billy's basic detachment practice

[serloco]

Her name is Allie, like that? I do.

[Billy]

So had lots of natural, happy smiles for you s.

Aside from the sexual arena, showing unprecedented patience in other matters here would really help sharpening yourself.  And, be very nice (smile)

[Billy]

So had lots of natural, happy smiles for you s.

Aside from the sexual arena, showing unprecedented patience in other matters with her would really help sharpening.  And, be very nice to Ally Allie (smile)

[Billy]

Imagination, pretending, self-story telling, shifting attentions, dreaming, fantasy, etc are imperative to create the potential before the actual in the process of detachment.

I've done the link below twice already. The idea must be made empirical.  Parallel his self-reflective limitation with your own, to understand that conditioned preconceptions control the whole tenor of your doings.  To be aware is all that I speak of here.  It is a primary act of freedom to plant this idea deeply. 

I have a biological/psychological aversion to persons with disabilities.  So, if I could get it, then you can.

[Billy]

'love' is a preeety deep hole to go poking around in s.  SMH

[Billy]

Belle and Sebastian Lyrics Allie:

Allie, what would you do?
When there's bombs in the middle east, you want to hurt yourself
When there's knives in the city streets, you want to end yourself
When there's fun in your mother's house, you want to cry yourself to sleep

Allie, what would you do?
With your fears, because they're adding one by one
And your mountains are obscured behind the sun
And the person that you could be is crumbling into dust

You're in the mess 'cause you thought
You'd be someone else
'Cause the tricks in your head are a lie
Yeah, the tricks in your head are a lie
Yeah, the tricks in your head are a lie

Allie, hand on your head
And a prayer from the soon-to-be-closing library
And if you looked from here, you would surely see
There's a softness in your heart, there's a poetry to come

You bought that gun 'cause you thought
You'd be someone else
'Cause the tricks in your head are a lie
Yeah, the tricks in your head are a lie
Yeah, the tricks in your head are a lie
You made a list of all your heroes

And you thought about what they went through
Yeah, you thought about what they went through
It's much darker, much harder, than anything that happened to you
Allie, what would you do?

When your seven-year plan happens to someone else
And the people in your life you would happily shelf
When day falls night, you are truly on your own?
You're in this place 'cause you thought

You'd be someone else
But the tricks in your head are a lie
Yeah, the tricks in your head are a lie
Yeah, the tricks in your head are a lie..  {core. darkness, void, align. synchronicity, command, twin, parallel, non volitional, indifference, love}

[Billy]

Remember this one.. lol

billy playin' around.. time to leave you alone on this one (grinning)

[Billy]

Ya get the idea of deepening the rabbit hole (meant on so many levels-LAUGH).  Now it gets preeety cool when ya understand to defy conventional wisdom's death. 

s. you gonna surrender to Allie (for now)?  you going to be infatuated?  You going to die a thousand deaths BECAUSE of her?  Oh brother.  This sounds like fun.

Go for it!

[Billy]

Hey, if someone gets hurt here, it better be you..  not Allie.

[Billy]

I'm erasing all this, just so you know

[Billy]

I'm erasing all this, just so you know

[Billy]

Mornings Son: "I wonder if you identify the different APs you experience.."


I have thought about your comment everyday.  I now view it as something to learn about and answer later.  Obviously, if there is some knowledge you can share to help me identify, I truly want you to do so here and now (or when it suits you).  I think I could gain much value from your words on this at this time. 

much gratitude Mornings Son

[serloco]

I am going to treat her really good billy... really good. she has already agreed to spread her legs for me this weekend and let me go down on her.. she is really fit.. c-cup. sexy.. 0 experience. she ws scared of being fingered because she thought it might hurt her. i assured her i would only do things that please her. she tkes all her cues from me too, and even sked if having sex this weekend was too soon.. I told her we would see how it goes! lalala la la.

[Billy]

So again, before looking at detachment's created space, I want to understand that even that space is prone to a conditional return..  UNLESS I identify and uphold an awareness to 'overwrite' societal effect with the seed of unlimited possibility and non-judgement.  Unlimited possibility and the heretonow ordinary concept is incongruous.  Mental comportment must be reworked with conscious knowing of the space from detachment as idealized potential. 

This is NOT complex; it is a simple, indifferent sensation of one's own space as being 'unformed' rather than informed with previous anything.  This is like omniscience.  You know perfectly that there is nothing to know.  Being is actuality. 
   Personally, I like milking this experience by letting it be unflattering and 'exquisitely' hopeless.  I think serloco likes the omnipotence that unfettered existence avails. 

   I am lazy, and want minimal responsibility.

[Billy]

"Mental comportment must be reworked with conscious knowing of the space from detachment as idealized potential. 

This is NOT complex; it is a simple, indifferent sensation of one's own space as being 'unformed' rather than informed with previous anything."

