Casual Conversation

[Billy]

Do you know that it is the sharing of your depths in pain--of exploiting THAT, is what I very much appreciate.  Exploiting, yet doing so by knowing your own misery, your own nothingness.  SERIOUSLY!

[Billy]

I am not wanting you to share storytelling of pain (not that you should not tell me)--- I want to walk with you in the glorious path of believing moment to moment--what I am intending--that JEWEL.  Share your wisdom as you have; I will leave the space for us both--intending I may be so kind and sober (D).  I am touching my own heart.

[Billy]

Use discretion, but bring a little if it pleases you, so as to help form my words into doing.

[serloco]

For years I had learned of some special knowledge forms and used them everywhere I went. At first it was just a group connection in consciousness, the use of projection. I developed it though while seeing the link of consciousness between me, people, and the universe at large. I saw where consciousness was being generated, where life was being fed into us via our conscious attention. Where the thoughts form from. I began flooding my consciousness into other people then, as well as channeling other forms into me and others. It just so happened that then I was, in spirit, very angelic. Although the power and temptation to control people's will did get me in the end, but I learned, healed and moved on from that place and back into the light. Before that though I had learned to influence people greatly just with a couple quick thoughts directed into their bodies or attention. Indeed I was a walking telepath. I would answer problems everywhere they occurred, filling them with a positive solution, power, and enhanced awareness. I enjoyed the power then too, but loved helping people too. i admit I enjoyed knowing so much in order to be able to help people. Indeed. I stopped many fights, much abuse, etc just by thinking of love, feeling love inside of me, the want in me to follow and embrace love in all people and ways, and have my attention form in the best ways to any problem. I had built that energy form, and projected into people, my heart and spirit, and they would be moved every time. because the love in my heart was real, it was powerful, and so was my truth, what i knew. Even enemies and haters, evil beings, would all turn into the light and follow it in my presence then. It was not the evil they had grown to be, or the judgement of my heart of what evil is, it was the light in myself brought into them, as them, merged with them, that lit them up. Love is real and beautiful to all of life when it is present. It is genuine love that is a very powerful thing. Maybe the most powerful even. It forms allies in everything billy. Even a cockroach would come to your aid and wield power for you if you needed him to, so long as you shared your life with it, loved it, respected it, and allowed it to be as it wants to be. I have many allies in different things now, and they were formed i see through loving them. The best ones I mean. I even bless my concrete billy in many ways, and it sucks the pollution from the skies. I did it long ago first, before i learned to bless the skies, but now they even made concrete to absorb pollution in the sciences. yes i blessed my sciences too. In many ways. You have to. I've had vanilla scented automobiles when I blessed the cars. So many things billy I have blessed and changed in my world now. And on it goes too. My body learned to do this thing even, on it's own, and has done it a few times now. It seems that at times when I touch someone an incredible burst of love will flood into them from me, through contact. It actually strikes me as very strange when it happens. But the person is always left speechless, completely unable to voice anything at all even. It's very unearthly it seems to me, like it comes from elsewhere. WAIT!!!! I remember now!! hahaha! I love that and it is power too for me of course. I remember the exact thought while reading of an angelic ability or superpower, and I intended it onto myself. yes!! That's where it came from indeed. To fullfill my dreams. How lovely. There is this great watcher around us now billy, seeing our every decision, our every thought and wish, and He is a master puppeteer, able to command any reality into form, and answer any prayer. He has made me into everything I ever dreamed of. I know I have said it before but it is just so beyond my wildest fantasies that I never could of imagined all the things. Not to mention it is also how to feed your ally and yourself as you dream. Focus on the power, the ability, the joy and love, and the appreciation and glory, and speak the best. You bring it then to yourself. Your words need not a boost to gain momentum, you are moving now, and following now your way. Your words speak and set that way. If you want your words to have momentum then speak of momentum and stalk it closely, for then you will see it with your eyes and begin forming it with your body. Your attention's focus on the mission will bring it into being, into action. When a stalker looks closely with his attention he begins to see that he is beckoning time. Since awareness aligns to form perception right now, in the present moment, to speak of power brings power, immediately in the form your attention is focused on. Your attention beckons form. There are many forms cultivated of this attention, in different ways, one is made so that the simple focus of attention into the moments now advancing in his awareness, into the events as they are unfolding, beckons the attention into this things, merges attention into it's focus. Your attention is a gateway into whatever you peer into with it, and can be made to do incredible things. Just the thought of beckoning the spirit to enter into your life and teach you how to 'beckon doing' perfectly, as you imagine it to be done, and even better because it knows more then you, then you intend that directly into the event stream you are partaking in. This happens because you give the Spirit the form of power needed to be able to do this, thus you merely beckon that form of power into your now. It is there already though, many just haven't formed it in their attention, or not have looked for it. An ally is beckoned with their attention for the most part, but often with a knowledge(of the form) of the ally in their attention with it. Since the Spirit is unknown to us Billyboy, we can not control it persay but we may beckon and work with it. The awareness it passes into us, around us, etc we may know and experience and learn, but the Spirit itself is what brings us that unknown into formation. So that we may come to know it. It gives us our gifts, and forms them into being for us. A great Nagual may beckon the Spirit for a great lesson, among many, and intend the nature of the lesson itself so that it plays out perfectly, beyond himself and beyond all present. Then he jut lets go and allows the spirit to take over the moments preceeding. The man is a conduit of the spirit now, and he may not even know really what events will unfold until they do, and the Spirit will guide that moment perfectly as intended, and use everything available to it to do so. An unyielding intent may beckon the unknown mystery, while using it perfectly, even though he doesn't yet know the full course. A master of awareness will carefully craft his awareness of the unknown, so to use what he does know of it to his full advantage. Just because it is the unknown does not mean he must intend away all that he does know. What he knows about it can allow it to enter, or keep the doors locked tightly, the known can be very powerful and every gap sealed up tightly if desired. But an awareness that supports and trusts the unknown, that can work with it, and not against each other, is much more powerful in my opinion then a cup that never empties to have new drink experienced. So sorcerer's form allies with it, and use their tonals to control and guide and direct themselves into the nagual to reach freedom. By beckoning a certain form of the unknown, a certain intended experience with it, we bring that form of power into manifestation, and so we use what we do know, and can know, in the face of the unknown. The "spirit" is nothing more then a powerful and incredible ally that one crafts with their known awareness, or relationship within their attention.

