is. The first death is freedom.

[rosygyro]

i was in portugal onetime..walking through a forest.it was planted forest probably 70 years old. could see down the lines of trees maybe half a mile.then a shot rang out.i felt myself shot by a sharpshooter.the next day i could not speak.

[serloco]

You say you are a death defier .. no sorry THE death defier. Or was it the TRUE death defier? As if the rest of us are fake ones. If that is so why don't you understand how one can survive being shot in the head? The real question is whAt do you intend to happen when, or if, you get shot in the head? The choice is there to say for yourself what would happen. I define the event in great detail controlling the form my death takes and where it takes me. I control what happens. I tell reality what death is. Oh sure i used to have different forms of death. These days I do not intend it except to serve me. Death is a definition to master.

[Billy]

It would be very wrong for me not to acknowledge you here publicly, serloco.  You understand full well that I have no delusions about persons' humanish, your humanish too.  I say so with no exaggeration, that you are far and away the best that sorcery has to offer.    What you are doing here on this forum provides rich and awesome sustenance to those who want awareness.  Your consistent and persistent insight for existential joy and desire are 

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I thank you sincerely.   Love, Billy

[serloco]

Right on right on. Thank you Billy. I see that much of my best positions you have been working from. It suits you nicely.

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