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An aspect to tend to in all your related 'spiritual' endeavors, one that will keep you in the right direction, is to continually notice if there are unintended and unwanted body gestures.
In one sense, it is good to be fully conscious of your endeavor to 'learn' so long as you can witness your own body. THEN, whatever you are doing necessarily becomes the detached view. I mean, LOOK to notice if you are uptight, serious, and breathing shallow, etc.
GET what I mean here???? THIS is exactly the **** you are supposed to gain wisdom about. Yet, you're moving onward with 'grandiose thoughts' in this bodily contortion thinking to be doing some good.
I'll trade 'knowing every fucking thing' in the world this moment, for the intelligent and heightened realization of oozing life from a thing called my body. PAY ATTENTION
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Recapitulation is a wildcard in this affair. I had read much of Carlos Castaneda's work decades ago, and I was aware that the staunch disciplined reasoning of Ayn Rand {which was influential} was fairly incongruous to the tricks of Don Juan. Still, I tried recap in a dark cedar closet a few times, and the ten minutes I lasted was equal to my longest tries at traditional silent meditation. I don't have much patience whatsoever.
Yet, when I began recounting childhood as an unintended addition to an unintended writing splurge, arising from unintended marital upheaval, I knew the energies created therewith were exactly what Don Juan was referring to. I then identified the recap and focused. Ideas are very powerful and can be manifested when you least expect it.
I unravelled the most unsavory moments of my existence, and got deep in the mix to remember details-- to feel the emotions. I was besieged with INCOMPREHENSIBLE ENERGIES. I gained some space from the continuous 'wonderous onslaught.' I then intended to take this recap to undeterminable extremes. I wanted to recreate intense isolated moments in childhood that portended to self-hatred and a shameful state to desist being conscious. I understood that I was risking my sanity in doing so, but I WAS GONE!
I was GONE to brutal, unrelenting self-deprecation with the objective of finding self-hatred and totally self-destructive shame. I found neither. Still, the intensity of my machination was unbearable, and I began having an identical repetitive nightmare that was the startling face of emptiness. Every night for two weeks I would wake from this, with the horror of my wife screaming out in accompaniment. My wife did NOT have some sort of habit doing this prior. I got to where I could examine the foreboding in the nightmare as if stopping time. It reaked of undesirable fate and coarse death, and I would come to possesively embrace this nightmare because it belonged to me. It was a suitable substitute for the shame and self-hatred that no longer existed (they cannot exist in my life).
A few things became empirically certain to me. I knew of the morning that I would no longer be visited by this nightmare. I knew that the cummulative effect of these occurences was an unbreachable, underlying equanimity; in no small way I had opened the door to my freedom. However, that same morning, my emotions became wildly undirected as nothing anymore could possibly make any sense. For weeks I was completely lost as to what constituted a proper outlook. I sensed being free, but what is it I was supposed to do?
The beauty of this state, was that it made me gravitate to the underlying peace that was mine without fail (it is there to this day; it will be there always). I detach to be THEREABOUT.
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I am aware that some people are reading my thread. I will tell you to grasp that embellishment of my accounts are part and parcel of my literary style. I am romantic about life, and so exaggerate the magnitude of the overall picture (not by very much though). I consistently grow into the visions I portray. Serloco, has been magnificently generous in helping me see limitlessly, and he has hugely (incredibly) influenced my doings, and that includes my projecting these writings 'out there.'
I have much better ways of celebrating my sense of ego than sharing my ideas here, so it is not so much in that vein that I write. I mean, I am totally anoymous here and don't give a ***. I mean to say I don't identify with being 'emperor billy' (smile), or anyone unique simply because I pass on what is/was availed to myself.
I am unique, just not in regard to this. I am surprised by lack of response, because I know the things I speak of have to be resonating resoundly within some here. I will gladly share insights in very specific ways taylored to your personality and situation. That is the best way to turn abstracted dialogue into empirical opportunities. I prefer that dialogue be here, but would certainly repond to well-shaped PM inquiries. I am trustworthy, if you prefer anonymity.
I have not quite figure if everyone here is so fucking advanced, and for that I should apologize fror my stupidity (laughing), or shy.
I moved myself from off the stuff I talk about here. My experience is that the ideas herein are very powerful. It just takes a step at a time.