[Billy]

There has been a run of unprecedented blue sky for my area.  Yesterday, I am looking out and see a tiny lone cloud.  I watch, and as is is out of view, another one appears.  Then one with unformed shape and larger (yet small), and a variety move across only ONE in view at a time.  AND, oddly they are move directly east to west which is a rarity in itself.  I start talking to the clouds, remembering that they have energy.  The largest and most solidly formed circular cloud is in front and I ask for its power and intend to use it--that the coldness my daughter has been conveying to my wife for a week is changed.  After about a minute the cloud reaches a tree top, and whereas I watched the others (much much smaller) pass to the side into view, this one seemed to linger a bit behind the green.   --and I realize as I ask from it, the cloud is dissipating and it does not appear again as when the others passed the tree.  I have never seen anything like that before in my life--though to be frank, I was not amazed.  Then the phone rings---it is my daughter calling my wife with a completely warm upbeat demeanor.   I don't think if Obama showed up  and inserted a flute up his rear end and played Dixie music would it surprise me--because that's how I am. 

Living in a moment of grace or spirit of a kindred spirit is a totally different thing--THAT is TASTY.  I SEE (GET) that from you (only the third individual in a lifetime who could meaningfully relate to me---One, a very very aware black man, spoke words of meaning well-timed.  We were watching Saving Private Ryan at a theatre and there was an intermission, and a Jewel Kilcher song was played (not sure if it was on the screen), and he stated one word--Jewel as if it were to mean something.  I drew a complete blank, which is not the way it worked.  You brought Jewel to light, and it did not connect at first.

   I have been tightening my self {especially by abstaining from sexual play (which normally is a major, if not sometimes impossible undertaking)} --and I came to a point where the 'spiritual' concept of once handing over a Jewel as a commitment to GOD (A PATH), it is in bad faith to think that you keep recommitting as if to keep handing over the same Jewel again and again (That is, one finally has to realize it is good enough to have chosen the FIRST time.  {This is similar to the analogy given, that once on a journey to a specific destination, it is not necessary to tell one's self you are going there.  You KNOW--and now you eat, see, rest, experience without need of reminder, but without losing the essence of doing what you INTEND. 

