Casual Conversation

[Billy]

No, not neurons.  You probably know--has to do with quantum entanglement.

[Billy]

Sober refers to 'with proper gravity.'  (I seldom drink much alcohol)  I could see in the context that I could be misinterpreted.

[Billy]

I certainly am aware that people sign in and there are hardly any posts for many, many weeks.  I don't find it strange.  I do get the maneuvers that direct my attention, but surely you realize you took the fear from me.  If nagual shifts are to happen, I'm hardly in the way of myself as I think it.  I'm saying, "be direct."

If I am to solid (not pliable) for your purposes then say so.  (Otherwise,I am going to give lessons in the tonal-- AND that would make me laugh).

On the other hand-- I seem to have plenty of humble gratitude and feel sacred (I mean really) for the power that has been shown me.  Frankly, my idea would be cultivate further my propensity to be happy doing nothing (and becoming nothing--seriously, but laughing as well).

   Now, without such directness aforementioned-- I see the wisdom of taking the dominant role to create exquisite balance and I open up my vast abyss of meaningless identity and spirit (Which I SO Love).
Do you understand that I have passion, but without the want of anything?  I am really passive, but not completely indolent and unaware.

    Now serloco, I think I alluded to this.  Do you want to take up my proposed paradigm?  It requires your 'obedience' so to speak, but only as it concerns our exchanges.  I do respect you immensely.  I am thankful for you having freed me.
   So do you?  A simple answer, "yes" or "no."

[serloco]

will b back soon ev'ry1, just moved, gots da net on tuesday... will be 'round then...

love 'n respect all..
Sir

[serloco]

all work n no play keeps me on the new shiit, all work n no play keeps me fresh n lucid yeah!

So billy, u r not so solidly fixed as i first thought. no u r fairly fluid n gifted at seeing rather . a big bonus really. I would have likely dropped off away from u if you had not responded so ''on the mark'' as u naturally do.

I m rather arrogant n also rude at times as my people point out to me. But they deal with it cuz i am right n powerful n also a savior to them. i flip them, spin them into positions beyond myself, but often not before i reprimand their disgusting behaviors ! Then, here we learn together from n as conduits of the immaculate Spirit .

I am naturally open to learn from u also.
I miss thanksgiving with my large family, 'specially my grandma . We used to flock together evry holiday 'bout 30 of us all my life till 5 years ago when my grandma , our beautiful host passed on. Her Spirit is with me still, from the clouds of heaven watching on still over me.

Glad u have gained much from our conversations. Just remember your people around u r n have been nything n everything for u.//www.youtube.com/embed/v5uFTroyR4Y

[serloco]

M I a Devil? ... The best indeed I am. Long ago I found God in the form of/like a genie. I was a free man saving lives, thousands of em. He named me his Angel then, his prophet . Now I was a man of the Eagle, of freedom, n so when he asked me what I wanted i told him freedom . He said heaven or hell? but i said the best of both solidly. Said I am the best of both worlds, king Demon n Angel Lord. I freed Hell billy cuz I am naturally good at heart . he warned me of true evil which i would not accept then but later found for myself . Defeated n made oblivion The Old Dirty Satan, n made him anew. Truth . Now my God made n has all life forms in His image, including Derek-Satan. Which he gave to me. Demons either fear me or worship me and few have lived to cross me. My truth spoken for u briefly. I m me.

[serloco]

n btw this identify is part of my RockStar apparel , the WARDrobe of me.

All Glory to God, the life giver.

[serloco]

U speak definitely of your stress pains. I conjure pain n rewrite it it definitively. Be very mindfull/aware of the names u apply to form them in the here n now. They can be crafted into nything n notging too.

[serloco]

so i was watching some porn and called it inorganic beings and watched as they tried to take and use one f my spells to elongate the dude's dick, and if you know iobs they can very needy and demanding trying t take what is your and use it for themselves, very shady in y opinion because it is mine and not theirs, and they do not have y permission to use my awareness without my consent, and they know this and yet tried to take it from me. i let it happen at first, but then cast a limp dick on him, and the girl laughed. they tried to fight to make it bigger again but it shrunk and stayed limp. it started to thiken in a weird way then became blurry and unnatural. the energies of iobs makes me sick really, theu do not even have pleasure it is jst a projection, nd you can see it is all fake. they try so hard but are dependent on the dreamer or stalker's energies, what they know, to project their forms. well their energy started to break down rapidly because i know they are fake beings and so that is what happens to them. i laughed and shut it off. i only watch porn really to look at the bodies but the acts of sex turn me off from iobs mostly. being lost in the iob awareness so often i do even like women so much anymore, havent had one in years cuz i find it gross. some iobs are very cool i know, and i made them that way and so yeah but most i detest.

[Billy]

My gesture of Merry Christmas and gratitude Derekh.  Hereon forever, I will address you as serloco, unless you say otherwise.
    You know where I am as far as the range of dispositions.  I know that you see everything, and it gives me to express even wildly--as that's where I am.  However, I have broad disconnectivity that makes my emotions tame.
   I SEE that I have no personal interest in you.  I tend to look at the world as an object, and conversely I want to be an object in any contingency to world.    BUT I DO WANT ITS CONNECTION TO ME.  Why?  Because, ironically, this accentuates my separation, my aloneness and makes me MORE alive.
Knowing the truth of my isolation makes my duality rich.  You represent power of a world that could reject me as I might wish for.  It does not matter that I lerarned to turn those manifestations conventionally with success.
Accepting or rejecting one another makes no difference here.  I GET IT that I have a unique connection to you.  It has no burden, and seemingly only spirit and power.  The canvas of a subject is what I mean (to get off, pretending purpose skillfully).