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I am aware that some people are reading my thread. I will tell you to grasp that embellishment of my accounts are part and parcel of my literary style. I am romantic about life, and so exaggerate the magnitude of the overall picture (not by very much though). I consistently grow into the visions I portray. Serloco, has been magnificently generous in helping me see limitlessly, and he has hugely (incredibly) influenced my doings, and that includes my projecting these writings 'out there.'
I have much better ways of celebrating my sense of ego than sharing my ideas here, so it is not so much in that vein that I write. I mean, I am totally anoymous here and don't give a ***. I mean to say I don't identify with being 'emperor billy' (smile), or anyone unique simply because I pass on what is/was availed to myself.
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One of the magnificent consequences of consistent detachment is how newness is brought to perception. For example, a circumstance I am well familiar with, and including the attached emotions ordinarily in tow with it, is very different in texture. A weightily unpleasant manner in the past, is realized quite differently now. I remember how I habitually responded, and can feel things in a similar way, only I am looking at this with amusement, aware that I cannot possibly be truly _______ (resentful, angry, jealous, envious, hurt, slighted... whatever) All the options become available too. I CAN accede to any of the emotions ordinarily perceived, or I can choose another response altogether (or none whatsoever as I often simply choose ignorance).
It is amazing how stoked with energy the world is, and too the persons who may try to bear down on you. This is yours.
Even mundanity and lulls in vitality are completely new at every turn. My first mentor showed me how this newness is accessed by simple choices to extract yourself from heavy situations. Again, just the conscious choice to do any activity to take yourself away (to give separation) can attain a special quality of self-empowerment. This is no different than awareness of exercising intent. In fact it is the intent here which distinguishes it from just randomly losing yourself in an activity. Bringing awareness to what you are doing is important; intending such awareness in acts of planned retreat is sacred sustenance.
Trust me on this. Take a habit you have for reprieve or relaxation and inculcate it with the presence of mind that this doing is to be spacious and 'purposeful in its own grace.' I can almost guarantee you the feeling in return from... (sensation of self) is significantly enhanced.
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It (impeccability) adds up.
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Hope you like this:
"Turn thine eyes back upon thyself, and see thou judge not the doings of others." (Imitation of Christ)
I married a tyrant. My wife in earlier years had the most stunning figure. Her 37" 23" 36" was with feminine, slender shoulders that were adorned with firm, generous tits. She was beautiful. She was precociously intelligent, witty, poised, and graceful. AND OMG, she was voluptuous and sexy. Men she allowed within her purview fawned all over her. I am NOT exaggerating how gorgeous; and she loved sex.
Susan just dominated me. {She did allow me autonomy to do as I wished if it did not involve her.}
Truly, she ruled in EVERY facet (and, oh do I have juicy stuff respecting the sexual arena.)
Anyway, after recapitulation that followed a marital 'war' many decades later, I began to find perverse joy in our long established dynamics. I created fantasies of her cuckolding me, and even went so far as to assimilate obedience to her in submissive fashion for a couple months. This brought absurdly strange instability in how we related. I worked through most fluctuations with persistent detachment practice. After coming to this forum, (having serloco as a mirror at the right time), I began using my detachment acumen to project the world differently, and act out of attentions new to me. Two things have happened in regard to my marital status: I now OWN Susan absolutely. My detachment is nearly impeccable within the marriage.
So, I'm telling you now because I have recently been cutting up Susan with razor-sharp incisions.
{you know: being ruthless, cunning, patient and sweet (while shredding her pride and inflicting pain where there are core nerves).}
This morning I figuaratively pulled the knife from out of Susan, and applied salve with perfect control; then I laughed and laughed at her for the perfect measure of benign insult.
Then just by chance, I read the Imitation of Christ quote that starts this post.
I had the clear insight of enjoying myself and knowing that my laughter was my laughter at myself. I took this another step and reclaimed the shame I brought to Susan's image of herself. Oh my God, was it ever a sacred, TASTY sensation to sink into myself emptied of all the **** that ties me to useless images.
Anyhow, what I mean to convey most, is that I find the power of 'being who I am' in this controlled folly when I return inward to humbleness. For me this is not about being philanthropic, moralistic, timid, or saintly. This is about adjoining the infinite void {the place of indifference} to work with.
Also, I want to say that my wife took care of herself and is very beautiful and sexy, but just not a 37" 23" 36". Maybe too much info here. I probably will erase this post in a few days.