   I AM doing PEACE AND JOY on my way to nothing--feeding like a pig on whatever is in front INCLUDING the pain.  We are capable of having compassion and much much more I do believe (D).

   Should I not be able to pay the commensurate price--I will suffer anyway.  This is part of what you want to teach me?  AND...

[Billy]

My last post was written before I saw yours.

[serloco]

The nagual used to laugh at me sometimes, because together we would create these precious things, gems of awareness and knowledge, and be rich in spirit. I would be standing in the tonal, strong, confident, and holding my trophies of power and then the nagual would appear and I would drop every one of them to the ground, as if they were no longer anything at all. eventually I found a balance and a trusting relationship between life and death. I learned to cross over and retain activity, even resurrect it again. I found the power of my independance, the power of my life, my command, even over and through death. I weeded my garden and found no more seeds of that kind planted.

[serloco]

No, my teachings will never tell you that you must suffer. My teachings will lead you beyond suffering and into freedom. The bars that try to hold you will be crushed and torn away and rendered useless. My life would render your enemies to be your own pawns and set the spirit to victor's course. Must you suffer? That is for you to decide. You must give the power to suffer or to not do so. Every path may be reached, set, intended.

[serloco]

billy wrote:once on a journey to a specific destination, it is not necessary to tell one's self you are going there.  You KNOW--and now you eat, see, rest, experience without need of reminder, but without losing the essence of doing what you INTEND. 

  
That's quite nice there. It reminds me of one of the intents i set long ago when learning to stalk and hunt for power. I learned to have reality show me my intent when it manifested. So I could see it's essence in reality as reality unfolded. It built for me a position to see manifest my commands, and the essence of my intent manifest in form. Made me see it directly that I did that and how. Usually I always can see how my intent is set just by seeing reality unfold. The angel touch did not surface in my awareness as my own intent though because it was before i had developed ths position of awareness or knowledge. yet when I looked to see about it's origin it showed me my exact thought and moment of reading the book. Quite cool.

[Billy]

Your post #254 should be ample enough for me, but I do move slowly.  I never listened to anyone in my life with the exception of three (you the third).  I trust my judgement to take every word you say as important, as I did the previous two in matters of awareness.

   The fact that I really did unecessarily terribly f*** up a lot with my daughter and wife in one night is impinging.  WOW! 

   I only surmise that I never could have handled this before, but my states of mind are incongruously colliding.  I could come out the 'better' for it, or be eaten alive.  The foreign installations in this respect are fully in play.

  Make everything a choice is able to hold some sway-- However, every person manifestation existing right now is persistently telling me I have f***ed up irrevocably.  I have equal persistence, but JESUS, I am REALLY 'forced' into make everyThing a choice mode for sanity and survival.  I am not so stupid, as to realize I NEED your guidance.

[Billy]

How ironic, that I meant 'not' before NEED, yet either way was truthful when using words.  Of course 'I don't need or not need' anything as you know.  Let me know if you ever want my point of view--(smiling).

[serloco]

yeah my exact intent in regards to your moment of regret with your peeps is that i would not interfere and allow only what your own energies to manifest. I do not know them, nor your situation, and so would not intend anything directly into your life without being very wise before-hand. In this case I did nothing. I do not know what took place and or what your awareness position was that transpired into the events of your regret. I did however see your energies of doom before it took place I am sad to say. Only for a moment when I had the choice to interfere then did not, then and right then I saw your doom. Just the forecasted energy and not the events within it. Before that moment I had only the unknown judgement formed of your fore-coming events. I didn't even mean to peer in but my energy body opened the channel and saw your future. You had already left and I didn't think to open a channel to warn you, or to interfere in some way as I have done in many past peerings. I hadn't done it like that in a while. It's near the same ass using someone direction of words that point to place and time that they will be has within it that connection to their future and all the energies within it, making it what it will be. Advanced scrying techniques and government experiments have proven that information can be sent back in time, from the future. I knew that already though and do it sometimes. Into the future too i do it, but my sciences have not fully proven it yet. Only that you can see into the future have they proven by seeing things that no-one has saw yet before it was revieled. I do it very often. In different ways. Can even send people, my allies, back into time, in different forms too, in different ways. Tooo powerful for most to comprehend even. Yet. But yeah i did NOT interfere at all in your event yet saw the energy present beforehand. I did not command it to be future either when I saw it and intended that neither manifest but from your own will if it is so. I totally negated myself from what I saw by removing all intent from my own energies into your life. Which I can easily do and command and did so then. If you want to explore it more then do tell the details, the state of your mind etc.. point to it for me... i saw some but only little which you confirmed basically already..

