billy's basic detachment practice

[Billy]

yes....you tip the balance towards life as I do.

By the way, my work is an ongoing war.  It really is cool to have what I am doing at 'this stage' with what I just obtained this last year from you

[Billy]

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[bit shiny]

hello

i am sharing you dream

people are very different i understand

what direction do you forsee your selves flying towards

do you have a preference of wind ?

what stirs within you

it is not important for me but it is important to ask your self possibly

the question where are you now ?

for the launching pad

bring your bags if you like

even if you say that having no bags is your bags

they'll be tinder

[Billy]

bit shiny wrote:

[Billy]

bit shiny,

"even if (I) say that having no bags..."

even the even ifs have clarity (to me)-





you delight me-

who needs my clarity?


hello to you too,
isn't it dusty up there?

come down here with me to stir and obfuscate the muddy bottom

[bit shiny]

even clever

i am here for the bears

the flavor of honey is whats important

its in the rock you know

[Billy]

bit shiny, do you even have work to do, or do you just splay around??

[bit shiny]

every good folk tale must have some bears

now don't tell me you don't believe in fairy tales

you have every thing figured out too down to the last decimal point

pull the plug out the bath and watch the bubbles as they disappear

then agree with sedrick about the infinite calculations

solidifying your construct

fairy dust make you sneeze ?

its the honey yummy yummy yummy

come get some more ill put on the porridge

power ? its a flower

one had talent not sure which one

ever thing under the sun

passed the test

was obviously the best

and never never land was the new address!

[bit shiny]

yes you are the talented one i seek

have to go work in the forest now

[Billy]

....continue billy's detachment practice (piece from book written years ago):

Through practice (IN REASON), you can and will detach without identifying specific
emotions. For example, I don't even care to know what CAUSE is bothering me
anymore. Just awareness to know something is bothering me is enough to give
absolution.

What the *** do I care if it's jealousy, or anger, or resentment? I KNOW all
of whatever it is to be complete junk. I simply take the weight, recognize it, and eat it
up like a feathery potato chip , and retain the weight's energy.

OMG, because I can do this! Not always, but most often.

  I don't have to deal with states of mind anyway, because with detachment practice,
not many of them carry weight after a while.

 So for you, perceptual extensions from ego and self-reflection continue, but without
as much weight. (IN REASON) You know that most phenomena are silly and useless, by
simply telling yourself. Yes, TELLING YOURSELF...

   Telling yourself may not be much, but when you understand the empirical change
after doing it enough, this has clout. The problem is you don't want to believe the stuff
in your head is garbage; you can even say I get billy's idea that life is silly nonsense, but
won't accede to the reality, because there is no empiricism within you to say it is true.

   AND, this is why you need the empiricism of objectified shame; it cuts any illusion that
you and your thoughts are important down to size. {How can you play freely if you
always respond to your self-flattering image? (Believe me, that image has unwanted
import.)}

   SO, you use reason for the practice of detachment in the emotion of shame. You
detach from other emotions well enough, if you know a little about detachment, but
never from shame because you don't even go there. Society taught you not to. What
the *** does society know about your shame?

   ... it is THE premier selfconscious emotion. Period.

   And yet, you can't even access your shame willingly, because you have buried its
capacity in any conscious form. 

     It can be so adrenal--such a rush and almost addictive.

   This is GOOD. In order to get the same... (I am laughing so hard, but not because it
isn't true; I'm laughing because I know I will blow your mind, that what I am saying IS
TRUE.) > In order to get the same adrenal rush (high from being low and truly the most
worthless piece of ****), EVENTUALLY you have to go deeper into your soul, where the
outside world disappears completely.

  You're convinced of being so vile that your own life-force tries to leave you, and your
'Soul' becomes the last affirmation.

  Your own soul, a consuming phenomenological judgment of your existence, is totally an
abomination. {You need to, want to go here!} There aren't the right adjectives for this
horrid appraisal of your being alive. (Yet, you will lick your chops to go there again,
because this phenomenon can be transferred to masturbatory sex--holy Jesus--
you cannot find a better way to PLAY with yourself.)