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I'm aware of my 'me, me, me' and also my absorption in the first attention in these writings. I have the idea, and thus the intent this absorbtion will not last. I have an eternity; there is no rush.
I mentioned Miguel de Molinos for inculcating self-annihilation, but you sift through a lot of trash there. I know the mechanics of this 'mystical exercism' like an algebraic equation. It really can be logically processed and articulated.
If anyone is game for cutting their own heart away, and soberly destroying themselves to entertain emptiness, I really do know the workings of this including the physiological and phenomenological foundation that underlies it. There are nuances, temptations, obstacles, complexities, etc. where it is helpful to know the lay of the land. I know it well.
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One example for needing guidance is that when you become effective interiorly, there is an attraction to manifest changes and open up your world. This is probably not a good idea until enough maturity is developed in experiencing many, many varying aspects of the humble self drawn to emptiness. Each of these intersections of the humbled self with conventional reality are going to involve huge unforseen swings physically, psychologically, and spiritually in relational terms. Others close to you become substantially affected one way or the other anyways. Acceleration of this will be very problematic and unmanageable.
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Perhaps a better idea, is to play monopoly and move directly to GO. I mean, if you can empirically gain understanding from serloco, forget that I ever wrote a single word and glean from him the concept of attention/intent in and of the void. His empiricism of dark indifference and workings of life and death is genuine. Serloco is sorcerer sublime.
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You are such a nice vampire
Oh---do respond here for my pleasure
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Okay, I'm sort of on a 'fast' track. I'm within myself enough, and I am sternly aware to not be too fanciful in my doings here. I certainly can be fanciful, as I am very open.
I am experiencing a natural (uncontrived) empirical mode of completely disconnecting from all persons. It is very nice. I don't know who I'm telling this to, only that it is maybe for a handful of you on the sorcery forum.
I don't have precise formulation (but I will soon) to be of help, but it stands out that I should emphasize not to favor conditions or judge them as favorable or unfavorable (you will become more effectively creative later). Conditions NOW need to be irrelevent, and THIS as a focused aspect of your detachment habit. Practice emphasizing that all manifestations, happy to unhappy, are to be put aside for a clarity arising.
For the time being, shift your responsibility for the manifested conditions into a consuming idea that your concern is not on the physical qualatitive state, but on a voracious appetite to acquiesce to things just as they are. (It does not matter that some feigning happens during this practice.. stay with it to make it the mainstay of detachment, meditation, thinking, reflection, etc.)
{I am neutralizing happenstance. No matter what else I do, psychological states prone to worldly results keep me enslaved. (I turn a primary profession or recreational activity into my canvas for this exercise. Not surprisingly, I discover more efficiency in the occupation too at the same time.)}
serloco has been helping me consistently, and I want to acknowledge that for his deserved satisfaction. It helps to speak the words (so I do here)> "I am very receptive now serloco." (he knows that).
I can't tell you enough-- look at pieces serloco has written on death, healing, vampirism, and on and on. serloco is masterful.
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Okay, I'm on a 'fast' track. I'm within myself enough, and I am sternly aware to not be too fanciful in my doings here. I certainly can be fanciful, as I am very open.
I am experiencing a natural (uncontrived) empirical mode of completely disconnecting from all persons. It is very nice. I don't know who I'm telling this to, only that it is maybe for a handful of you on the sorcery forum.
I don't have precise formulation (but I will soon) to be of help, but it stands out that I should emphasize not to favor conditions or judge them as favorable or unfavorable (you will become more effectively creative later). Conditions NOW need to be irrelevent, and THIS as a focused aspect of your detachment habit. Practice emphasizing that all manifestations, happy to unhappy, are to be put aside for a clarity arising.
For the time being, shift your responsibility for the manifested conditions into a consuming idea that your concern is not on the physical qualatitive state, but on a voracious appetite to acquiesce to things just as they are. (It does not matter that some feigning happens during this practice.. stay with it to make it the mainstay of detachment, meditation, thinking, reflection, etc.)
{I am neutralizing happenstance. No matter what else I do, psychological states prone to worldly results keep me enslaved. (I turn a primary profession or recreational activity into my canvas for this exercise. Not surprisingly, I discover more efficiency in the occupation too at the same time.)}
serloco has been helping me consistently, and I want to acknowledge that for his deserved satisfaction. It helps to speak the words (so I do here)> "I am very receptive now serloco." (he knows that).