[serloco]

Yes my words are important. They hold an awareness that can attain any dream ever wanted to achieve so far. The dreams of others, for others, and for myself too. In many of my words are the keys to the universe itself and what I have found with them so far. Hundreds of positions of awareness, great awareness too. I'm no tenant that's for sure but i know a few things. Now I feel so small again, humble and weak. Yet here we learn from what is greater. What if our greatness is all an illusion that shatters and you find yourself once a genius among genius', now a **** in a world way beyond your intellect? Just a judgement that you sowed into your reality, what reality is, how smart people are etc? All an illusion with the potential to reach infinite heights! Will you stalk that importance in my words now, or will you let them go and cling? Are the people's words around you lowly and small and weak or are they reflections of the awareness and the knowledge, the judgements you have made of them in which you intend and will into alignment? Ohhh yes allies have a hay day with this one billy. They see into you and what you think of them and often do you know what they do, they tell you exactly what you should get. If you are seeking a good way though they will help you, yup the ones who are dumb and not worth listening to. As soon as you think maybe they ARE worth listening to you should hear the knowledge and things that begin coming out of their lips THEN. And only then. A form of forgiveness too even it is. You energies billy are running form you into infinity and aligning to for your reality right now, when you think people suck or are this way and that way then they are because you make it reality, you make it real. You et those seeds of energy and current into motion with your awareness, your knowledge, and your intent and will. Some people do not yet ee what intent and will is. Oh boy when they do!!! I love it man!!! If you think for a second inside of you that people have nothing good to say to you, then you have cirsed a hand that could have been feeding you sweet goodness. If you have that form of knowledge then you intend that form of knowledge, you will with your life' activity that form of reaction. The communication you intend is the communication you receive. Oh yes the allies I work with are everywhere billy. In the everyday earth i walk in. They all see clearly too. Powerful and magical, for me. They can tell me all about anything too, or just about my own awareness and make that real. Teach me anything. Even a homeless guy on the street. They are allies. The ones who make my dreams come true billy is the world around me now. It inside of the world around me, and it is everything. When i first worked with allies i did not reach my every dream come true but worked with them and listened to them closely for awhile. I learned to see energy from them, and many things. But when I approached a man who was a dumbass to me in my awareness then the ally casts that role and my curse had cursed us both. he could have been my saviour in truth. But I had to work to get there to clear my eyes of the garbage in them so to see the paradise hidden in my own backyard. Clean my own judgements in the light of my own willfull alignment. Even the trash on the street holds only the power you have given it to be, and who can blame them, and who is to blame billy? It is your life your seek and it is given to you, it is up to you what to look for, what to make of it, heaven or hell. It is everything and nothing billy, both and everything. Truest of trues it is. Its your best friend and dream come true, your worst nightmare lived real, or it is just a piece of trash on the side of the road. If you want to learn that way I set then you must seek it, begin to see your own awareness within reality. You must learn to master and shift your current judgements to see the current move to your own energies. Then your enemy before you stands not against you but in a new light, not to harm you, but to save you or to open your eyes. Only then will it shift and become real. When your enemy stands before you look to see your own energies within him, and you will see that your intent and your knowledge and your judgement has brought them here, and is thus doing what your life commands it to do. If you can do this then you can master your death. Your death will show you how to release your judgements that have formed into reality, and death is the one you should be asking anyways. It is this energy that can suspend one form that then flows into another one. If you can not then your death will overcome you because you clinged on to your old life, your old values of death and judgements that brought him to you, that fuels it's existence. When he faces you you will see if you look that you have made this appointment yourself, and if you can you can change it or reset it there. A mistake you had made before. But you will be using death to cancel your death, which is to say to end the life that brought you death. Master both life and death. Learn to see judgements and form, knowledge and form, awareness and form, and see the alignment, the synchronicity. It will speak to you if you watch it/them. But do not be surprised if the world answers crudely after you call it a bunch of nasty names if you do so. And people around you included. Not saying that this is what happened or why, just commenting about people and your conment about not listening to anyone. I can relate there completely, been there for many tears in some positions, and even still. But my words hold true, even in the lows one can align the light to shine in any moment just by swingling your own intent, your own awareness, and your own knwoeldge into the picture, the alignment. My solutions to your comment that i have stalked within myself. For my power and for yours.