   Anyway, now detachment practices take on a whole new quality. You draw from the
phenomenon of an emptied soul. When you detach, you really are detached. What
people strive for in meditation, but seldom realize, is realized. And the bottom line is
that you become sort of omniscient, you know, because there is nothing to know. Your
energy is not wasted, and you begin to feel the presence of your own body more often.
You have boundless amounts of energy.

  There is a fundamental gradual shift in demeanor. Just as shame is self-conscious
and has a quality of going inward, you lose interest going out to the world, and the
world comes to you. This brings 'advantages' physically, psychologically, and spiritually,
sexually and in every respect of having a quality state of living.

  (IN REASON) You trust yourself, and hold to the clarity of the qualitative state that is
wholeness--Sense of BEING YOUR WORLD/feeling/body. Really, the body at times of
this awareness has a perceptible radiance. Everything else is nought, and you are alive.
Even moments of ego activity has the quality of presence. My writing is almost ALL
ego. Ego is good in the capacity of SELF understood. Ego is PLAY. You trust to use ego
freely, because you ARE free.

  I have kept (REASON) in parentheses much of the time, because whatever YOU do in
detachment is done by LOGIC. No emotions are to be involved in detachment.
Understand?

  I love emotions; they just aren't to be part of the detachment practice.
Playing a basketball game can be filled with emotions. When you step to the free throw
line, you need to focus without them.

   Moreover, you want to view judgment this way. You begin cultivating that there are
no 'negative' and 'positive' emotions, no negative and positive conditions, 'just' YOUR
rich, prurient world in detachment. Yes, sexy. (Okay, that's my world.) (Seriously, life
reduces to attraction, arousal, approach; and, that IS sexy.)

   I think once you are adept from empiricism, and taste the richness of all experiences,
you will want to go to the 'bad' places. This is going to to sound brash. A decade ago,
when the 'opportunity' for despair presented itself I acquiesced to "Go for it." When
the 'opportunity' of 'dark night of the soul' was upon me, I welcomed it.

  When I wrote this book, I was determined to see my shame, my self-hatred. No, that
isn't worded right. I began writing to be ashamed and self-hateful as my sole purpose.
Believe me, the book was not titled SHAME OMG DELICIOUS when I started (laughing)

{The idea of a book early on was vague; I just wrote.} And, I went to fucking horrible
places.

   SELF confidence is an amazing thing. You get that from detachment practice. It is
ALWAYS a logically objective process, and you want to get down and dirty. You don't
grow up wanting to stay in little league; you want to play hardball at the highest level.
That is why I went to different challenging states of mind. I wanted to objectify them,
and I fucking did.

  It is hard for me to leave comfort zones, and I don't; but REASON itself will 'let go' of
cerebral ****. Energy then teaches without words or confusion. Energy becomes the
mover of actions without ambition. Energy speaks of crucifixion and honor on the same
terms.

   When you are ready, energy will move you; you just need to store the idea it
will. This is intent. Trust that these ideas are my gifts to you, as they were to me.

I am giving you an idea of what can be realized.

[Billy]

I think the most important aspect of detachment beyond the initial stages, is to make the profound connection that detachment is for transcending the conditional in every way, shape, and form.

[Billy]

Self-importance is always reducible to self-pity in essence.  Yet, self-import is 'me.'

I apprehend, not the happenings of the world, but rather myself in isolation.

I am lost to a void without meaning, and this goes hand in hand with instinctual fear.  

Still, I identify with this isolation for freedom.

I can emperically engulf this and be conscious.

[Billy]

Another important aspect of awareness created in detachment is what it reveals. For example, I may feel an inkling of sad depression.

In objective detachment, I allow the space and easily question, WHY?

I will remember I was up very late last night, I had wine a couple hours ago, and I have allowed myself to indulge a petty resentment without realizing it until now.

Do you see what happens?

"Oh, that's WHY I feel as I do."