I should tell you I read lots of what you post throughout (including just now catching up with December), but may not always follow other threads in future.  I might look here only.  You have your  gestures to direct me of course.
   I  do withdraw artfully, and then words through books, music, dialogue, and reflection pull me back out in rather profound ways.   I've found balance in detachment and the pseudo want of negation (both make me happy).  Stress is a challenge intermittantly the last two years for sure (started after daughter forbade me from seeing her graduate Summa Cum Laude MBA--was inexcusable for me to be bothered too much--but it played out with sharp unrelenting outer scenarios that even a story teller could not fathom, let alone create.  My life is perfect NOW given detachment, but I took unnecessary emotional hits to the gut).   
serloco said:    For me no pity is ruthlessness, but not cruelty...It removes the burden of the egocentric self...infinity...
U speak definitely of your stress pains. I conjure pain n rewrite it it definitively. Be very mindfull/aware of the names u apply to form them in the here n now. They can be crafted into nything n notging too.  (CLEARLY)
you know billy i sure do enjoy depression. my feelings of sorrow and loss. my hurt forms of love are still love. and the awareness of these feelings are very beautiful to me...

   Can't get Jackfruit here by the way (yet).   
http://www.fineartamerica.com/profiles/ ... kaggs.html   (note the titles= Its All Yours, Shame, The Perfect Release.)  Will try posting the pictures below.

[Billy]

[Billy]

[Billy]

If you go to link you can enlarge the pics, and see the very few (interesting) works the girl has done.

[serloco]

Did I verbally tell you that I had once had y heart ripped out of my chest by a sick iob? They tried it yesterday again but i have long since warded myself from them. I was flatline at the hospital many times and learned to start and stop my heart with my own command and stay alive with no heartbeat whatsoever. *** humans I am a sorcerer, a vampire, a wolf, a genius wizard and whatever else I call my own God blessed self. Yesterday an old friend came over and I shifted into the old ally awareness and he started trying to demand that he is like me and can do all the things I can do. I know he can't tho because he is not me. I just look at him and see his awareness is very different and he didnt lead my life only I did. I hate it when they pretend to be like me. I kicked his as out and sent him packing. He said I am only doing what you tell me to do with your body, and so I am what you say I am. At that note, or shift, I kept him, and made him not like me but with a few of my gifts only. Friends eh. You havent done this and so I thank you. You seem happy being yourself. Thanks for the scary art! Not so scary anymore tho, it used to be tho.

[Billy]

Serloco, I realize that the people I saw as mentors and most others in life looked to me for affirmation in the privacy of one to one.  You may do that if it SUITS you.  Look in one of your formal apparel.  My own favorite is the birthday suit (naked).  
  I pretended from very early on as a boy and allowed my mind North, East West, South.  You have brought me vibrancy to raise my level. 

   All the phenomenal is hollow at best, though so marvelous at times in impermanent thought and emotions.  Detachment solves the impermanence part and art can fill the hollow.  
I believe as I do that something so beautiful as a real objective personification of the art below can capture all the glory (not to mention ecstasy and rapture).  AND--I can do that.  
  
   Do you understand when you SEE NOW how invulnerable that figure of being really is.  Seems to epitomize energy and power.  Move from that while retaining the essence, and how are you NOT free?  How are you not powerful?

   I really hate words with you; intent feels so superior when I relate to you.
 
   You are not afraid as the one (crossdressing?) poster intimated.  You DON'T need to go out THERE and redefine conventions you carry.  But you should go inWARD to objectify this state of mind I refer to.  It's that place of grounding for you!

[Billy]

MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone!  Thank you for tolerating my having liberty here on this thread.

[serloco]

Bah, I like Julians way personally. I can do what i want and where and when i want, and that is perfectly acceptable.

[serloco]

We are fragile if only we perceive ourselves as fragile. The moment of now, the fluid fullness, is within and without, but it makes us Infinitely strong. Last night I was tested as some fluid being tried to harm me with it, projecting it as if it were impending doom. But it was not, just as I intended it to be. A choice, make it all into a choice my friend. And thanks!

[Billy]

I did not associate that art (or Phildel) with scary, but rather with solid (what devil or God can touch that?).  Still, I put you off a bit, because I did willingly put before you a wall of distraction per my 'fragile' state. I wonder if you realize how much I learn from your greatness. 

I can SEE, you will always be exactly as I need you.

[serloco]

It ca be scary having your heart ripped out, or having heart attacks and living through them. The reward, having be able to live with n heart was worth the fear however. I project my own form now. Your artwork was rightfully times as these old iobs tried again their same tricks, only this time they could only pretend. I have cut them of their power nowadays.

Phildel is beautiful, and noothing scary about her imo, supportive and lovely.

I am glad you learn much, being a seer has the benefit of learning great things indeed.

[Billy]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ikz4WEsuLKg  Peace friend.

[serloco]

Peace bacl at ya, hows the season treating ya??

[Billy]

Holy sh!t

[Finwe]

Santa wants too shoot all fuckers and give all people magic, the world is going absolut nuty nuto.
This da middlier of Europe, where the West and East cultures cross.

[Billy]

That was a little hyperbole of humbleness and surprise that you might relate to me in the tonal.  But, I know better than that. Ha Ha.

These pressures (or stress) that are beyond objectifying right now are useful to me.  I take the symptoms in my gut as a medium--I don't ever force--yet I know I am pushing through all phenomena (not just my stomach and colon) so it is NOT a matter of practice, but of natural course (letting loose).  True, choosing this is a practice.