[serloco]

If you read my experience of how the people with flaashlights in the woods turned into fireworks, then into flying glowing orbs, then into different ones, then into alien sounds and forms, then came at me, then you will see that people are trully a mystery when you seek them to be a mystery. What caused that demonstration in my post i did not fully say but i remember the exact shift. It was this "People are not people yet until they are here, and the moment moving now is fluid and can be anything, from one moment to the next even many different things. the initial judgement that they are people makes that experience fit that mold of awareness and knowledge and yet i can guide my thoughts, my attention and guide the formation." exact. then it happened as I shifted my own awareness onto the people wielding flashlights. if you set it up, as i did then, to ride your attention or your awareness or your judgements then that is what you experience. Why? Because it is the awareness you have of reality that makes reality what it is. and that awareness CAN and does shift. it is infinite. truly......

[serloco]

See for yourself, your reality forms to what you know of it, and the judgements you make of it. It's natural. What you think reality i you will see it as, in that form, that light. If you look to see in yourself you can see your intent of reality. It is formed of many forms of knowledge and of experiences too. All awareness. All intent and will. Yet your life sustains them all, you do it all the time in your continuity, another judgement. The continuity of our life's forms, and expectations developed and thus intended routinely. It is our awareness that we sustain of reality, these judgements and these forms of knowledge, forms of life. Yet we do not need them all, and not all of the time either. We can make them inactive if we want. Form them ourselves if we want. We can see the activity in our life in the moment now occurring and we can also see our guidance of it's motion and activation, acceptance and allowance, choice. We can see the consequences of any form of knowledge if we look closely and see what manifests as a result. It is all right there in front of us, but we didn;t know in the past we could choose knowledge, create knowledge, intend special forms of knowledge, judgements etc. We are learning now though. How to sow our own seeds in the active field of now. Where the spark of all life lives. We were taught only to accept what they told us was true and nothing else was real or would grow. That we had no choice. That was the seed they sowed for us then, the food they gave us then. So any dreams we had, or powers we sought would all be planted in a dead soil if we planted and nourished their fruits. Instead i took to gardening and to weeding out nasty pests that try to drown out all the light for other varieties. So only one plant can grow and a poisonous one at that. no thanks. weed killer for me.

[serloco]

I remember the tree of knowledge on earth was severely cursed for a long age. And all good knowledge was buried or hidden, kept secret. All the fruit the grew of the earth was all infested and rotten for ages on end, and it was all there was to eat. Ages and ages of starvation, deprivation, and endless death and no saviour was to be found for them. not there at least at that time. No all of it was cursed and forgotten was what knowledge really was even. All had forgotten it's power, and their eyes were made blind to life. One day a prophet had awakened, of a spiritual sort with many blessings upon him of heavenly descent and origin. Many of the ancient texts had spoken of such gifts and powers but none had been reported officially for ages. Thought to be myth and legend only. Yet he came with the knowledge of these ways, and with eyes that could see, and open other eyes in doing so. No longer pointing to the evil in the world he began pointing to it's mystery and to it's wonder, and to it's hidden secrets that he had found from fasting away from all contact with their world and it's knowledge. True fasting btw. "I don't eat, I fast." get it? old chinese expression. being rid and cleansed of his worldly knowledge he had gained in his life on the earth he had removed it's poison from himself. No longer slow, blind, and poisoned he could move freely as he chose to. Many mocked his prophecies and predictions but all clearly saw his demonstrations which were astounding. Some listened to him, many in fact did. he touched many lives and healed millions of people of many diseases and disorders. Both then and in the future too. His predictions are still being met now, still unfolding just as he said they would too. I watched him die, just as he said he would die, in the exact way he predicted. He also said he would come back and he did too. He cursed the knowledge of the world and then he blessed it again. Commanded the knowledge of the world to show his teachings were true, reveal the light and free the people. and i see it happening. Ever since he blessed the fruit of our knowledge again it has begun to grow healing fruit again, light of awareness and truth, power and magic. Releasing old curses and freeing energy into health and wellbeing, freedom, and i see it;s future course because of those days. A legacy. that's what started it all because the prophet went out to die, and God asked him what he wanted his legacy to be? It bothered him greatly and so he went on a final mission in the life he held then, and did what he did. A single man changing the face of earth, it's future, and even it's history too. He did it all with no glory too, and even though all saw and knew of him they gave him no glory nor credit for these things. because he commanded that none be given to him, just the power and the way to be met is all he wanted. no recognition even he got after that decision was made. It was his statement against greed and lust and capitalism. Signifying for him that he wanted the result of his actions and not the recognition and greatness of them. It left however greedy men getting rich from his inventions and innovations. Even though the way had been set he knew all of this all along, and forsaw it all even to them, telling them what would happen. He walked them all through it, all it's players, and the destination is worth the road taken to get there.