The problem with isolated detachments is that they don't keep me in spatial indifference long enough for development.  Recapitulation fixes that.  I remember and indulge; I objectify and detach; I do this over and over  (this is what recap is; the contrast of indulging and then detaching is great detachment practice too).   My recap is extensive and permeating enough to hone and examine my own separation (space).  The discipline of focusing on details, reliving especially painful moments, and articulating strong connective feelings brings authenticity.

   As I SEE the benefits of recapitulation to reap energy and become freer, then this begets vigor in the process that seemed far-reaching at first as only an idea.  I become obsessed with the aspects of my life where recap obviously generates HUGE energy.  This energy has no lull, and is not temporary; there is no afterwards down at any time.

[Billy]

Recapitulation beckons the occupation of a more consuming detachment, a separation from ALL as a regular way.  This requires little effort because the massive reception of energy makes any purposeful activity a needed one.  Early on after effective recap, virtually every imaginable doing increases energy inflow.  It is freaky.  It is not nervous energy either; it is unadulterated pure energy.  I slept very little for several months, yet the mind/body is refreshed and healthy.

   I am not anywhere near those high states of energy now; and I am also a pro at being able to direct high energy flow when it visits now.  Even the energies in tension state are becoming a piece of cake to digest.
   I relate these auspicious billy states in the context of 'as compared to what billy experienced and how they were handled in the past.'

[Billy]

I am about done here tidying up detachment protocol.  The main thing is to draw to the vast empty space often to learn about and activate that as the source of peace, happiness, and creativity.
 

   thanks everyone who respected {and disrespected (LAUGHING)} my work.

love, billy

THE END

[Billy]

billy wrote:I am about done here tidying up detachment protocol.  The main thing is to draw to the vast empty space often to learn about and activate that as the source of peace, happiness, and creativity.
 

   thanks everyone who respected {and disrespected (LAUGHING)} my work.

love, billy

THE END

[Billy]

After more interactive forays in the last year (especially when I meditate), I find space in detachment to be 'dead.'  Emptiness is horrid and depressing, but it is 'real' and I have acquiesced to it.
I indulge tinges of self-pity and all sorts of poisons.  I smile a lot.



 Pay attention to an interaction where you lose composure terribly.  Catch yourself, and execute a very crisp detachment.  Alternating from the one extreme to equanimity should bring a concsious smile to your face. Laugh.. you could have remained a jerk.  Remember this well.




 Someday, you must have a similar interaction and remain a jerk. 


 SEE, it is not that you act one way or the other, it is that you are free in choosing.  This is controlled folly.


Will you live for me?

[find dharma girl]

I want to reflect that emptiness bearing quality of horrid and depressing was a transition in having gone 'outward.'  Eventually the gap between inward and outward closes, and emptiness becomes matter of fact as the potent creative void.

   Interestingly it is VERY personal.  This would be described as self/SELF love.  There are juices.

   I want to mention that recapitulation comes after the order of detachment at large.  That is, 'many painful conditions exist' is not the same as facing many painful conditions with maturity of detachment.
Once the latter is practice, THEN recap presents itself via an intriguing call.  Recapitulation that would still carry the burden of unremunerated experiential pain would be useless.  Recap must be irresistable occupation and fun of twisting pain into pleasure.

    Recap brings IMMENSE ENERGY.  It also reinforces that ordinary tonal pain can be twisted into pleasure.

[find dharma girl]

To 'face'..   ....The only way to gain her trust is to feed Her properly; making her independent, strong, and cultivating creative insight.  You and I are like two parents arguing over what's best for Her.

 There is no argument- I AM in control.  I had it pounded into my head for thirty years to be decisional, gain personal space via separation, to have a vision, and to get the job done---> to stay firm on my ground.

  I detach so that I AM aware of my responsibility.  I don't detach to escape.  I learned to be in the fire.. to BE FIRE MYSELF. 


   In earnest exchange I told you I won't promise to take care of you (not yet, anyway).  Yet, I AM taking another step with you, and giving you sun, water, love, and FIRE.  You are totally immature, and would walk all over my good intentions if I wasn't firmly grounded and decisive.  I understand what is going on here. 

   Meeting me will be a hugely positive move because I will SEE you and be with you as you are.. one moment at a time.  I AM fairly warned by you as to what to expect.  Believe me, I have been laying down the stone, the steel mesh, and the concrete.  When we meet, I'll know where to put footers and stabalizing reinforcements.  I intuitively call you my c*nt because that is what you know.  Later we can remove such props and begin to build.  Security of the walls and roof are a long ways off, but we have made some progress.

    Eventually the door will open in a year or so for your coming to me, and there is little alternative if there is to be a foundation.  You will possibly be afraid of being rejected, but that bears no logic in this affair.  You will come.  "We have one thing in common.  We love Her.  She requires sun, water, and love."  Yes, that.. and also reimbursement for her fare..  and not least of all---> Godiva.

[find dharma girl]

Make no mistake.. I AM not indulging the grand illusion of 'saving' you.  For my own reasons, I AM wanting to walk with you, love.

[Guest]