I can't tell you enough how helpful-- look at pieces serloco has written on death, healing, vampirism, and on and on.
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I presume most here have some detachment acumen. So, think of it this way: If you have this voracious appetite to acquiesce to things just as they are, then it stands to reason that detachment is no longer from the conditional elements and judgements thereof. Your habit of detachment inherits a quality of airy pauses and simple separation from ALL occurence without specific identities. This is a very liberating comportment, and you will SEE detachment is practiced more easily when such empirical freedom happens.
The dependency on identities to satisfy your desires dissolve. Your essential desires and wants are strangely met in the same forms and identities disassociated from. I woud say that the persons, concepts, forms, etc. become objects and 'time' slows down. You certainly will gain a sense of humor when realizing that nothing is what it seemed before. I mean to say that everything outside of inner-SELF loses potency. The humor comes from understanding that you act alone, and that you had given credit in the past to 'forces' that really never existed.
Detachment is NOW detachment from form in entirety, because that will necessarily make sense after a while. Watch how newly acquired knowledge naturally becomes fluid action.
However you do it, learn detachment NOW
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So you know I know, I post from strings attaching me to my self-importance. I have edge (attitude) that reminds me too that I'm delusional when spewing. Life has a way of testing this and figuratively burying me.
Many layers of **** to get through, but I'm fairly straightforward. I'm honest.
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Note* I am reaching.. extending in an insecure, ornery manner. LAUGH...... still true. I mentioned earlier, I write ostentateously when conditions are less easy. There is some negative tightening, and yet this position allows me to stalk myself. I enjoy the 'unenviable' by a hearty, sensual retreat to the bottom of it all.
Oh my fucking god, I really am substantially doing this **** I speak of.. SMILE.
There are highs in my lows. There are lows in my lows. There are highs in my highs, and I make sure to SEE the lows in the highs. I'm a rat in the sewer, and an angel in heaven.
What I really am is a pig at the trough....... ....
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I am not on a short high. I have seen the trajectory over years, over a lifetime. I am Ayn Rand-like through and through. Reason is my GOD. What a combination, what a dychotomy: the idea of Ayn Rand and Carlos Castaneda. Yet, I followed reason and 'miraculously' bridged them.
I may seem clinical and quite tonal oriented, but I asure you I am a dreamer.
You can break the chains as I have done. I will expound further and tailor knowledge for you if you engage. I am very sharp. {I will gain insight for myself as well}
Again, these last three posts will be history shortly. {I want to keep the thrust on this thread concise}
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Separation, created space, reasoning out DETACHMENT
In post #2 serloco:
I think i am preety good at detachment there billy.. Mr. Tonal fixation.. Detachment for me is also to trust the nagual, to trust the intent of the body and beyond that which reason an reason. To know detachment is for me also to simply intend to know detachment, and let the body automatically, seemingly magically discover it for you then you find yoursef being detached to everythign in your world incuding detaching form your old feelings. It becomes on a level of feelings, a self awareness cut off valve or even better total detachment from even having feelings.. For myself abandon and detachment go hand in hand, to fixated to any outcome and yet winning the outcome you want automatically with choice.
Btw, I dont mean to cut you up Mr. Tonal (my sweet side for you) because what you say is great and true, just expanding on it into the nagual a lil. You can intend indeed beyond what reason has crafted and thought out for you, but indeed reason can be a good freind as well, as you have made it into.
I mention reason as my base in a post just deleted. I also mentioned somewhere that reason gets it that there is a way to go beyond itself (and is part of that process). What serloco says in his post has come to fruition for me just as he describes it.
Since this is posted already, I will erase it here.. but this fits in right now.
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Do you have the answer? Someone, please answer. I know it already.
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Separation, created space, reasoning out DETACHMENT
In post #2 serloco:
I think i am preety good at detachment there billy.. Mr. Tonal fixation.. Detachment for me is also to trust the nagual, to trust the intent of the body and beyond that which reason an reason. To know detachment is for me also to simply intend to know detachment, and let the body automatically, seemingly magically discover it for you then you find yoursef being detached to everythign in your world incuding detaching form your old feelings. It becomes on a level of feelings, a self awareness cut off valve or even better total detachment from even having feelings.. For myself abandon and detachment go hand in hand, to fixated to any outcome and yet winning the outcome you want automatically with choice.