[Billy]

I don't eat.  I fast.  I cerebrally say that was the most poignant thing yo have ever told me.  Still, I GOTS to know who is the prophet you speak of that changed what you say?

[Billy]

Now, as to whether I let 'poisonous allies' have a hayday?   However, how can I if I refuse to eat.  OH DEAR GOD-- I WILL FAST  PLEASE GOD-- Don't let me eat anymore of that ****!  Push me into the NAGUAL D.

[serloco]

yes yes, you liked them no?? the band? I like them too. They answered your question best I can for now. If you have read some of my posting and knowledge and some of my stories of great sorcerers then you can see the answer in this song. It sings of your question as to who it is who was the prophet. It is a big mystery indeed.

Umphrey's McGee - Never Cease Lyrics

The case flies open on a new set of work
A hundred and eighty degree turn
The point of caution and fundamentally flirt
With yesterday

Your picture's in the paper
On a seven year [Incomprehensible]
On a holiday on a Sunday
There's now a day, by the way I'm faded anyway

You never cease to amaze me
Talking like someone
Just turned you around and how
My instinct goes on and on and on

[Incomprehensible] in mustache and a box full of secrets
The string's are secure
I spent three years waiting for the time I was wanting
And the light in my head turned off

The mirror, it shattered and the plot, it thickened
On a holiday on a Sunday
There's now a day
By the way I'm faded anyway

You never cease to amaze me
Talking like someone
Just turned you around and how
My instinct goes on and on and on

In a round about way of the mount if contested
In the doorway, in the hallways
Is a simple borrowed question from the facts that it derives
The house was built on sand

The changes keep on thinking
And it keeps among their toes
In the hallway, in the doorway

You never cease to amaze me
Talking like someone
Just turned you around and how

[Billy]

The Umphrey McGee music i listened to was cool (good stuff).

   My question was simple enough--  even to a world of Naugal (or NOW).   The grounding is understandable by one word in the world i assume. {EVEN if only 'to be lost' as the only understanding of a given moment, or a given infinity (AND perhaps one and the same, or NOT--(as with a quantum realm beyond me)} i ask for the single descriptor.  Well D?

The two 'teachers' prior were never cloaked when in matters concerning awareness.  I don't see that here.  I don't know if my book was any good-- i was hoping you would give me critique in the tonal in case I ever rewrote some of it.  I do not believe in gods and devils-- though I settle for the word GOD if it opens 'understanding' for others (OF COURSE the 'understanding' of not knowing a f***ing thing).

I had it in the glossary:   

GOD-  everything, and I mean EVERYTHING energy--there is no conception not energy

I usually just use the word energy where it concerns me.  Though it would not surprise me if reducible scientifically (and differently).  I only have a mild interest compared to you as I said earlier in physics.

So as not to be ambiguous, Who is your notable prophet?

[Billy]

As to someone possibly following this thread (AND-- I am laughing about that), one point of clarity.  I f***ed up (as humans are want to do) and alienated my wife and daughter.  Serloco admirably noted that it is the females "hearts" one would want to win over, and most certainly that would be most true of one's wife and daughter.

Serloco and I have great affinity, and in the issue mentioned--it matters in so much so that I hold (win) my wife and daughter deeply and dearly in my heart BEYOND challenging manifestations.  I do recommend to others to mine (or is it mind?) the wisdom of serloco.  Fabulous really.