  The mood usually disappears. The understanding dissipates the brunt of the sad depression.

   Even if sadness remains, it has a quality of intelligent nostalgia. You will be surprised at first, that states of mind typically considered undesirable, become rich and to be enjoyed as are.
  This is something of an empirical practice that becomes a habit. You need a series of such experiences, to know factually, that awareness can override all states of mind.

   You don't 'have' to change what you think and feel. And, lazy as I am, I usually go with 'it'.

   This has lead to having a lot of useless junk (self-reflections) going on, but really, after a while everything is weightless, and if not that, laughable. The envy, the worry, the
regret, the anger, the hatred, the positive emotions, the bodily sensations, the worldly manifestations, ALL are of simple permeating awareness.

 'To be' outdoes entity perception. I become rich in aliveness beyond any one thought or thing.

   A sense of shifting from one 'neurosis' or one object to another is gone. This is where joy and fun is enabled. I can be trampled by life's experience, but it is overshadowed by
my wholeness. A psychological or physical threat that is very real in 'time' has impact, but is not without the delightful energetic consolations of simple awareness.
 
 'It' is life, I like life...... AND, I am generously thankful!

[Billy]

(AGAIN) Wholeness is unconditional.

You are whole, but just not aware.

Reason can render you objective awareness of your presence and life as a vibrant totality.

***You BELONG, only when you SHARE a sense of your phenomenological isolation, the separation.."

Do you know that this is true?

***PASSION is the phenomenal expression of your emptiness and its release

as genuinely exclamatory !! 'celebration,' whatever the mode or mood.

[Billy]

I am not restating another's words (I'm the author).  Then, it does not escape me on several fronts that it is ludicrous for me to tell you my thoughts. 

First, does the word ALONE mean anything to you (me)?

Second, if knowledge is valid, then I point you to sir serloco.  His supercedes mine.

Though I write dim-wittedly in comparison, 'I' ........    ....

[serloco]

I see alone and i think power to be without resistance against you. Just your intent alone and free. I see also connection with everythign directly linked to your own awareness solely. Al becomes one in this. Your one. Alone is possessive, it takes possession and it owns.

[Billy]

serlocoI see alone and i think power to be without resistance against you. Just your intent alone and free. I see also connection with everythign directly linked to your own awareness solely. Al becomes one in this. Your one. Alone is possessive, it takes possession and it owns.



  Then SEE this you freakin billy imposter, ALONE is mine- ALL mine !  Connect without resistance now smart-ass. 

Oh--lotsa lotsa laughter  

I'm serious too, and you KNOW IT!

[Billy]

You are right..   i AM possessive...........................................

[serloco]

Nah, we are serloco-billy.. or billy-serloco here in aloneness. it is connection. i can give another their dreams alone while i remain in mine alone too. your funny tho billy. but if yer me where are your cutters?? i, as far as i know am cutter proof. meaning people can no longer verride my true awareness and intent.. i built huge cutters too.. i am evil.. snip snip snip billy.. what shall i do to you and your world, all the whie i may be in it for a time, or i may just sit here outside of time for awhile looking in.. doing what i will.

[serloco]

oh and btw way billy's posts also usually put a smile on my face too. good to have you as a friend.

[serloco]

and yes i know you want the power to hook me too.. enticing it is.. i know... i am slippery indeed..yet i must admit that we have hooked each other here.

[Billy]

So few listen to spirit; fewer choose to manifest what it speaks.  I'm trained there (so lucky).  You showed me your curve ball already; ya know what ya said--"when all is done, life no serve up a curve."

You better not retreat on me you bastard.  I expect nothing less than what's of heart and spirit.  Don't you dare become a wimp.

[serloco]

In my heart you are, and follow it i do. Keep on being you and i foresee no problems.. Even if i leave we would stay in contact somehow i think and intend. A wimp, do you really think i got it in me? Test me ****, I dare ya.. watch me lose it..

[Billy]

Lose it?? snip snip > that's two.  A doctor Arnkoff does castration there in Detroit.  An hour or so.

[Billy]

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