Btw, I dont mean to cut you up Mr. Tonal (my sweet side for you) because what you say is great and true, just expanding on it into the nagual a lil. You can intend indeed beyond what reason has crafted and thought out for you, but indeed reason can be a good freind as well, as you have made it into.
I mention reason as my base in a post just deleted. I also mentioned somewhere that reason gets it that there is a way to go beyond itself (and is part of that process). What serloco says in his post has come to fruition for me just as he describes it.
Since this is posted already, I will erase it here.. but this fits in right now.
ALSO: nice post (#3) by transitions > Fire Within script.
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on behalf of transitions (from Suzuki)
Which
is
more
important;
to
attain
enlightenment,
or
to
attain
enlightenment
before
you
attain
enlightenment;
to
be
successful,
or
to
find
some
meaning
in
your
effort
to
be
successful?
Right understanding to have focus on current routine
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To follow up on REASON, I took an excerpt from a book I wrote 4 years ago:
Ayn Rand gave me a profoundly sensible understanding of my own reason and logic,
but reading Carlos Castaneda (considered antithetical to Rand), subliminally convinced
reason to "Kum ba yah" (come by here) to that infinitesimal energy. You need reason
to open up and summon energy. The subconscious mind is very powerful. Reason
cannot claim by logic alone the space, the stillness, the silence, the unknown possibility.
Reason knows it needs abandonment to a creative passion and a love affair with
energy. Wheel of Time (Castaneda) was a 'go to' for me. I randomly picked a passage
and thought it through, because it was on a different plain.
I am giving you an idea of what can be realized. Most of what follows should just be
enjoyed simply.
Why do 'spiritual people' write so many books? I mean really, if one repeats over and
over ad nauseam to be in the now, who wants to be there? Seems like an
inauspiciously boring prospect.
Joking aside, want of attracting better conditions, by prayer and seeking, actually does
contradict reason's effort to free itself from constant self-reflection. You, your world,
ARE sufficient already. You need to give up the nonsense of appealing, because
nonsense is what it is. Change is irrelevant to authenticity.
Natural wholeness as you are should be the focal point of reason. Anything else is
self-pity. I am telling you this straight-up.
To want more, becomes restrictive. To want nothing but what you are, is ironically
expansive.
To want more, necessarily pertains to an image you have of yourself, and so your
thoughts and actions are bound to conditions defining that image. Hence, you live as a
societal model. That 'person' cannot exist, and so you live a conflict.
You spend energy to maintain a variety of images. The infrequent times of
authenticity you do have, are lifeless, because you've wasted so much energy.
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{I followed this, by describing how utilyzing shame in privacy opens doors to authenticity by letting you experiment with shame as PLAY.
The taboo here causes adrenal and chemical releases from the body, which translated into psychology, places you in an energetic, passionate state.
The mental conflict is so compelling, that unlike any other emotion, you necessarily have objectivity without doing.}
continued from book....
"If you rightfully allow deep adrenal shame into masturbation (*if not
intercourse) you will taste life as PLAY in energetic passion. You will touch energy as
form, and form as energy in a new way. Shame opens doors, from which you do not
retreat (because it is retreat). Authenticity is a qualitative state. Shame lets you taste
it. This is liberating, since shame starts you out in a sewer. There is nowhere down.
Thus, you lose fear of celebrating (and exploring) your own authenticity.
Philosophically stretched, this exercise is a movement towards non-existence, because a sense of worthlessness
is embedded in your shame {Organisms insufficient to physically compete for life, withdraw instead of
approaching (sex).} YOU IDENTIFY WITH THE ASSOCIATED NEGATION, and then draw
out its POWER in objective detachment. AND in shame's case, detachment requires
NOTHING of you, other than having the experience, because objectivity is already built into it."
I explain in the book (as Charles Darwin posited) that all other emotions are derived from shame and pride. In a typical ape harem (our ancestors millions of years past), the dominant forbade the other ten males (submisssives) coitus with the females. He experienced pleasure and pride, and all human body language of pride are identical to his this day. The submissive apes experienced self-denial and shame (withdrawal), and all of those human gestures associated are identical too.
{Shame is ordinarily a destructive emotion because one cannot acquiesce, excepting that one engage it with intent (imagine how powerfully energetic this is).}
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Continued from book:
Shame is a most powerful emotion, suited for sex and masturbation. Leaving aside
the poignant ontological connections (which in itself is hugely significant to sex when
understood), I will look at the human experience as a combo of WORLD/FEELING/BODY.