[serloco]

Yes the prophet is indeed cloaked. Masked. A very powerful spell is woven upon his body. He goes now where he pleases, in the full light of day is left unseen. Hiding while in plain sight. It is a complete paradox really, but I can see the weave. Kinda crazy but he was once close to a King, very powerful, a Lord really. The prophet had aided this Kingdom greatly and the King had granted him many wishes. One of them was to be trained in different arts of magic and power because the prophet knew the King had great and powerful sorcery beyond his reaches. The prophet had already given the King some of his own art and magic that was not known to them prior and were delighted. The King agreed and began having his greatest magic teachers teach him many things. The prophet became very mighty and powerful, well known in those lands. People who did not even know him would often drop everything and follow in his steps behind him, because they all see him. He became a great seeker of the land and people boasted that he could find any secret any mystery or any power unknown and form it into the land. The people called him by many names because he was able to totally alter his nature in any way he needed it to be. Yet they could all see him, and all would follow him, and very seldom did he find himself alone. Just thinking to himself about something he thought wrong could incite a riot in the lands. Thinking about a powerful martial art he had learned could have people in the streets destroying each other's bodies. He could do great things too with his light, and did, but the connection and the glory and the fame had weighed heavy on him. he lost his idea of what privacy is. What it felt like to be alone. His knowledge and awareness did not allow it, eyes could always see and were always watching him, and through these eyes he could do many things. He had a supernatural presence. People could not be in his presence and not see him, nor be able to resist his power. He tried to hide and to shield but they would always find him and always see him. Always talk about him and his secrets too. Always want him to do things too. he wanted to go back to the way things were before. Well he found a way too. He found a spell woven from the creator of eyes that hide him from sight, even in the full presence of people who knew him. Very powerful and very magical, he could also take it off and reveal himself. Much like a nagual can disappear from the tonal completely. He had found the 'nature' that he needed to be and did not want again the spotlight upon him, unless he wanted to go out dancing. You would think the creator would have to effect everyone else's eyes to do this feat but no, he only had to effect the prophet's eyes. To turn his head to a new position. I remember when i first met him he was angry at the town he was in and the store folk. he stood in a house with me and sent his double into the street and shattered the windows and pop machines in the streets. All from a crouched position and in a couple of seconds. he showed me his work the next day when we went out to hunt for power. He is the one who taught me to spell. He showed me how to break things from afar too, how to shake people with my attention and grab them, spirits too. When he taught me we sat outside and had me listen to sounds around me very closely for a long time to every sound. Then he told me if i paid attention to them i would begin to hear them just before they happened in my attention. After a short while i did so. He told me to focus on the memory in my attention as it happens, so that when i hear the pre-click or snap, before it happens, to see the space between them. Between the pre-sound and sound. I had already been doing this to confirm that was indeed hearing them before they happened. he had me enter into this state for a week or more so i would develop it and use it in my world. It became well grounded so that when i walked in the night i could avoid a pot hole because i could see it right before it happened. Quite magical. The beginnings of a prophetic mind. Or one state of it so I found later. Much better ones too I would find. So next he told me to pay attention in the silence and then to focus to hear sound appear. he told me that when your attention seeks silence it will find it and not focus to the sound, but when you focus to hear the sound you will begin to hear it align. So i did it and found it ok. Nothing so great though. Next he said he wanted me to sit in the night in the woods or somewhere near the trees where there is potential noises to hear. He told me to begin listening to the sounds again, every one of them, and begin anticipating them. he sat with me then and when i began doing it well enough he aid to me "now imagine that your attention is creating the sounds. Intending them to form to your attention, before they happen, just like you hear them before they happen now, but now imagine that your attention's focus is aligning to the sounds you form in your attention. It took awhile to see this and he had me think about it for awhile to conceptualize what he was asking me to do. To form the idea. I began to listen to the differences in the sounds, some where quiet and some were loud snaps . So I began to see that my attention could insert sounds in my pre-attention (where the 'future' sound will appear and then happen) yet have my attention form the sounds into alignment instead. I began focusing on the sounds in a way that saw my attention creating them into the sequences they were formed in. My attention was now fuel for the sound. I began then making them faster, or more louder, etc, and got to the point i could sit in the darkness and the silence and intend a loud snap in the woods before it happened and have it appear! I practiced focusing my attention in different areas to hear the sounds from there, and then behind me, etc. Scaring my cat and stuff. He then said that my attention is creating sound now and aligning into form, and yet sounds you are forming are physical. You are snapping twigs with it already, and rattling the windows, you are breaking even large branches with it too. Last night you shifted and began to see your attention as even living itself,, forming imaginary 'helpers' that are forming the sounds for you and preforming your magic. I had told him this thought. He said now that this is powerful indeed and had me focus into the night onto my neighbours house and imagine my friends there in my attention. my helpers who make sound. He said command them make sound over there on the shed. i focused and he said "Imagine they have big bricks" and so i did my best and focus my attention to unfold. Large heavy crashes started happening in the night and i was a little freaked out by the power. He aid then, while i was very active, now focus onto the car sitting their in the weeds and have make it move. My attention was formed already into lines that could make sound into the directions of my focus, and that was helpful. I focused on the car and thought of some of my perceptions of the helpers and also saw that my attention could alone grip the car. But i think it was the helpers mostly because it moved as soon as i aligned them, and the car started rocking back and forth, in a wild motion. My helpers were a little crazy it seems. Fun though. Now you can imagine some of the things that this form of attention could begin to do and learn i am sure. But I am afraid that i can not tell you who the prophet is. I can not give out his true name. If you had a mentor who taught you great things of power, and who also had great enemies, and who did great things but as i just stated his life to be, and was, and asked not to be named and trusted me to let me see him and speak of him even, without using his name or pointing him out, would you point him out? I'll get to what I have read of your book in a moment I hope you are not offended that i have not read all of it. It did catch me too, i have a few things to say but must wait a bit.