WORLD: Shame at a deep level is a relation with the 'WORLD as a whole' that is not
reduced to partial relationships like other emotions (If jealous, jealous of an entity; if
embarrassed, embarrassed from an entity; if angry, angry at an entity; if guilty, guilty
involving an entity). Shame at the base, has relationship in isolation from the WORLD'S
EVERYTHING. That is a big distinction; think of power limited versus power en masse.
Get it?
FEELING: The main bio-ontological abstraction of the FEELING shame IS power and
sex. And, shame is the most predominant medium of power and sex in the universe.
(Think about that rationally based on evolution.) AND, the polar of inadequacy to
abundance is a trick your mind allows (You have to believe, as it is true, powerful pain
and denial can become powerful pleasure.) There is nothing more inadequate than
emptiness, and only shame can steal your soul and make you that empty.
Emptiness not only allows a free flow of energy and FEELING which is conducted through
your body, THAT EMPTINESS IS ENERGY.
BODY: Given the preceding, OMG if you can get to that shameful state that makes
you feel truly worthless. This allows you to give into the power of your shame, and I
promise you will have an adrenal rush that unites WORLD/MIND/BODY. This
masturbation is different than anything you have ever experienced.
For one thing, other emotions are difficult to objectify and maintain at the same time.
When you are angry and objectify, you are no longer angry. In shame you have your cake,
and eat it too; it has conscious STAYING power unlike any emotion.
In shame, you bathe in shame, and your body becomes flush, and THEN you become
even more ashamed, and more consciously objective at the same time. You will enter a
vortex that won't let you out, and one you certainly won't want to leave. All the adrenalin,
endorphins, serotonins, neurotransmitters, and whatever chemicals UNCONTROLLABLY
FLOOD your body, because shame is suddenly getting what it is not supposed to have in
primal bio-socio manifestation of sex and power. You know your own taboo, but now
shamelessly steal from its limitless power, and this makes you EVEN MORE profoundly
ashamed. {This is so overwhelming that you coalesce around pure joy.}
ALL THE WHILE, YOUR sexual stimulation is ever increasingly heightened and super crazy.
Your lost worthless self concedes to shame's magnificent power. You are sucked into
emptiness, wherefore comes indescribably passionate orgasm as infinite shivers. The
pleasure is so intensely great that your joy has the sensation of hurting.
Immediately after, if you are Christian, you will say "JESUS ***!" and try to amend.
You will say, "GOD!" and forgetting yourself, say "***!"
In alternate succession, not even knowing, you will say '*** GOD' repeatedly.
When finally gathered, you say, "OMG, THAT was insane. Thank you dear Jesus."
Question) What are you afraid of? Answer) You are afraid to be yourself! {That's all
it is, honest to GOD.}
THIS ALSO is the answer as to why you cling. You identify with the inadequacy of of shame
and are simply afraid to be who you are.
If unfounded guilt and God (which are pretty much the same) are part of having the
experience, you will be drained afterwards. I would give this shame stuff up. You
won't, but I advise you to.
If you know enough to take guilt out of the equation {Let it be ENERGY}, it can be a
seriously fun, super-intense turn-on. It can be so fucking joyous. You will not only NOT
be drained, you will feel rejuvenated. As long as you have this abundant energy, you
can keep playing around with shame masturbation in unimaginable ways. Something
makes you free. THAT is good.
After such an experience, you now will believe yourself to extend detachment to
other sensibilities, and to start practicing detachment more as a way of being, until it IS
a way of being. The reward is your freedom.
One of the amazing things about being free, is that when you interact with others, you
pretty much know what the score is; where they are coming from, what they are saying,
and what they really want.
There is pretense in controlled folly, then there is pretense.
As I mentioned earlier, wholeness/freedom brings more energy and knocks down
barriers because you honestly do not fake any aspect of reality. And there is irony--to
be forthrightly SELF, involves understanding world as a projection of senses as if in
PLAY. In other words, outside of the essential BEING, you watch impersonal
phenomena that has no weight, no authenticity. It is not you.
{It is Energy in your enlightened state. (This sense of PLAY manifests very gradually, but there is no
disappointment of going backwards--it is of the permanent Peace I spoke of earlier).}
{When you have clearer empirical understanding of this, OMG you will PLAY, and life
can be so much fun.
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