[serloco]

The prophet has already said, and seen, that one day he will be revealed by the light. And they will see him and will know him.

[serloco]

billy wrote:   As to someone possibly following this thread (AND-- I am laughing about that), one point of clarity.  I f***ed up (as humans are want to do) and alienated my wife and daughter.  Serloco admirably noted that it is the females "hearts" one would want to win over, and most certainly that would be most true of one's wife and daughter.

Serloco and I have great affinity, and in the issue mentioned--it matters in so much so that I hold (win) my wife and daughter deeply and dearly in my heart BEYOND challenging manifestations.  I do recommend to others to mine (or is it mind?) the wisdom of serloco.  Fabulous really. Yes, thank you, it does come from my heart and my experiences from the heart. From both my loss and my truest most precious gains.  You, as a man of admiration for the beneficial qualities of shame can recognize the wisdom gained from the loss of not following the heart and love.

don Juan did tell us to follow a path with heart  and did teach a way to power, but he failed to see that his teaching that compassion is shame, and is fake, is a bad tonal awareness. He often did paint a cold scene in his teachings, and allthough his teaching led me to great heights and aided my journey he had an icey dream scene. Conpassion is very real, and very besutiful too, and so is empathy, and all the gifts we have built from them. I do not need to feel compassion as pity. I can understand pain and suffering and did not enjoy it in myself, and do not enjoy to see it in others. It is not called pity because it is not the same as pity. I can have compassion for a sick man, and heal him while not having pity for myself. i can still genuinely care to help this man not only to heal but how to heal himself and heal his own pity if he even has any. he may accept his fate and not feel pityfull in it that space you know? Sure it may even be pityful to you that he can heal and is left helpless, defeated, but can i understand his pain and the awefull feeling it creates, if it does so? yes and can i feel love for him, his spirit inside of him, the potential of his damaged form, and help him through genuine compassion?/ YES!!! But not in don Juan's awareness position if i were to enter it then. It would be fake, a shame, and only pity in disguise. I hated that knowledge!! Explore to find genuine love and genuine care and compassion too and you will find it everywhere. Seek it as real in yourself, as osmething that can grow way beyond what you know of it, that can, as any seed, be nurtured cared for, and protected so to bloom into life and into form, and grow fruit in abundnant varieties. Do not plant seeds that kill love or distort it in aweful ways, but see for yourself and decide for yourself which way to find.

[serloco]

"Her presence inspires around her beauty to grow and to blossom. The more I look at her the greater and more beautiful she becomes with every passing moment." -Love enchantment that has won the attention of many lovely and fertile young women.